"TO THE U.P.W. - The wrestlers, managers, announcers, promoters and everyone that loves wrestling....."

"This is 'Psycho' Matt Hall writing you from Avenal State Prison. As most of you already know, I was sentenced to six years in the California Department of Corrections. I have now been gone for about six months, and in this six months I have had a lot of time to think. Time to think about everything, not just the loss of my freedom, family and career. I have taken a lot of time to think about why I have ultimately ended up here.

"This has to do with loss; loss because I lost perspective of what is truly important to me. You see....prison makes you comprehend (very quickly) just how precious life really is, just how wonderful our country is and how many opportunities we have just being born here.

"So, ultimately, I hope this letter gives insight to everyone who reads it. I hope it causes everyone to see just how wonderful life really is. I hope that through me you can see that whatever stress you may be going through, whatever problems you may encounter in the 'free-world' - IT ISN'T THAT BAD.

"You know when you hear a story about someone who has had a 'near death' experience, or someone who has almost died in a car crash, plane crash or has barely escaped a burning building, etc.? We have all seen how these people are afterwards, how they view life. They see life completely differently than they did before having their 'near death' experience. They now have a new appreciation for the gift of life. These people could never get stressed out in a traffic jam or get upset over an overdue bill because to them, that's the easy part.

"You see, being incarcerated (on a smaller scale) does the same thing for a person. It makes us understand all the things we take for granted, all the things we do on a daily basis that are actually precious moments. Unfortunately, because we are so caught up in so much other stuff, we are not always able to see it.

"When the person who escaped the 'near death' experience wakes up, he/she wakes up with a smile. They're just happy to be alive for another day. When they walk to their kitchen in the morning and drink a tall glass of orange juice, they taste just how good it really is. They are able to acknowledge the small things in life and believe that yes....it's true - it is the small things in life that sometimes mean the most. It is my opinion that there is a lot to be learned from this.

"As we consciously connect with the source of 'truth' on a committed and regular basis, we become crystal-clear about what we want our life experience to look and feel like. We recognize our worthiness and we let go of old patterns and beliefs that have limited our experience of love, wealth, health and fulfillment. Releasing what no longer serves us creates space in our minds and lives for what 'is' loving, nurturing, fulfilling and true. I think and hope you all understand what I am trying to say.

"One thing I do a lot of in here is read. I've just finished a really good book called 'Musashi' by a man named Eiji Yoskikawa. 'Musashi' is about a great 16th century warrior who was placed under arrest for a few run-ins with the law. The Federal Lord locked him up in a small room of one of the castles. Just him and a collection of books, all designed to turn some lights on in his rough head, to chip away the mud and reveal the diamond already there, hiding inside. Everyday he studied and spoke to no one. When he emerged three years later, he emerged from his cell a complete man - wiser and graceful and hungry to put his new found wisdom to the test."The interesting thing to me was that he had a choice. He could see the room as a limiting, unfair restraint he needed to get out of, or he could see it as a womb, a womb form which he could be reborn a new man. He chose the womb.

"A funny thing about life is that we can't stand to be alone with ourselves, but there has never been anyone who rose to greatness without learning to be alone, without mastering the art of solitude.

"So for 'Psycho' Matt Hall, my cell is my cell of rebirth, my cave of inspiration, my solitude of opportunity. Remember loneliness is sometimes the price of greatness. Solitude is where one rises above the crowd and becomes exceptional. It's just a matter of choice....of identification.

"I would like to take this time to thank some very important people to me - number one, my mom and brother. You two are my true ambassadors of quam. Next is my very good friend and manager Rick Bassman. For all you have done for me, Rick, and are still doing. I would like to thank Andy Judge, Joe Jennings, Pete Doyle, Michael Braverman, Robert Benz, my sister Di-Di, my uncle Joe and my lifelong friend Richard Harris, for all the letters you all wrote to the judge on my behalf. And last but definitely not least, Melissa, for never letting me forget that I am loved and never forgotten.

"Our planet is an incredible place to live, so row, row, row your boat, gently down the stream, merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily...life is but a dream."

Long love and respect,
"PSYCHO" Matt Hall
Avenal State Prison
Avenal, Ca

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Taken From: Ultimate Pro Wrestling

Last updated 13 January 2003