a single strand of smoke rolls
i'm caught in a choke hold
looking for a way to heal
my broke soul
i stare into the darkness
preparing for catharsis
is there anyway to be
spared from the hardships
i don't know
i just wanna be whole
and in my mind is where i stroll
so i go
traveling down the road
somehow i feel i've lost control
but i don't know
where do the answers lie
abused by a cancer inside
everything is broken
there's no chance for my pride
trying to stay grounded
painful but astounded
with my life full of confusion
why haven't i found it
i don't know
i just wanna be whole
and in my mind is where i stroll
so i go
traveling down the road
somehow i feel i've lost control
but i don't know
it always seems i've taken so much upon me
and into my dreams i'm always drawn deep
running from the life that has spawned me
still one phrase always haunts me
i don't know
i just wanna be whole
but somehow i feel i've lost control
so i go
traveling down the road
but inside i know i've lost control
i don't know
i just wanna be whole
and in my mind is where i stroll
so i go
traveling down the road
somehow i feel i've lost control
but i don't know
© 2003 Joshua Stewart