i'm an addict
not to a drug or alcohol
or any illegal substance
but to something that i don't even know
i feel the addiction
but can't express it
what is it?
it's drawing me in
calling me, pressuring me, harrassing me
it whispers sweet poison
and breaks the silence
only to kill me with generosity
what are you?
why do you want me?
why do i want you?!
but yet i can't possess you
i don't even know what you are
are you love? money? humanity? sanity?
or are you death?
do i want death?
NO!!!
i want you
the confusion sets in
so much that i can see clearly
i can visualize you but not place you
i can speak of you but cannot face you
oh, wicked beauty, show your self
i see you in a light indistinguishable
i see you but don't see you
do you understand?
of course not
i bid you farewell
farewell, remember me always
what?
oh, that's who you are!
you're my addiction?
why didn't you tell me before?
purity
chaos
the creation of an eternity
nice to meet you
have a nice life
good-bye
i'm no longer addicted
© 2003 Joshua Stewart