Well... hmm. As I said, this won't be just march. It'll be from about December of last year (2000) up until now. December: I went to Canada over Christmas. Yes, I had a lot of fun. Yes, I did get     engaged. Yes, that lead to a lot of hell in the long run. I had fun, but I messed up. Janurary: New Years was okay. Went to a party full of people I didn't know in Calgary. Actually.. I knew two people. One of which, as I found out later, slept with my former fiance.(lets see.. that makes the fourth time he's cheated on me.) New Years Eve was amusing.. but not fun, really. I would have been just as happy staying home as I tend to do. February: My doubts continue. The fights continue. My family disapproves of my      choices, some openly say they are diappointed in me and that I'm stupid.  Fine. No biggie. My fiance comes down over Valentines. On the 15th, I found out what happened with the aforementioned (at the party) girl in December. I wonder.. again.. if I'm doing the right thing for myself. March: Well, here we are. Today happens to be March 12th. I've met alot of new friends. Both over the computer as well as in person. Some of which I care very much for. But we need not get into that for the time being. My engagement has already been broken off due to my fears and doubts and the things I want for myself. I'm staying in Texas (YAY) and I'm going to school here.. even if I end up having to take a year off working then get into school. Either way, I've got friends to support me and thats all I need. Up until last Saturday, I hadn't gone anywhere to have fun for a full year. Yeah, I left the house with my family and went to football games with the band and track      meets with the team, but I never really went anywhere I wanted to go just to hang out. Granted, thats normal for me since I don't really like going to public places with a lot of people, but its also not exactly fun spending a Friday night  on the computer all night, or in my room, either. Anyway, so I went out finally..Had a lot of fun (MAJOR understatement inserted there). And I really hope it isn't the last time I get to go out with the particular party in person. (I'd  speak a few details here, But I'm not sure they'd want me to or not.. I'll have to find that out someday.) So anyway, I had a lot of fun and enjoyed myself  for real for the first time in about a year. And I didn't stay nervous the entire night.. thats a new one for me. Perhaps I'm starting finally to recover from the  things Chris beat into me before he died? (If you know me, you know what i'm talking about here.. if not.. then good.) If I am starting to get over it.. then I'm thrilled with that. May haps I'll be able to live my life again and have fun the way I want to have fun, Without the fears of what'll happen to me or how i'll mess up next.. Hmm.. I'll keep working with this one.. my mind is finally starting to emerge. Good for me.. I think. I hope. Anyway, So sue me.. I'm hooked on thinking about last weekend. Anyway, Spring Break is next week. (All the other Texas schools get it this week.. but do we?? of course NOT! UGH!) Hey! *knock**knock* You still there??? Oh... there you are. ;)    Anyway. I still haven't figured out what I'm gonna do to spend my spring break. I guess I'll figure that one out when it happens. And I'll do whatever comes along. *shrugs*  I just really don't plan to spend all my week off at home.. No chance. I hope anyway. Ack. *shudders* Hmm.. I guess that's the only significant things to even mention right now. Contests are coming up in band and so is the trip to Colorado, but I really dont think anyone really gives a damn about that. I'll post ratings somewhere around here when we go. Track sucks for now..  hmmmmmmmmmmm   bobo the three legged monkey. hmmmmm Well. Obviously I've rambled enough about nothing. I'm surprised you've read this far.. this damn thing is long. ;) Oh well.. thats what I tend to do. heh.. More to come as things happen. Now I know what you're thinking. No, I won't write about everyday events that happen all the time. (i.e. school, practice... nothing.) I'll only write about significant events in my life. So don't plan on coming back soon.. or maybe something will happen.. ya never know. *smirks*