Again & Again

sick and angered by my friends extremely cold and heartless/ honest talkin shit behind my back about me to my friends the source a jealous passion towards a spirit stuck in contention and fame/ just need some time to myself again need to bring back the old days when i was in control of my life again and again/ just endangered with my friends/ extremely bold and honest i'll be when it comes to me/ i said im sorry but you don't hear me/ i tried to say that i was sorry to you but you don't think i speak honestly/ thats ok cause i can move on i'm so sorry/ no

Emotional Times

life sucks sometimes/ friendships turn to lies/ a hatred in disguise it brings tears to my eyes/ i can see the truth from the neutral side in my mind/ confusion cripples me unto my element of control unsureness/ emotional times im just fine/ traumas etched in my mind/ i can see em all the time/ ive seen my share of pain and suffering/ i am just fine/ respecting something more than nothing all the time/ and it's time to move on/ i have seen my faith sailing away/ and i have seen my faiths coming back to me/ i can see it/ coming back to me/ i can see it/ i can taste it/ i can live it cause i'm just fine

Now

well i need to be around you/ and i need to see your eyes on me/ now/ and i need to caress your face with mine/ and i need to know that you care cause i bleed in pain when im without your soul/ cause I love you on a level so high it's hard sometimes I know/ i am to me around you we have to be together/ now/ I'll miss you while i'm gone but here and now is where I belong/ will you wait around for me/ I hope so cause without eachother we're wrong

1 Nite Stand

ive come to grips unreality/ through fatality/ realized just how much happiness brings to me/ fight/ lately doubt and worries inflicted my mind with an illness of ego/ worst of it's kind/ been so busy unhappy/ un nerved/ i can see my destiny is chasing me/ I am finally happy and ready to go/ i had a one nite stand with myself last night/ the fright of a lifetime/ once again i have proven my strength to myself/ alone

Believed

frankly modest/ truth/ dishonest eyes upon us like a vulture in the sky/ hovering carcass moulding earth filthy birth after friction based upon fiction/ replacing friendship untrueness concentration/ speculation heresy is controlling us all this flagrant foul stench upon us overwhelming everybody like an imaginary forklift/ falsly you point your finger as a scolding mother fucker/ sucker/ blamin evil upon another under that pedestal you hold yourself so high above us/ i cant imagine what its like to not give a shit about nothin but your un believed/ a holy story led in motion peers are punished for their individuality seperating us all

Mentobe

sometimes i just sit back and wonder what was meant to be learned from that event that occured/ everything happens for a reason/ right/ i left behind just another tragic lesson in life/ an organic rush adrenaline flight high above the traumatized situation of life/ its ironic/ considerate rarity patron of love/ higher knowledge engulfs me/ cause the blast of fate a lesson/ to my eyes concerned and overwhelmed theirs were of fear yet i'm feelin so empty inside/ and yet it burns so akward this time/ tears a waterfall of acid cries from his eyes/ i need to recognize/ its meant to be/ he's alive and his cries just begin arisin/ suprisin as well/ this little boy proud of helpin those in need but he's not me but just maybe he could be/ i can see it now because/ im a hero in his eyes temporarily blind/ this immature kid a spirit as well an angel/ hiding by helping and wanting to understand me/ it's somethin with my pride/ lies/ i cannot hide my true side/ and maybe in distress i can still come out laughing that's the way i am/ am i hard to recognize?/ what do i need to realize?/ why can't i see with my own fucking eyes?/ what do i need to see?

I

I am seeing tunnel vision in a world thats dark and cold/ I cannot believe how much I've changed since the days of old/ I know its temporary but I need to focus straight/ I cannot believe I lost control of my fate/ I need forgiveness from the people I truly care about/ I need support behind my back to help me spit it out/ I am gonna win/ I cant afford to blow this one/ I hate myself sometimes/ I love myself/ I need this way of life because it holds me/ contradictions the way of life happiness is wealthieness/ is healthy now ive made it through those lies and deceit/ I think whats done is done and I can't complain anymore/ i am sure/ now that I've found myself again it feels great/ I can't believe I'd lost control of my fate

Mirror's Reflection

im your mirrors reflection/ what you dont like about me is what you hate in yourself/ you should see through others eyes before you go ahead and make em feel like shit/ stop it but you won't because you hate yourselves images bitch/ sometimes i get so frustrated haunting visions in the back of my mind/ oh you struck a pose with your hand extended/ open arms in an idiocratic ways you try to lie to yourself but you cant break through that sacred wisdom of your spirit/used/ freak/ sometimes i would give anything just to be something more than nothing

Dragged Down

I am just a person like you/ I am just a fuck up thats true/ but your the only one I'll turn to by my side/ everyday and night its time to climb out of this big black hole/ even if i can justify that i am alive and alright your still the one i'll turn to by my side/ so I cry alone/ I cant believe you drag me down again/ just when i think i'm fine i always then realize that i am the only one to turn to me inside

Comeback

i'll times rolling/ lacking the flow ache in my throat and wisdom seems so lost/ and yet its better in ways it's different/ i miss those old school meditations when relaxing and getting visions was a given with my eyes closed/ i propose a toast/ to myself to find the time to ask my lord and galaxy to point me in the right direction/ i got my foot in the door, i gotta keep on writin and stay planted to this world/ before i can take off/ please come back to me/ i need to say good bye to these old ways stagnant lifestyles no longer in my way/ i gotta keep on movin/ so i pray/ and wait for a sign from my guides/ they help me proceed as i lay/ and dream of my future/ i miss those times/ come back to me

Impact

i make an impact on lives through truth as well as lies/ i overcome your eyes and leave an etched memory forever/ its my gift/ my intentions are only well/ its my gift/ fine i lead people everyday/ always in the correct way/ never lead astray/ and leave an etched memory forever an open mind is hard to find.