date: July 27, 2003
time: 8:34 pm
Hey, hey. Well I got back a couple days ago from going to Williamsburg with Zach and his mom and dad. We went to Water Country USA, Busch Gardens, Jamestown, and Colonial Williamsburg, as well as just looked around the city.
We left on Sunday, and got there in about 6 hours, which included eating at Smithfields, IN Smithfield, NC. We checked in to the Holiday Inn, and ate at the Library, a little taverny type restaurant. We went swimming and Zach and I kept trying to throw each other in the pool, me being ridiculously unsuccessful. But the last time I triedm I fell funny, and knocked my jaw against the side of the pool. The fall knocked out two of my upper teeth and I fell unconcious into the pool. I was dragged out, and rushed to the Williamsburg area hospital.
Haha. Gotcha. No, actually I did fall and hit my jaw, but it just resulted in a stupid bruise and scratch. It hurt my neck a bit too, but thats what I get for falling like a retard. It was pretty funny, and more embarrassing then anything else. So thats how I start the vacation.
The next day we switched hotels, ate out, and hung around the new hotel. Tuesday his parents had to go to a timeshare meeting, but we ate at this cool little bluesy place with a pool table, and after rescuing them from their 4 hour meeting (and food shopping) we went to Water Country. The rides were fun, the best being the Hubba Hubba Highway which is like a lazy river on acid. The only downfalls of WC was the enormous amount of half naked people, and the cement which didn't make your barefeet comfy.
Um, Wednesday we went to Jamestown and saw the recreations of the Powatans (sp?), the English settlers and the ships they came in. I liked the ships and the Indian houses. I took a few pics there. Afterwards we went to Busch Gardens, which like the rest of Williamsburg, was really pretty. I rode as many rides as possible, and got to ride the Alpengeist, a new hanging roller coaster there. That's my fave kind of roller coaster. It wasn't as good as Montu in Busch G. Florida. But still good.
The next day we went to Colonial Williamsburg, and while his parents looked around in Merchant's Square (shopping district), Zach and I went to see the old Governors Palace (decorated charmingly in weaponry- floor to ceiling), an armory, and ate at some tavern. Our conversations throughout this whole trip were dominated with "Ar!"'s, "Feck off"'s, "Argh!"'s, and "Stupid slut/whore"'s. We were very mature. Between our dialogue and the dart pirate gun I bought, Zach's parents had two toddlers to deal with. I had fun though. And I think they had a sense of humor. We also went swimming sorta that day. The place we stayed at wasn't the best- timeshare wise. It's the Williamsburg Plantation, and they are still building things, and getting organized I guess, but they really need to check their priorities. Their couch pullout bed is uncomfortable, and they have one bathroom located off the master. Plus they give you no soap and don't do housekeeping. Bastards. Heh. The pool wasn't very impressive, the one at Holiday Inn was better. Zach's parents didn't know about the Plantation though, so it's not their fault.
Um, the last day we left the hotel, stopped a couple of places and drove back. I was surprised I was allowed to drive there and back. Although I was a bit nervous b/c I felt like I was taking a driver's test or something. I appreciate driving my mom's Subaru alot more now.
All in all though, I had a lot of fun. I think Zach and I bonded a bit more, and are better friends. I always have fun when I hang out with him by myself. I think everyone usually has a good time when they hang out alone with a friend. You don't have to split your attention between so many other things. It was really cool of his parents to let me come, and treat me like part of the family.
When I got back from Williamsburg, I went to Bennigan's with mom and went book shopping. I needed reading material. And yesterday we watched movies and ordered pizza. I still need to clean my room, it's still a mess from me packing for Virginia. Mom keeps talking about going somewhere to spend the night, like Oriental, NC, Manteo, or Ocracoke or something. I don't really know where those are, except Ocracoke. I wouldn't mind going to Morehead, I wanna go thru that maze they have at Atlantic Beach. But I really should be staying home, planning my future. Yeah. Well. I also got some new canvases, so maybe I'll paint. I also should call dad...but I dread his 'you haven't called me in ___ months' speech. So I think I'll keep watching movies and read.

date: July 16, 2003
time: 3:53 am
Mmmmmmm. Yeah. Hi. I'm pretty tired, but I thought I would write a bit.
I went and got the dreaded bathing suit, and it's not so dreaded as I thought it would be. It's kinda cute. It's blue. And I got a little wrap thingy too. So I'm not so stressed about the whole Water Park thing. Actually looking forward to it. Haven't been to a Water Park since...like fifth grade. It was the same water park too, Water Country USA. Crazy, yo. Hehe.
Finally found Resurrection Man and About Adam to rent. They were at Hollywood video. Yay Hollywood. They also have Clay Pigeons which I really wanna buy, but can't find anywhere. Imma havta go online one day and get a bunch used from Amazon.
I got some cool little books from Barnes and Noble, all about the 7 Wonders of the Ancient World, and the other about Unsolved Mysteries of History. Cool stuff, for those of you, well, like me.
Um...I guess this entry isn't as interesting as I thought it could be. Right now, Zach's site is down, b/c his unreliable host didn't pay. So it's just me and Aaron online who update our sites. Anna does sometimes, but she has a life. Dude, I am really tired. I need to stop using slang I can't stand. I say it to make fun of it...(yo. dude. sweet. word.)...and then I start saying it so much that I sound like the retards that say it 'for real'.
Mom just finished her 5 days off and now will be on her 5 days working. So now I'm gonna be bored. This is when a car comes in handy. Well, Friday is Fireworks, and Sunday is Williamsburg. Maybe in between there I can get my hair done and stuff. Gimme something to do. Maybe Saturday I'll do the hair thing. Or early Friday. Jesus I am talking to you people about my hair plans. Not a good sign. I just don't have any revelations to share today.
Now I'm hungry. I think I am gonna try to sleep it off. Nighty night, folks.

date: July 12, 2003
time: 5:56 AM
That's right folks, it's 6 in the morning, and I haven't gone to bed yet! I got home from Zach's at like, near 4. And later today, I think I am supposed to go somewhere with mom. She mentioned WV, Myrtle Beach, and Morehead City. Well, I was just AT Morehead, and I don't wanna go to WV, and I was just in Myrtle Beach two days ago- and the only reason mom wants to go to MB is bc there's this Irish bar there. You would think since she just took a vacation to Ireland she would have had enough of Irish stuff. Why the hell would I wanna go to an Irish bar in MB anyways? One, there will only be either drunk guys over 40 there, or severely drunk people my age. I have no interest in hanging around a bar with my mother. Honestly, folks.
Hmmm. Alot has happened in the four months it took me to write a new entry here. All the stuff I mentioned in it happened. I finished my first semester of college (uh...whoo?), went up to NY to see Tait graduate (see pictures here), Mom went to Ireland, and Jennica came from California (see pictures here). All of those things went fine and were fun. I also went to a concert two days ago in Myrtle Beach (Lifehouse and Fiction Plane) with Erin and Cassie. Good fun. But I don't wanna talk about any of that stuff because I already wrote all about it in my actual journal here at home, but maybe one day I will retell it all for you.
Hmmm some stuff to look forward to? Zach invited me to go with him and his parents to Williamsburg (a place I really like) a couple weekends from now. Now yes I really wanna go, but there's the pesky little things of getting mom to not think it funny, and that going entails also going to water country usa. Why are these pesky? Well mom may think it's weird I would be going there with a boy and his family that is not my boyfriend. And she might have a prob with me going. However the only thing she would have to do is give me maybe 40 bucks for food. Unless I could find forty dollars on the street.
Sure.
Second Water Country USA is a water park. Water Parks have water in them. And for humans to go in water that usually involves a bathing suit. Now, I don't wear them. I really just tend to avoid swimming in general so I don't ever have to wear one. I know I am not some like mutant and I don't have like a birth mark from hell or anything, I just for many crazy psychological reasons do not wear them. Why not wear shorts you ask? Well, I don't wear those either. Or sleeveless. Yes, I am fucked up, but if you are a guy I don't expect you to understand. All they have to do is throw on a Tshirt, half the other guys will be wearing one too. But if a girl is in a T-shirt and shorts (I assume I can wear shorts if I have to) at a friggin water park, well that just looks stupid. This is why I avoid these situations.
As you can tell, from the length of this rambling on the simple fact of me possibly having to wear a bathing suit, I really am quite nerve racked about that crap. It's stupid, yes, but I do really wanna go to Williamsburg. After all that written drama about apparel, I wanna go. I wanna see all the other stuff they are gonna see, like Colonial Williamsburg, and wherever else. I just have to figure out an outfit that I don't look like a total retard. Zach even said his whole family wears Tshirts and shorts. So I just need to buck up and do it. For christsakes, it's only summer clothing. Really. However I don't own a bathing suit that fits and if I wore a button up shirt over it, I'd like to match. Sorta. I dunno. I think I need a psychiatrist.
So yeah.
Other stuff? Aaron, well okay, I kinda invited myself along, but Aaron, Chris, Christy, and Zach and I may go down to Atlanta and stay a weekend. That would be mildly awesome and just good times. But all this stuff costs money, and no one here is in the right mind to hire me for a job. I wish I could like work out some sort of allowance thing with mom, or maybe what, babysit? Cuz I cannot repeatedly ask mom for money. Gimme 40 for a concert ma, or hey, 40 to go to Williamsburg, please. 40 for Atlanta, biatch. Ya know? She's not my employer, she's my mom. All we do these days is do stuff that cost money. Movies, concerts, fireworks. I don't have any goddamn money. And I can't stand owing friends money, or mooching off them. I suppose I could get away with 30 bucks for Atlanta...10 for pitching in for gas, and 20 for food. URGH I neeeeeeed a jobbbbbbbbbbbbb. Well no, I don't, but if I wanna continue to hang out with my friends I do, or to do fun things, I do. How do crack heads and retards get jobs, and not me? What's wrong with ME? I am capable. I must be forgetable or something. They forget I applied. I dunno. Or they think I am too inexperienced. ARGH.
I also wanna make out with the majority of my guy friends. Yes, well, I like kissing. I'm a friggin Scorpio. Since I haven't had sex, I need to make out. Or kiss. Or something. Now let me rephrase all this so it doesn't make me sound any more whorish than necessary. By majority, that does not include Chris, or Greg because well, Greg goes all crazy and wants me to start up a relationship with him. And he gets mad at me etc etc. And Chris, well I am not attracted to him, let's put it there. But for my other friends, it just won't work itself out. Everyone puts such a high standard on making out. See, I think of it as a fun thing to do, and maybe a test to see if you could be compatible in a relationship. Not that a relationship must follow. All of my best kisses have been with guys I did not go out with.
But yeah.
So like, Zach for example. He has no romantic inclination at all towards me. Example? For the past few hangouts, I have hung out at Zach's house late at night and I sit and lay on his bed for the majority of the night. He sits in his computer chair. We do not make out. I am on his bed, and no making out. Point. But damn, his bed is ridiculously ompfortable. And for Aaron? Well, he has had the occasional joke about me being above average looking, but they are just casual comments. We get along fine, and he is super friendly and considerate, but we don't really hang out one on one. And he seems nervous around me, or maybe I am, and plus i think he still likes his ex, or likes a certain taken member in our group. But maybe I am reading things all wrong. I just don't think Aaron thinks of me in that way, and he might only kiss people he's going out with. Who else? I dunno, I can't think of more right now.
Maybe I just feel comfortable around these guys to think that a kiss wouldn't screw up the friendship. Or since I think they are such great guys and I trust em, I just put them at the top of the list. Maybe I'm being a typical Scorpio. I think this may have given a bad inpression of me. Cuz honestly, it's been a while since I've kissed anyone, especially anyone I hadn't gone out with. So no, not a whore, and I wouldn't go kiss one guy, and then keep switching btwn him and another guy, but come on people, what's a girl gotta do? I thought guys were the make out wanting ones. Blah. I feel like such a whore around these saintly guys, it's pathetic.
I think I'm gonna go now, it's like nearly seven, and you'll have to excuse any typos, etc. This diary just needed a nice longish entry. So I'm off to bed to hopefully sleep a good long time. If mom doesn't decide to go somewhere and drag me along.

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