Matt you were my Life, but my life was taken from me, in a fit of Anger. Maybe I shouldn't have argued with you so many times, Maybe I should I have went with you, that way we would both be dead and I would not have to go through life regretting everything I have done.

I do regret things Matt, But loving you isn't one of them. Believe me I love you, more with each day I saw you. I remember how sweet you were to me, When we first met. How caring and loving, I knew we belonged together.

I thought it was our Fate, Well I guess No One else thought it was. Do you know how hard losing you was, Not being able to see you, Not being able to hear your Voice. Not being able to tell you I love you.

How could I be Happy? God took away the one thing I cared about, God took you away from my Matt. He took you away from Jeff and Your Father. They are upset Matt, But not as much as I am.

Matt I do forgive you, For that night. I never gave you a Chance Matt. I saw you and Trish talking, Holding her Hand, . I guess I took that to far, I blamed you for something you didn't do. I'm sorry Matt. Emotions got the best of me. I should have listened to you. But I didn't

I still know it's my fault. I had to throw the Roses back in your face, I had to argue with you. I had to make you leave that night, I didn't give you the chance to explain, Now its too late. I didn't know how bad the roads were. I didn't know about the Man behind you who lost control of his Car. Matt I didn't know that you would be in front of him. I didn't know that I was going to lose you. If I did know these things I wouldn't have forced you to leave.

I was the First one there Matt, Seeing you in pain, Watching as you struggled to breathe. That wasn't my Matt, was the Only thing I could say. You looked over to me, Your eyes were so far away, They were scared eyes Matt, Not the one I knew and loved.

I don't actually know when it was I broke down in tears, After reality hit I guess, Seeing you laying with Pain etched in your Eyes sure help me realize that this did really happen.

I tried to hold your hand Matthew. I really did, but they pushed my away,

I tried to fight my way into the Ambulance,

I tried to by there for you. I should have tried harder.

They took you away from me Matt, They put you in the Ambulance and they never looked back, So I kneeled down on the Street the Rain coming down hard on my Back and shoulders. Do you know what I found on the Street Matt... The Roses.

My Roses the one you were going to give to me. I still have them Matt. In my room, They're dried up now Matt. But I will keep them until I die. I will always remember the where Roses fell.

Matt if you only knew what I felt then, I would trade positions with you in a Second. I got to the Hospital as fast as I could. It was too late, You were just about gone Matt, I didn't know what to do. I held your hand.

Your hand, bloodied and cold. Matt I wish I could have left your bleeding in my Hand, I wish I could have done something other then Cry.

You couldn't see me Matt, But I know you heard me, I made my peace with you, I told you how much I loved you. I held you until you left this world. Matt you died in my arms, I guess that was kind of a settling fact, The last person to hold you while you were alive.

Alive, Matt I wish you were alive, on days like this. Days I cry myself to Sleep, Days I think about what we could have had. Days were I remember everything about you. You were supposed to be together, Live together until we died.

That was our Plan, I guess plans are made to be broken, I remember you promised me a House in the Country, You promised my that you and I will be happy. You promised me a Life with you.

Some Promises are broken, I have nothing now Matt, No Future, and No Past. I'm at a loss for everything. I haven't felt this Bad since the day of your Funeral

I remember that day so clear, It plays over in my Mind, Seeing you laying there, The pain in your Face was Gone, But you didn't look like my Matt. You didn't look like the Matt I was supposed to spend the Rest of my days with.

Do you know how bad that hurt me Matt, I try to see you every week, When I can bring myself to see your Headstone.

I can't really look at the Words Matthew Moore Hardy written in white marble without thinking that I should be right beside you.

Matthew you were my Light, My Love, and my reason for living, I will always think out you. When the Roses Fall.