Chuck's monologue:
One of my teachers once used to say: There
is only one constant in the world, and that is
change. I never knew how right he was, then.
Change doesn't always come when you wish for it.
Mostly it comes when you least expect it. And
then you have to decide how you deal with it.
Sometimes you embrace it, though sometimes you
dread it. It's up to you what you make with it...
"Good morning, it's
6.30 in Chicago on the 24th January and it looks
like another one of those dull days today. The
temp..." The monotonous voice of the radio
DJ was abruptly cut off by a violent push onto
the off-button of Gary's radio-alarm-clock. He
peered carefully through one eyelid, hoping the
world would not depend on his heroic deeds for
one day. Just for one day.
Why me? was the question he
had been asking himself ever so often during the
last few weeks. The newspaper had been coming to
him for over two years now and he needed a break.
Definitely. But every time he had decided to take
one, the stupid paper had done something to
prevent him from taking it. Well, the paper of
course hadn't actually done anything, it
had been him who had done the inevitable. Or so
he had thought.
Then, there was the
unmistakable sound that he had so much gotten
used to over the last months, that he frequently
had caught himself missing it when it hadn't been
there. "Meow!" and then a faint Plop
in front of his door.
Reluctantly, he exited his
warm and cosy bed and opened his hotel room door.
There they were, the cat... and the paper. He
picked it up and tossed it idly onto his table.
No, not the cat, the paper, of course. He didn't
even bother reading the headline. He would deal
with that later, first he needed a hot and strong
cup of coffee and something to eat. He half
expected Chuck to arrive at his door every
minute, but then he remembered that Chuck was on
a business trip to New York. Lucky bastard! He
can have a few nice days outside Chicago and I'm
stuck here with the whole world resting on my
shoulders. In the meantime, the cat (which
still didn't have a proper name, for whatever
reason) had made itself at home, snuggling up to
Gary's still warm bed, rolling itself like a
fur-ball into his duvet. "Yeah, that's what
I call a dog's life. Or cat's, as it is. You want
to tease me, do you? Try me." he snarled at
the cat, half-heartedly throwing a piece of dried
cat-food at it. The cat just lazily lifted its
head, carefully sniffed at the thing, decided it
wasn't worth getting up for and continued dozing,
much to Gary's dismay. "Oh, do what you
want, will you? That's what you do all the time,
anyway."
Gary was holding a steaming cup of coffee in
one of his hands, occasionally taking a sip. In
front of him was the paper that already had some
decidedly brown coffee stains on it... He quickly
skipped through the headlines. Then it struck
him. Wait a minute. This isn't tomorrow's
paper! The look onto the front page confirmed
his assumption. It was dated 24th January.
What the hell, he thought. This can't
be right! He looked again, but no matter how
much he stared at the date, it wasn't about to
change. He went over to the bed, poking the
innocently sleeping cat, so that it woke up with
a startle. "You! You brought the wrong
paper! It's today's!"
"Meow," was all the
cat had to offer. Gary wasn't sure how to react.
Should he be glad that his innermost wish had
finally come true? Or should he be concerned that
he wouldn't be able to save whoever was out there
to save? Chuck, was his first thought.
Whenever he didn't know what to do, Chuck had
something helpful to offer. Well, mostly it
wasn't that helpful, actually... But at
least he had someone to discuss his problems
with.
Hadn't Chuck left a phone
number somewhere? He frantically searched his
apartment. No use, though. For a while he stood
in the middle of the room, trying to focus his
thoughts.
Just then there was a firm knock on his door.
"What? Who is it?" Gary was confused.
"It's me, Marissa."
"Oh, thank God."
There she was, a helpful angel in desperate
times. He opened the door for her. They both sat
down at the table.
"Coffee?"
"Yeah, why
not."
Gary poured her a cup. Spike had settled next to
the bed, gladly giving the cat a wet cleaning
with his big tongue. And the strangest thing was
that the cat even seemed to like it. It purred
loudly. But Gary had no eyes for the idyllic
scenario today. Although Marissa couldn't
actually see Gary's sour expression, she somehow
sensed something wasn't right.
"Gary, is everything
okay?"
"Well, yes and
no."
"What is that supposed to
mean? Come on, don't play your cryptic games with
me." She wanted to add something along the
lines of Do you think being blind is the same
as being stupid? but then she thought the
better of it. She knew that Gary knew she was not
stupid.
"You see, I got the paper
today, just as always. Just as I was used to. But
it's not tomorrow's paper, it's
today's."
Marissa lifted one eyebrow, Mr. Spock-style.
"That's strange."
"That's all you can say? That's
strange!? Thanks for the support!"
"Gary, don't get mad at
me. It's not my fault, is it? And anyway, isn't
that what you've always wanted? To let the paper
leave you alone? To be just a normal guy who gets
today's paper, not having to save everyone and
everything?"
"Yeah, that's what I keep
telling myself, too. But somehow it doesn't work.
Somehow I've got this feeling that the paper
might be somewhere, waiting for me to pick it up.
And what if someone else finds it? What's that
someone gonna do with it? Run straight for the
next shop, buy the winning lottery ticket? Or
make a fortune at the stock-exchange? What if
that someone isn't going to change the important
things the paper reveals?"
"Gary, Gary, Gary. You
know what your problem is? You're so obsessed
with that paper that you can't let go of it. It
has become your life. Look at you. You're young,
you're attractive, I guess. You've got your whole
life in front of you, and all you do is chase
people, get yourself into trouble all the time
and basically run your butt off for people you're
probably never gonna see again, let alone get a Thank
You from them. This has become your life. And
now you wanna tell me you miss that? You want the
paper back, get that life back? Frankly, I don't
understand you, Gary."
"You know, you sound more
and more like Chuck."
Marissa couldn't help but smile. "Yeah, I
guess I do. But for once, Chuck is right. Get a
life, Gary. Forget about the paper!"
"I'm not sure if I can do
that, Marissa."
"So, what do you want to
do? Look at every paper in Chicago, just to see
if it's tomorrow's?"
Gary let out a sadistic chuckle. "That's the
point, I don't know what to do! What if this is
some sort of cryptic sign the paper wants to give
me. It happened before, didn't it? You remember
the time when the cat got sick and the cat
started staying at Eunice's?"
"But this is not the
same. The cat's here. And it brought a paper,
didn't it? It was just not tomorrow's. See it
this way: the cat figured you needed a break and
decided to give you one. Why can't you just
accept it?"
"Because I
can't."
"Now, that's a good
explanation! Or what about this: someone swapped
the paper in front of your door and gave you his
instead."
"Only the more reason to
try to get hold of the paper. But for one thing,
that person must have been a world-record
athlete. It didn't take me more than a few
seconds to get to the door after the paper got
there this morning. No no no, that can't be
it."
"But you gotta do something!
You can't just sit here the whole day, pondering
about where or with whom the paper might be. Come
on, Gary, let's get out and do something fun for
once."
"Don't you have to go to
work today?"
"Nope. Got a few days
off."
"Great, that's just what
I need. A baby-sitter."
"You're getting unfair,
Gary. Just say a word and I'll go."
"I'm sorry, Marissa. I'm
just a little on edge."
"So, are you coming or
not?"
Gary had persuaded Marissa to stay in the
hotel room a little longer, hoping that the paper
would still arrive. A futile attempt, the paper
hadn't been coming and Gary had the distinct
feeling that it would not come to him at all,
just by sitting around in his room.
"You know what, Marissa,
you're right. Let's get outta here."
"Whatever you
say."
Marissa took Spike and off they went, diving into
the bustling heart of busy Chicago.
It had gotten late. Gary had taken Marissa's
arm and they were both laughing out loud while
they walked along the hallway to Gary's hotel
room. They had had a nice day, doing all sorts of
things both of them hadn't had time to do during
the last few weeks. They had gone to the
fun-fair, riding one of the old-fashioned horses
on a merry-go-round. Gary had talked Marissa into
going ice-skating. They both had been a bit
wobbly at first and with Gary's help Marissa had
even managed to feel quite safe on the ice. Then,
they had been to the movies, munching away on
popcorn and cola. Gary had felt a little
uncomfortable, as he thought that Marissa
wouldn't enjoy herself as she couldn't actually
watch the movie. But she had insisted and
apparently she had had her share of fun with the
film, after all. Then, Gary had taken her to the
café that had been his favourite when he still
had been at college. After that, they had gone to
the horse racing, just as they had been the day
Gary had gotten the paper for the first time.
They had both bet a little money, though no one
had won anything. Very unlike the last time, when
Gary had won Spike for Marissa, in a way. But
without the paper, Gary was just a regular guy
who had to bet on chance and on his gut. And what
had it brought him? Five bucks less than what he
had before... Though, he had immensely enjoyed
himself. The day had ended with a nice meal in
Marissa's favourite Italian restaurant. And now
they both had a little booze from the red
wine.
They arrived at Gary's door. He had to fumble
with the key a bit, before he was actually able
to open the door.
"You sure I can let you
go home all on your own?"
"Yup. I still got Spike,
remember?"
"Alright,
then."
Gary went into his room but he turned around
again. "Marissa?"
"Yeah."
"Thanks for the lovely
day. It was great. Haven't had so much fun since
I broke up with Marcia."
"Don't mention it, my
pleasure."
Then they finally parted and Gary went into the
lion's dungeon. The lion wasn't there, what a
surprise. The cat had fled from the sinking ship.
While he got ready for bed, he slowly started
facing reality again. This morning's incidents
came back to him. When Marissa had taken him out,
at first he had been a little nervous, suspecting
the paper to appear any time somewhere. But no
matter how hard he had tried to look out for it,
he couldn't see a single paper anywhere. And
after a few hours he had enjoyed himself so much
that he had actually forgotten about the
paper.
He made a careful inspection
of his hotel room, suspecting the paper to lie
innocently on a desk or a table. But... no paper.
Just the one the cat had brought this morning. He
suspiciously checked the date on it again. Still
the 24th January. Alright, he thought, maybe
the cat has decided to give me a break. Why not
accept it after all? I guess I could get used to
a normal life again. And with that final
thought he climbed into his bed and was dead
asleep the moment his head hit the pillow.
End part I
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