"What was her name?" she asked shyly. Pain flickered over his
face and
for a moment she was certain he wouldn't answer.
"Maire," he said at last. For the first time since she had known
him she
heard the faint trace of his Irish roots in his accent. "Mary."
"She loved you?"
"Yes."
"Did you remember that," she asked, "before you got your soul back?"
"Yes." He paused. "But I didn't care."
"So, now you remember… and care?"
"Yes."
"She loved you. You were a good brother."
There was a long pause.
"Thank you," he said softly.
Slightly encouraged, Willow risked a little more. "You said she
was the
youngest. There were others?"
"Two… and one brother," he added. Before she could ask him another
question he surprisingly continued on his own. "Liam was the
oldest.
Then Sile. Then me. Then Siobhan and Maire."
"The middle child," she murmured. "Angel? Angelus? Why isn't
your name
more…?"
"Irish?" he smiled faintly. "I was born on September 29."
She looked at him uncomprehendingly.
"The Day of the Archangels," he explained. "Gabriel and Michael."
"Oh." She paused for a moment. "Your family was Catholic?"
"Yes," he said. "But I'm afraid that won't help me now."
She sensed a deep sadness within him. She feared that he would
close up
again if she pursued that particular subject so she tried something
a
little safer.
"What did your father do?"
"He was a farmer." He talked quietly of his family, his father's
fields,
his mother's cooking, of teasing his sisters, and roughhousing
with his
brother. His accent gradually grew stronger as he recalled his
distant
childhood. Willow was mesmerized. They were nearly home before
she
realized it.
"Angel? When is the last time you talked about your family?"
He stared at the road thoughtfully. "I don't know. Usually I
try not to
think about them." He gave her a sideways glance. "Nobody has
ever
really asked."
"Buffy?"
He shook his head. "She's focused on now." His grin was bitter.
"History really isn't her strong suit. She doesn't want to know
about
Angelus. She doesn't want to think about what I use to be."
"Not even before you became a vampire?"
"It's not important."
"How can family not be important?"
He made an odd, shrugging gesture that might have been a sigh
if he could
breathe. "Buffy tries to … avoid subjects she thinks might be
…
awkward."
"I'm sorry," Willow said, suddenly abashed.
"It's okay," he reassured her. "It's been… a long time. I miss
them,"
he continued, almost to himself.
Willow touched his hand lightly as it lay on the gearshift. "Thank
you
for telling me about them."
"Next time," he smiled, "we'll talk about your family."
"Next time?"
"They're playing the Ducks next Saturday. It won't be much of
a game,
but bad hockey is better than no hockey."
She could hear the hopeful note in his voice. Does he really
want to do
this again, she wondered? "Angel?" she said slowly. "I've enjoyed
all
of this… but I still don't understand. Why are you doing it?
Did you
really just want someone to go to the game with… or… or is it
just to
make Buffy jealous?" she finished miserably. Idiot, she thought.
Why
did I say that?