"Mommy
could you make Benji my father?" The words of the small
child rang out in her head, His voice was Innocent and full of
hope, Amy tired to shake his voice out of her head, She couldn't
make Benji his father, She couldn't put Benji into that frame of
mind, Sure she thought about him in different ways, after Deryck
died she used to Imagine that Benji was Deryck just to get her
through the day. Now a Year later by most accounts she has moved
on, She thought she had even though it was apparent to her Four
Year old son how Amy felt.
She walked down the Hallway of the Fourt-teen room house she and
Deryck once owned, Stopping at the last door in the Hallway,
Benji's room. She put her hand on the solid oak door waiting a
few seconds before actually knocking, She knew he would be
sitting on his bed holding Deryck's guitar strumming notes softly
and singing to himself, He did it every night.
Knocking quickly at the door she stood back as it opened and
Benji slowly came into view, Clad in Long Gray dickies shorts he
shirt lay on the Ground by his Closet. Just as she thought the
Guitar was laid out on his bed with pieces of Paper, Songs most
likely thrown around. He smiled warmly to her, He chest rose and
fell with every breath he took as he stepped out of the way
enough to let her into the room.
"I have to talk to you" She stated holding back any
emotions and managing to sound half way normal. "Sure
Ames" He replied a little bit confused but willing to
listen. Amy walked towards his bed and sat down near the
Headboard, "Its about Jagger" She looked down at the
Guitar picking it up and resting it on her lap. "What about
him?" Benji asked sitting down next to her on the bed.
"He wanted me to make you his Father" Amy replied
wiping a tear away from her eye before Benji had the chance to
see it, "Oh" Benji replied looking towards the ground.
"Why is this so Hard Benji?" Amy asked leaning her head
on his shoulder, "No one ever said it was going to be easy
Amy" Benji took her hand in his, "I know but I can't
tell him what Happened to his father, It well ruin him" Amy
buried her face deeper into his shoulder, Benji out of Instinct
placed his arm around her, pulling her closer. "Ames you
know I'll be right there for you, if you need me" Benji
replied looking into Amy's eyes.
"Thanks Benj" Amy replied yawning a little and Kissing
his forehead. "Any time Amy" Benji replied putting his
arms out her and moving his Guitar to the end of the bed, giving
them room. "But you know Ames, Tomorrow is another day"
Benji yawned as Amy shook her head in Agreement. "You think
Der would like the way Jagger is turning out?" Benji asked
starring at the ceiling, "Of course Benji, I think your
proving yourself to Deryck" Amy smiled.
Moments of silence past and Benji looked to his left to find the
sleeping form of Amy laying gracefully on the bed, She looks to
perfect to move, he told himself. Turning to his side he looked
at his Alarm clock, it was already past Eleven, Rubbing his eyes
he reached over and shut the light of for his room, Listening to
the sounds of Amy's shallow breathing as he wandered into sleep.
*Next Morning*
Jagger woke up early, the next morning the sun had just begun its
ascent into the sky when he rolled out of his bed and walked
quickly through his room, Stepping into the Hallway he looked
towards Benji's room seeing that the door was opened just enough
for him to sneak in.
Tiptoeing into the room Jagger stood against the wall and looked
up at Benji's bed, His back was towards Jagger, Making him just
that much more curios, Walking to the foot of the Benji is
glanced over the Foot Rest to see the sleeping form of His Mother
of Benji, Wrapped up in each other's arm he saw for the first
time what he knew always dwelled somewhere, Using his strength he
pulled himself onto the bed and crawled up the middle, resting
his head on the Small portion of Pillow that neither one
occupied, Facing his mother Jagger dug himself under the covers
and soon fell back asleep, feeling in his mind that this was
right.
Benji lifted his eyes the slightest amount, letting the warm
light cast over his vision rubbing his eyes with his hands a
Smile fell upon his face looking next to him, seeing the figures
of Jagger and Amy still laying in a Perfect slumber. Benji pulled
the covers over Jagger's body covering him up to his shoulders,
Smiling to himself as he shut his eyes again.
To Be Continued...