OUR CHAPTER'S WRITINGS
AWARENESS
My son is not the first to die
Nor will he be the last
Sometimes I feel so disconnected
THINGS are happening too fast.
I want to YELL, to SCREAM, to SHOUT
To let this despair, this anger out
Futility in that I see
For it won’t bring him back to me.
Oh God, how can it be true when I have firmly believed in You?
Why rise up just to be brought down?
I’m weary of the merry-go-round.
Although I know through all you’re there
There are moments I’ve wondered if you care.
Why am I to be left here, to lose so many that I’ve held dear?
What is to become of me?
When will my life worthy be?
I don’t know your plan or understand your will
Your command is to trust, seek, "be still."
Father, grant me the grace to do just so
‘Till the day of Peace when unto You I go.
By: JoAnn K. Ballengee
8/5-8/15/02
UPON YOUR HOUR
Did you hear the beating of angel's wings?
Did you hear a heavenly hush?
Did you see God's face,
Feel His love,
Who was there for you to touch?
Did you think of me,
Mourn our loss -
The love that here we shared?
I pray, my son, the angst was brief
That you knew how much I cared.
It felt to me as though my love was but a pittance for
your needs;
But still I hope it was enough
As Home the Lord did lead.
I know that you're already free
Remembered,
Treasured,
You'll always be.
Your legacy I'll keep within
Until I'm joined with you again.
For my son, Troy Jordan Ballengee
July 1, 1997 - May 29, 2001
JoAnn Ballengee - 8/10/01
TCF, Fredericksburg Chapter, VA
THE BOUNCY BALL
You loved to play with bouncy balls, even when you were a baby.
As you grew so did the bouncy balls you played with.
Wherever you would go, you always had a bouncy ball with you.
On the day you left us to become an angel,
You were playing with your bouncy ball.
A ball is an unending circle.
It is round and rolls all around.
There is no ending.
Our love for you is like a ball,
There is no ending to it.
Although you are not physically here,
Our love is still alive for you.
Till we meet again, our precious son
Never let go of that ball or our love for you.
By Kathleen E. Kelly, TCF Fredericksburg Chapter, VA
In memory of my son,
Kevin Robert Kelly, 7/19/94 – 5/10/98
Written 5/26/01
MY CHILD
The ground is wet
the skies are gray
My sweet little angel
has flown away...
The ground is wet
From the tears I shed
I go to sleep, wake up
with this pain in my heart...
Please tell me,
What happened that day
When two of God's angels
came and took you away?...
And now you are resting
In His sweet loving arms
sweet angel of mine
Marina.., my child...
The pain gets heavier
as time goes by
I missed your sweet face
your laughter, your smile...
I miss your embrace
the touch of your hand
The look in your eyes
to assure me that everything is well...
The father wanted
his sweet child back
and here I'm sitting
with this pain in my heart...
I 'm also waiting
for that glorious day
when God calls me home
and ends my pain...
Together again
in His loving arms
my baby and I
with God and his love...
Rest in peace
my sweet angel
until we meet again
your mommy...
Mary Maltezos in memory of her daughter Marina, TCF Fredericksburg Chapter, VA
HIS GIFT, A NEW YEAR
God's granted us each a brand new yearGod's granted us each a brand new year
More time to hold our loved ones dear
More time to listen to a child
More time to help another to smile
More time to heal our fellow man
And pray God's blessings on our land
More time to sing and praise our Lord
More time to read His precious Word
More time to be a special friend
Arms to hug, an ear to lend
So don't let this year go by too fast
Don't take for granted how long it will last
Just be glad God's given you
The privilege of another year to live through.
By Joyce Fairbanks, TCF Fredericksburg, VA
I REMEMBER THE DAY
I remember the day
When Daddy and I were told you were on your way
We were so excited
For it was 7 long years we waited.
I remember the day
When you were born
You weighed in at 9 lbs, 3 oz at 35 weeks
Making you the biggest baby in the NICU
I remember the day
It was tie for me to go home
But you my sweet boy had to stay 1 week longer
To make it on your own.
I remember the day
I got to bring you home
What a joyous day that was!
I never wanted to let you go.
I remember the day
When you took your first bath
You didn’t like the water and made the cutest faces
That made me laugh.
I remember the day
You slept through the night
You never stirred once
I got up 4 times just to be sure you were all right.
I remember the day
When you rolled over
Your were so amazed
And I was so proud.
I remember the day
You discovered that balls bounced
Your face lit up
Each time you bounced them.
I remember the day
When you first got sick
It was just an ear ache and got the medicine
Which mad you heal quickly.
I remember the day
You had your first seizure, I was so scared and felt helpless
I didn’t know what to do, we called 911, and to the hospital you went,
within an hour you were back to yourself again.
I remember the day
Your first day of school
You proudly got on the bus
For you’re a big boy now.
I remember the day
When you sister was born
Your were so proud
Cause you were the big brother now.
I remember the day
God called you home
It was Mother’s Day 1998
You were only 3 ½ years old, I sure miss you so.
I remember the day
They laid you in the ground
No one know what to say
No one made a sound.
I remember the day
When you were here
A smile comes to me
Remembering your precious smile.
Kathie Kelly, TCF Fredericksburg Chapter
In loving memory of my son Kevin Robert Kelly his smiles lingers on…
7-19-94 to 5-10-98
WHEN TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME
When tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes,
All filled with tears for me
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things,
We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too,
But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand
And said my place was ready
In heaven far above.
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love,
But as I turn to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life I'd always thought
I did not want to die
I had so much to live for
So much yet to do
It seemed impossible
That I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had,
If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for awhile,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.
But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home,
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From his great golden throne,
He said ' This is eternity and all I've promised you',
Today for life on earth is past,
But here it starts anew,
I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last.
And since each day's the same day,
There's no longing for the past.
You have been so trusting,
So faithful and so true,
So won't you take my hand,
And share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts without me
Don't think were far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right there in your heart.
By Joyce Musser, TCF Fredericksburg Chapter in loving memory of her son, Willie
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY
Remember with me my mommas' boy,
because today he would be a man.
Why he took his life so young,
we will never understand.
but......
Go ahead and mention my child,
the one that died you know.
Don't worry about making me cry,
the tears will always flow.
What hurts me most is the silence,
pretending he didn't exist.
I'd rather you mention his name,
knowing WILLIE is missed.
Happy Birthday Baby,
Love and miss you,
MOM
By Joyce Musser, TCF Fredericksburg Chapter in loving memory of her son Willie.
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