Thurs. 30, 2000

Yesterday was my birthday, I'm 34! How did that happen? This doesn't mean I have to grow up does it?*S* I hope not, I have no intention to doing so. I had a busy day yesterday, babysitting, running back and forth to the school ect. The evening was great, we all went for supper at Moxies, it was soooo good. Santa was at the mall so we stopped and got the kids pic taken with him, we still had time before people were going to be at the house. Niether of my kids knew what to ask Santa for*S* Luke said he will ask for a candy cane, I asked why just a candy cane? He said thats what he always gives us even though I don't like them.*L* We came back home and all the company arrived. I had such a good time with everyone last night. Loud, noisy and the house is now a mess but I loved it! I got more chocolates than I know what to do with, Bob bought me two ice cream cakes, one skor bar one and one turtles one. Mom made me a choc cream pie. I think I have enough for breakfast, lunch and supper for a week now*S*
I went to the school this morning with Sarah to help Jessis class with the head bands for the Christmas play. Then off to Lukes class to teach computers. On our way home from the school I got to thinking how this is the last time that I'll be helping out at the school. I wont be taking them for lunch any more or just be able to run and pick them up when they are sick. Someone else is going to be doing that now. Of course I started to cry and couldnt stop*S* Sarah thought I was insane but she hugged me and said no cry auntie*S* Shes such a doll, I'm going to miss having her here a few times a week. Is a job worth giving all this up for? I feel selfish for wanting to get out and do something for me. Maybe I shouldn't have taken the job, I should be here and available for those who need and depend on me.

Mon. Nov. 27, 2000

Oh it's been a while since I wrote. I've been through a killer flu that I'm still trying to get over. I got a job!! I start next week on the 4th of Dec. I think I have everything ready, sitter is ready, bus will be taken care of as soon as I know exactally what day I start full time. The first few days are training and my hours are 8-3 after that I work 9-5:30 everyday. It should be interesting I havent worked for 8 years, who knows I may get fired right away and still be here to annoy eveyone on line*S* I know I'll be missed, I've been told by quite a few people. I do wonder how soon I'll be forgoten?*S* Rob bought a video capture card for the computer and got it installed. We hooked up the cam corder to it and it seems to be working pretty good. Along with some help from my friends*S* Steve jumped right in there and got me set up with a web page, damn hes good*L* Meanwhile I was talking with Raul and he was more than willing to get me set up on line with it. Steve had already beat him to it but I do appreciate the help Raul gave me. I'm sure I'll be stuck sooner or later and have to go crying to him to save me*S*

Fri. Nov. 03, 2000

It's November again, I always remember this month, and every year in November I get a year older. Why is it that I don't feel older and more responsible? I don't feel like 19 anymore, maybe 25 or so but not the 34 that I'm going to be.
This week hasn’t been a good one for me, no, not because I'm feeling shitty about my age. I could care less really. I'm not going to get into it here, but I'm making an attempt to get back to my normal self. There is nothing I hate worse than people who complain about everything all of the time. I can't let myself be like that, yes we all need to vent once in a while but I refuse to dwell on how much my life sucks and make others listen to me. I went into a chat last night and laughed with some friends. I miss that, it helped pull me out of my bitchy mood and get me back to normal. One thing I did notice was that some people always will go into chat and tell the whole room their life’s problems and carry on and on. It’s always the same people every time. If you life is that bad why not do something about it? I think between the way I've been feeling this week and seeing the same peoples chronic complaints has started this whole entry. I think going into a chat room and complaining like that just brings the whole room down, I don't say anything at the time though, I don't want to seem unsympathetic, I really do care but a public chat is not the place to complain. Some people I have discussed this with say they just want the attention, maybe they do I can't say for sure, their problems are real.
I guess that it for now, I'm chatting with Matt, what a sweetie. He never fails to make me laugh and I never fail to torment him in my own little way*S*

Tues. Oct. 31, 2000

Jingle bells Jingle bells, Oh wait, wrong holiday! Happy Halloween!!!!! Thats better, the kids are having a ball though and you would think it was Christmas. My darlings were up real early this morning, Jessica was playing sega at 6:30 because she was bored waiting for me to get up. Jessi is a vampire this year, she looks pretty cool. She decided not to wear her fangs though, I was real bored and tried them on. Of course thats when the phone rang and the damn things were stuck in with putty*L* Lori must have thought I was drunk! Luke is the grim reaper this year, I ended up putting make up on him instead of him having to wear his hood all night. The hood has a see through mesh to black out his face but it gets hot and annoying. So far I've had about 50 kids and it's slowed down already. Kind of weird, one treat for them, 2 for me*L* Looks like I'm going to have lots left over for me too and I wont even have to raid the kids stuff. Ive been playing with Gus and Buddy for the last 20 mins and only had one kid at the door, even the cat and dog are bored with me now. I hear kids*S*
Ok I spoke too soon, I ended up with 23 more kids non stop. I still have lots of stuff, more for me later*S* Total so far has been 78 kids tonight.

Mon. Oct. 30, 2000

Things that piss me off. Comet cursor pisses me off. It happens all the time I go to check out a web page and they have the cute little cursor on their page, it use to be a ok feature until comet decided to have it take over your computer and install the damn thing even if you don't want it. I DON'T WANT IT!! I uninstalled it, rebooted and now I still have to go into c drive and take it out of there as well as put back the cursor I normally use. All that because some moron had a lame idea that EVERYONE must just love having their product so lets force it on them. I don't love it and I'm going to make it a point of now telling them how much I hate it. So to email them I have to go back to their site to get the email address and guess what? the damn cursor shit will be back on my computer and I'll have to redo the whole mess again. And will they care? Not on your life, they will probably add me to their email list and send me the whole list of new cursors added every damn week! More shit in my email! Just because they are special and everyone loves them! Ok I'm not having a good day, I'm allowed!!!

Ok, I emailed them I'll post the reply if its not your standard crap that most companies send out. To my utter amazement going to the site to get the email did not install a new cursor on my computer and it even had a cookie to prevent further installs, that will be fine until I clean out the cookies then I have to go back and get it again. Oh and that only works if you use IE netscape users seem to be SOL at this time.

And several hours later...Tah dah! a reply was sent. I didn't even get the customary bullshit letter I actually got a real live person to reply to my email. James is his name, thank you James! anyhow to get your very own letter from James you may write to him about comet cursors at anytime and I'm sure he will address your conserns*S* Anyhow, problem seems to be fixed, I hope Im going to check it out later when and if I have time. Off to swimming lessons!!

Tues. Oct. 17, 2000

I found this site, http://rinkworks.com/dialect/dialectt.cgi
it changes your text to the dialect of your choice, I thought it was sooo funny I just had to do it here. The following is todays entry in Redneck.

Jessi finally got th' possum pox on Friday, its been a rough few weeks. ah also managed t'git whut ah's reckonin' is th' possum pox. So'e throat an' mah mouth had spots in it, ah had th' wo'st haidache fo' a few days ah wanted t'die. In fack death'd haf been much better! Fry mah hide! ah doesn't unnerstan' varmints, ev'ry day fo' th' last few days varmints come t'th' park/lot accrost th' street an' colleck leaves t'put in th' o'ange bags wif th' faces on them, dawgone it. Jest so they look like trimenjus pumpkins. Whut in tarnation ah doesn't unnerstan' is this, were them bags not made t'jest clean yer own yard an' haf a hansum way t'dispose of th' leaves af'er hallereen? Whuffo''d yo' git in yer car, buy o'ange bags an' then travel t'find leaves t'fill th' bag? Them bags jest is not thet cute! ah reckon next year I'll hang a sign on th' fence accrost th' street an' ax varmints t'come rake th' leaves outta mah yard, hell I'll even supply th' o'ange bag wif th' face!

Jessi finally got the chicken pox on Friday, its been a rough few weeks. I also managed to get what I'm thinking is the chicken pox. Sore throat and my mouth had spots in it, I had the worst headache for a few days I wanted to die. In fact death would have been much better!
I don't understand people, every day for the last few days people come to the park/lot across the street and collect leaves to put in the orange bags with the faces on them. Just so they look like big pumpkins. What I don't understand is this, were those bags not made to just clean your own yard and have a cute way to dispose of the leaves after Halloween? Why would you get in your car, buy orange bags and then travel to find leaves to fill the bag? Those bags just are not that cute! I think next year I'll hang a sign on the fence across the street and ask people to come rake the leaves out of my yard, hell I'll even supply the orange bag with the face!

Mon. Oct. 10, 2000

It's my neices birthday today, she's 25! I still have to call her yet, shes hard to get through to, if shes not sleeping shes working. If shes sleeping NOTHING can wake her up! I can't believe shes 25 already! I was only 8 when she was born but still I remember it so well. I was so excited, even though she wasnt my first neice. I was already an aunt at 3*S* This baby got to live with me when she came home from the hospital. What could be better than that to an 8 year old?*S*
The kids stayed home this weekend, Betty was sick with a cold. Oh well maybe another time huh? It was still a nice weekend I had thanksgiving dinner here, it was so good, I ate way too much. We dug up most of the flower beds tonight, God I hate this time of year, it just means winter is coming fast. It even snowed last week, not much but enough to annoy me*S*
I need to know something, where do all the missing socks go to? I have a pile of them waiting to see if the rest of them show up some day.

Fri. Oct. 06, 2000

What a week its been, I'm so tired. The kids are going to Bettys on the weekend I need the break. I'll probably sleep most of the time I'm home. I just did some of my password page up, I havent decided what to do with it yet but email me and I'll give the password to you.
http://www.oocities.org/tasrfs/loginpage.htm

Mon. Oct. 02, 2000

I can tell it's Monday! I cleaned some of Jessis room, I swept the floor so I can wash it after Lukes juice was spilled on it last night. I cleaned it up but it was still a bit sticky. On my way to the garbage with the dust pan full I caught it on the door frame and dumped it in the living room. So out comes the vacuum to clean that mess up, while I'm vacuuming my water glass in the kitchen gets caught by the cord of the vacuum and spills water all in the stove and on the floor. It seems as I'm cleaning one mess up in one room, the next room is creating it's own mess with no one even in there! Normally the cat spills my water all over, thats why I have it on the small counter near the stove he never gets it there. I'm wondering what the rest of the day will bring?*L*