all i wanted
was one last moment
to hold forever
to keep her near
and never let her go
...but i had to
all i wanted
was to beg
and plead
and cry
and kick
and scream
and moan
and latch onto her leg
bellowing at the top of my lungs
"PLEASE STAY!!!!"
... but i couldn't
and she wouldn't
and she didn't
all i wanted
was to drop to my knees
at her feet
and confess my sins
and repent
and seek her forgiveness
as if she was my god
... but she wasn't
and i couldn't
all i wanted
was to take it all back
and erase my mistakes
and hold her
and tell her
how much she really means to me
despite all the times i didn't
... but i didn't then
so i couldn't now
all i wanted
was a soulmate
and a best friend
and a wife
and the love of my life
...but she didn't
so now i sit alone
in the darkness
and the silence
and the sadness
and wish for
all i wanted
© 2003 Joshua Stewart