"Gar?!"
Then there was a loud knock
at the door. "Gary?! Are you in
there?"
Gary slowly lifted his
head, immediately wishing he hadn't, as a sharp
pain shot through it. Hadn't that been Chuck's
voice? There it was again. "Gary? Are you
alright?"
Gary
uttered a grunt of dismay before saying,
"Yeah, I'm fine," silently adding Sort
of. "Hang on a second." He wrestled
to get out of his bed and opened the door for
Chuck, who strode in happily, waving a bag of
fresh and neatly smelling doughnuts under Gary's
nose. Gary, however, was not amused. Actually,
how he was feeling right now felt more along the
lines of seeing last night's meal for the second
time and aspirin, in exactly that order.
"Chuck, get those as far away from me as you
can, will you?" He gestured at the
doughnuts.
"Well, well, well. Here you think you can do
an old friend a favour, and what do you get?
Nothing but thanklessness."
Gary had sat down at the
table, holding his head, which felt twice the
size it actually was, in his hands.
"That bad, is it?" Chuck
enquired.
Then Gary awoke to life.
"The paper! Did you pick it up
outside?"
"The paper? Gary, it's 8.30, I thought you
had already fetched it."
"No, I haven't."
"Then, I guess the cat got stuck in a
traffic jam."
Gary looked at Chuck with
an uncomprehending glance. He definitely wasn't
in the condition for jokes.
"Would you mind if I made myself a
coffee?" Chuck asked.
"What? Oh no, help yourself."
When the smell of
freshly made coffee filled Gary's hotel room, he
felt an uncontrollable urge to run for the
bathroom. Chuck just cast him an understanding
look.
When Gary exited the
bathroom again he looked a shade paler than
before.
"Gar, you got any tomato juice?"
"You wanna drink tomato juice and
coffee?!"
"No, of course not. An old trick my uncle
once told me. Mix a glass of tomato juice with
two tablespoons of vinegar. Cures the worst
hangovers."
"Come on, Chuck, spare me your uncle's
advice." There we go again. Chuck's
useful advice, he thought. "Why are you
back so early, anyway? Weren't you supposed to
stay in New York until day after
tomorrow?"
"Yeah, I was. But the company pulled out of
the deal, so we gotta go back early. But first
you tell me what or who earned you this hangover.
This doesn't seem like the Gary I used to know.
You haven't had a hangover since you left
high-school!"
"It
's all Marissa's fault."
"Marissa? Are you sure?"
"Well, maybe it was the cat's fault, or the
paper's. Or even mine. I don't know."
Chucks questioning look
spoke for itself, so Gary told him the whole
story.
"And you say, you haven't seen a single
paper since, except for this one?" Chuck
lifted the 24th January-paper up.
"Yup."
"So, maybe the cat's not stuck in a traffic
jam, after all."
Gary looked much better,
now that the aspirin had finally started to show
effect. He had even managed to drink a bit of
coffee and nibble on one of Chuck's
doughnuts.
"Chuck, where the hell is the cat? It should
have been here by now!"
"How should I know? Am I a clairvoyant or
what?" Chuck suddenly had to smile to
himself.
"What? What's so funny all of a
sudden?"
"It's just that you always used to be the
one with the crystal ball. The one who could
predict the future."
"Ha
ha, very funny. You're the most..." Gary
suddenly stopped. He thought he had heard
something at the door. He abruptly opened it with
the words There you finally are! already
at the tip of his tongue. But when he had a close
look, it was only the hotel's cleaning boy,
getting ready to hoover the floor. Half
disappointed he closed the door again, only to
hear a very much more familiar sound just the
second the door had fallen into its lock.
"Meow." Gary literally threw the door
open, and there it was. The cat. And a paper. He
grabbed it and looked at the date.
"There, you see, Chuck. The cat keeps
bringing me today's paper."
"So, it happened again. There goes my
fortune. All the lost opportunities to make
money. Lots of it. But, no, Mr. Gary Hobson had
to play hero. No money-making he had said. No
black suitcases with big notes in it. Just play
the good guy all the time. Maybe this is the
reason it doesn't come anymore. The cat decided
you were too boring for the job. Maybe the cat is
looking more for the gambling-type. More for
someone like... me."
"Do
you wanna say the paper comes to you
now?"
"Oh, I wish!"
"But why? Why does the cat still bring the
paper? If I wanted today's paper, I could just go
down to the newsdealer and get it."
"Maybe it's its way to show you that you
don't need to bother anymore. No more Mr.
Hobson saving the world. And maybe it is
still visiting you to see if you're okay. To see
how you're doing without tomorrow's
paper."
"Perfect. A feline baby-sitter."
"If
you ask me, Gar, just don't think about it
anymore. Accept that you're not the guy for the
job anymore. This is what you always wanted since
that cursed paper arrived at your doorstop, isn't
it?"
"Marissa and you really sound exactly the
same. That's what she told me, too."
"Well, then maybe it's the most sensible
thing to do."
"Yeah, I guess it is. But what if it's not
what the paper wants me to do? What if I'm
supposed to do something else
entirely?"
"Gary, why do you still cling to the paper
so much? If it wanted you to do something
specific, don't you think it would have told you?
I'm not saying this again: Let go of the
paper."
"Maybe I had planned to make a fortune with
it, after all. Maybe I had just decided yesterday
that I wanted to go and get a lottery ticket and
win big. To treat myself. To get something out of
the whole thing."
Chuck stared at Gary to
determine if he was pulling his leg, but
apparently he was not.
"Are you serious, Gar?"
"Me? Have you even known me not being
serious?"
"To
be honest, yeah."
"Alright, but I've had this thought, yes.
Why not go out and do what you were so hot on
doing with the paper all the time?"
"That doesn't sound like you,
Gary."
"Doesn't it? Perhaps I have changed, did you
consider that? Perhaps the damn paper has changed
me. Perhaps I'm just sick of the whole goddamn
business." He forcefully threw the paper he
still held in his hands to the floor.
"Whoa, whoa. whoa, go easy! This is getting
us nowhere. If you can't accept the whole damn
thing, fine! Ponder about it as much as you like.
But not with me, I've had it. See you, Gary. Make
sure you give me a phone call, once the paper
comes back," Chuck said sarcastically and
left an irritated Gary alone in his room.
Gary
couldn't believe it. Chuck had walked out on him.
And he had always thought Chuck used be his best
friend. But even a best friend's patience
eventually had to wear out. So, Gary fed the cat
that was nervously pacing to and fro. "Your
damn paper used to get me into trouble and now it
still does, even if it's not there anymore.
You've been nothing but a nuisance to me ever
since I met you!" With those words he
offered it a bowl of milk and one with cat food
in it. "Do you know that you don't deserve
this at all?" He took his leather jacket and
left the hotel. He had to go somewhere to
think.
Once he
had left the hotel, he had started walking.
Nowhere specifically, he had just walked. Now, he
realised that his feet had taken him to his
favourite bench. The one overlooking the river.
He sat down and watched the silent swaying of the
waves, the glistering of the light on the
constantly moving water...
He didn't know how long
he had sat there. Minutes? Hours? He had suddenly
become aware of a wet coldness and then he had
felt the rain pouring down on him. He quickly
pulled up the collar of his jacket and headed for
the next opportunity of shelter. Which happened
to be a shelter of a bus stop. He shock the rain
off his hair and became aware of the old man who
lay on the cold wooden bench of the bus shelter.
He was covered by an old ragged sleeping bag that
couldn't offer much warmth, from what it looked
like. It suddenly made Gary realise that he
actually wasn't so bad off after all. Look at
you, Gary Hobson. You've got a roof to sleep
under, you've got friends to rely on, you've got
enough to eat and you don't have to fear for your
existence every day. How stupid had he been?
How foolish? Brooding for hours in the pouring
rain, about something as insignificant as a
newspaper! Had Chuck and Marissa been right, in
the end? He didn't know. He just didn't know.
Until two days ago, his life had been in order.
Well, in a chaotic sort of order, but at least he
had known what he had had to do every day. The
paper had given his life some sense. And now
they, whoever they were, had taken that away from
him. Had they really? Maybe the paper would come
back. If not tomorrow, then perhaps the day after
that. Or the day after. At any time, really. No,
he was not ready to accept it was lost forever.
No matter what Marissa and Chuck might say. He
decidedly strode out into the rain and made his
way back to his hotel room.
When
Gary had returned to his room there had been no
newspaper. No tomorrow's newspaper, that is. Gary
didn't know to be happy or sad about it. Mostly,
he thought he was sad, though. Or maybe he should
say disappointed. So, he had resigned for
the day and had gone to bed early after watching
some TV.
Gary
awoke to the bright light blinding him. The sun
had come out early today and it had woken him
even before his alarm could go off. He risked a
look at the clock. 6.21 a.m.God, he
thought, don't I ever get some sleep? But
he didn't feel that tired as he had turned in
early last night. He eventually decided to get up
and get some coffee, but before he knowingly
turned off the alarm on his radio. The stupid
radio DJ was making him mad every morning... Or
maybe it was just that he reminded him too much
of the time when he had still got the paper. It's
only been two days without it and I am already
pining about "good old times"... he
mused grimly. Then there was a loud knock at his
door. Gary suddenly realised he was still only
dressed in a T-shirt and his boxer-shorts.
"Who is it?"
"Gar, it's me." Chuck. Good old
Chuck couldn't be upset with anyone for more than
a day. So, Gary opened the door.
"Hi, Buddy. So, what's new?" Chuck
strode in, tossing Gary a paper bag he had
brought from the bakery. It had become somewhat
of a ritual that Chuck dropped by before work and
they had breakfast together. For the most part,
it was because Gary and Chuck had been old
friends, but Gary had had the distinct feeling
that Chuck always had a sort of hidden agenda,
regarding the paper. Namely catching even a tiny
piece of information from the sports page in an
unguarded moment...
"What's new? Not much, I guess."
"No
paper, yet?"
"No
paper, yet."
"Where's the cat?"
"How should I know? Hasn't been here since
yesterday." Gary unpacked what looked like
two enormous chocolate muffins."Chuck, you
really wanna eat this for breakfast?"
"Yeah, sure. What's wrong with
it?"
"You're disgusting!"
"Am
I? I remember times when you had cheeseburgers
for breakfast. Every morning. And you call this
disgusting?!"
"That was years ago! It was when we were
still at college. I can't believe you even
remember that!"
"Don't you underestimate my brain
capabilities."
"Oh, I would never do that. Not to
mention your capabilities in
Japanese."
"What? How did you know that?"
"Oh, I didn't. Just an educated
guess..."
"Got anything planned for today?"
"Nope."
Chuck didn't want to press
the matter any further. All he had to say to Gary
about the paper he had already said. And where
had it gotten them? He decided to let Gary deal
with it in his own way. What else could he do?
Gary wouldn't listen to him, anyway. They just
quietly sipped their coffee together and Gary had
decided the muffin wasn't so bad, after all. The
clock turned 7 a.m. and Chuck got up from the
table. "Have to get to work. Sorry,
buddy."
"Yeah, I know," Gary said
understandingly.
So, Chuck left Gary's room
and Gary was, once again, on his own. Work.
That was something he would need to do if the
paper really wasn't coming back. But he couldn't
imagine to be a stockbroker again. Maybe he
should look for a nice and quiet job that would
just earn him enough to keep his head above
water. Easier said than done. Especially
in a city like Chicago where probably every 10th
person was out of work, anyway. Basically, he
would have to take what he was offered. But he
decided not to bother about unlaid eggs, yet. And
where the hell was the cat?! It hadn't shown up
at all. Was that it, finally? No cat, no paper?
Never again?
Two
weeks had passed since the paper had last arrived
at Gary Hobson's doorstop. Two weeks, he
thought. Seems like it was yesterday. But,
in a way, he had gotten used to a life without
it. He had found he even appreciated a life
without chaos, without the obligation of being a
hero, without getting up at 6.30 every morning.
And he had accepted it... Almost. Chuck and
Marissa had been right in the end, he had to
admit that much to himself. But now he was
missing something. Living a life of a free man
was good enough. For a while... He needed a
purpose to his life. And more importantly, he
needed money. So, I have to find a job, after
all. It was something he dreaded. Going to
countless interviews, only to be told time and
again: "Yes, this is all very impressing,
Mr. Hobson, but we are afraid, we cannot offer
you a post at this time." He decided to ask
Marissa about it. Maybe she knew someone who knew
someone who had a friend who could offer him a
job...
Marissa had been more than forthcoming. She was
tremendously relieved to see that Gary had
finally made it. That he had finally started to
get himself a new life, to accept an ordinary
life without the paper. And Gary had just had the
right feeling, Marissa had organised him a neat
job as a clerk with a trading company. And it was
an even better job than Gary had been hoping for.
But one thing he had decided to keep. His hotel
room. It wasn't all that expensive, although
Chuck had shown him huge calculations that he
would be much better off with a flat or an
apartment in the long run. No, the hotel room had
something very special, he wasn't ready to give
that up just yet. Maybe later. Some time in the
future. The cat hadn't turned up again since two
days after he had gotten the paper for the last
time. Actually, it was something Gary still
missed. Not for the sake of the paper but he had
always liked the cat, no matter how many papers
of yesterday, today, or tomorrow it had brought.
He had considered getting a cat from an animal
shelter. And maybe one day he would. But now he
had to get accustomed to a whole new life. The
life of an ordinary 20th century bachelor with a
job, without a wife... and without tomorrow's
newspaper.
Chuck's monologue:
Everyone has wishes.
Wishes so strong that you even play make-believe
with them sometimes. But no matter how much you
wish for something, you might be disappointed
when it finally comes true. My father always used
to say, Be careful what you wish for... And
when I'm watching my friend Gary, I can finally
see the truth in it. Consider this: The next time
you wish for something, just think a moment about
the consequences. Gary never really did. Or maybe
he wasn't ready for them. And who knows, perhaps,
one day, life will show up at his doorstop
again...
The End
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