Giles hadn't been able to understand most of the words Buffy had
used
when she phoned him from the hospital. After his distressing
argument
with her earlier, he had tried calming down by researching what
Willow had
printed out from that disk the janitor had found in Jenny's
classroom. He
was surprised to find that the disk contained the Spell of Restoration.
Angelus had killed Jenny Calendar. And he was out to destroy
Buffy – both
physically and emotionally. Giles couldn't fail Buffy where
he failed
Jenny. Angelus' reign of terror needed to be ended. And if restoring
his soul was the only way to end that reign, Giles was willing
to try it.
He was so intent on finally interpreting the last lines of the
Spell of
Restoration, that he hadn't heard the phone for the first few
rings.
Buffy was calling. He'd been able to gather that Willow, Oz
and Cordelia
had been hurt in a fight with Angel, but Buffy was crying too
hard for him
to make out the rest of her speech.
Now it was nearly eleven o'clock. He entered the hospital's emergency
room and was about to approach the desk when Buffy appeared
out of
nowhere,
and threw herself into his arms, crying and talking in a language
that he
couldn't understand. The only words he could pick out were "Xander"
and
"my fault." He patted her comfortingly, and tried to soothe
her. "Buffy,
I can't understand what you're blubbering. You need to get a
hold of
yourself and take some deep breaths." For the next few moments
he coached
her breathing and waited for her to calm down. "Okay, let's sit
down and
you can tell me what happened." He looked around for some chairs
and
spotted the waiting area down the hall. He guided her to it,
seeing Oz and
Cordelia already there. Oz had a gauze bandage on the left side
of his
head and was getting the beginnings of a black eye. But what
really caught
Giles' eyes were the two pierce marks on the boy's neck.
"Are you two all right?" he asked cautiously, stretching out
his hand
and examining Oz's neck wounds more carefully.
Cordelia choked a little as new tears began to stream down her
cheeks.
She wanted to say that she would never be all right again. Xander,
her
crazy, stupid, annoying and lovable Xander was gone, missing,
maybe dead.
And she never told him that she loved him. He knew she was trying
to be a
better person, he knew she cared enough for him to declare that
they were a
couple to the public, but he never knew that she LOVED him.
The thought
broke her heart. Oh God, if you just let us save Xander tonight,
I swear
I'll tell him how I feel. I'll be a better person. I'll be nicer
to
everybody, even losers. And I'll never ask for anything again.
Please
God… Giles was still looking at her, concerned. What was it
he asked? Oh,
if I'm all right. Well, physically, I guess. She nodded at Giles
after
recalling his question.
Oz also nodded once in affirmation to Giles's question. "Good."
Giles said. "Where's Willow? And where's Xander?" At the sound
of
Xander's name, Cordelia let out a small moan. Oh dear, he thought,
sitting
down. This is definitely bad.
"Willow's in a room over there," Buffy answered, vaguely waving
in a
direction down the hall. "She woke up right after we got here,
but she's
got a great big bump on her head…. They're going to keep her
here
overnight – just to be safe." And if I'd killed Angel before
this, she'd
be sitting at the Bronze with Oz. Not all bruised and battered.
Buffy
fought back new tears and looked to the ceiling to regain her
composure.
"Has anyone called her parents?" Giles continued.
"Yeah," Oz answered. "They're with her now. We told them it was
a
mugging."
"I see. Now I need someone to explain to me what happened. Where
is
Xander? " He then sat there for the next few minutes and listened
as they
took turns telling what they had seen. Cordelia tearfully told
of her
near-abduction. He paled through Oz's description of the actual
encounter
with Angel and had to fight back tears when Oz spoke of Xander's
fate. He
had to be strong for his kids. He felt the stunning emotion
as he finally
realized that he regarded them as if they were children of his
own. They
needed someone who wouldn't fall apart. And he would be that
someone if it
was the last thing he did on this earth.
"And then the police finally left and told me I could call you.."
Buffy trailed off. She'd spoken so softly, and Giles could tell
that she
felt responsible for the night's events. He would have to have
a long talk
with her when all this was over and explain that no one can
predict the
future. Not even the Slayer or her Watcher. There were no prophesies
for
living your life. Buffy sniffled. He offered her a tissue from
his
pocket. He patted Buffy's shoulder as she blew her nose and
then removed
his glasses and pinched the bridge of his nose.
"So.. Um…Oz.. Are you absolutely certain that Angel actually….actually
k-killed Xander? Were you um, able to get close enough to feel
a pulse?"
"Uh no. Angel told me he did. And Xander was kind of a grayish
color, and his eyes were closed, you know.." Oz trailed off
uncertainly..
"And Angel took his ?…" Giles paused, unable to say the next word.
"Well, Xander wasn't there when Buffy got there," Oz supplied.
Everyone sat in silence while Giles digested the possibilities.
"Uh, if
you guys don't need me for a few minutes, I'd like to check
on Willow." Oz
said.
"By all means," Giles murmured.
"I'll be back soon," Oz said shortly, moving out of the small
waiting
room and down the hall.
They sat in silence for a few minutes while Giles considered
their
next action. Xander's life could be saved tonight if they found
him in
time. The Blood Token would slow Angel down, but it wouldn't
stop him if
his goal really was to convert Xander. Or, he thought grimly,
it could
already be too late and I would be leading Buffy into a fight
with Angel
that she might not be ready for. And may not win. He sighed.
"Giles?" Buffy said in a small voice. He turned to look at her.
"We
have to find them and see if Xander's really…" she trailed off.
"Yes. Yes, of course. We should start at the warehouse and then
go
by Angel's old apartment. He still has it leased and may have
gone there
to hide. We'll, uh, go to the library and get some .. uh ..supplies
first." He tried to convey a sense of hope. Still, both Buffy
and
Cordelia looked ready to fold at any moment. "I'll just check
on Willow
quickly before we leave. Wait here."
He moved into the hallway and spotted Oz a little ways down the
hall
sitting on the floor outside a door. "Oz? Is Willow -- She's
still
awake?"
"Yeah." Oz mumbled, head in his hands. "Giles, she asked me about
him. If he was okay. I didn't know what to say. I couldn't hurt
her with
the answer. I had to leave." His voice quivered on the verge
of tears.
"Her parents are sitting right there and it's not like I can
just say
'Well, you see, we're going to try and save Xander from a blood-sucking
fiend that wants to convert him, but we're not sure if he's
already dead.'"
He sighed heavily. "Her parents think that he ran for help when
we were
attacked by the 'muggers'. I just don't know what to say to
her. She
looks so fragile, Giles. So hurt." His eyes spilled over and
tears
drifted down his cheeks to his waiting arms, crossed on his
knees.
"Do you want to come in with me?" Giles offered. "We can explain
some
of it to her."
"How? Here parents are right there, " Oz asked, standing and
wiping
the stray tears from his face.
"Come on." He pushed open the door to her room and entered it slowly.
Willow's appearance shocked Giles. One half of her face had the
purple-yellowish tinge of a new bruise, but it was her eyes
that shocked
him most. She was desperately trying to remain calm. He could
see her
fight for control as she saw Oz again. Obviously his hasty exit
to her
question had left her with the worst assumption. Her parents
seemed to
think that she was concerned with Xander's apparent disappearance
after the
attack. But Willow knew there were far worse things in Sunnydale
than
being mugged. And Angelus was one of them. She was terrified.
Giles set about getting her parents out of the room. It took
less
time than he expected to convince the Rosenbergs that they really
needed
some coffee and air, but they had been so relieved with the
news that
Willow was going to be fine that they felt comfortable in leaving
her alone
with the librarian and Oz.
"We'll be just down the hall, sweetie," her mother assured as
they
left.
Willow barely waited for the door to close before she tried to
sit up.
"What happened to Xander?" she demanded. "I'm his best and oldest
friend.
If something happened, you can't just leave me in the dark.
I HAVE to
know!"
"Well, uh, Willow, from what I have been told," Giles began.
"Angel
has taken him. He was definitely unconscious when Oz last saw
him, and his
condition may be even worse." Oz moved closer to Willow's bed
and grasped
her hand as she stared at Giles with sadness.
"Angel said he was going to make him into a vampire. If Xander's
drained and already dead, the job's half done," she said, surprising
them
all with her bluntness. "We CANNOT let the rest of the transformation
happen." She would save her best friend. Xander needed her.
He depended
on her. And she was going to come through for him. Their friendship
was
still the most powerful feeling in her life. She wasn't going
to let Angel
take that away from her. She was about to bring her feet to
the floor
when Giles laid his hand on her shoulder.
"But it's the Blood Token." Giles interjected.
"The what?"
"Today is the Blood Token. There is one day per seasonal equinox
where vampires have to perform a ceremony to convert a human
into a
vampire. It has to do with a deal between the Master and the
Old Ones.
The ritual would take an hour. No vampire is willing to risk
the time. It
would be too easy to get caught. And Angel knows that Buffy
will come
after him as soon as she can. I told you about this last year,
don't you
recall?"
She didn't recall, but she wasn't going to admit that now. "Who
exactly are the Old Ones?" Willow asked.
"I'm not really certain. The passage in my book was very obscure.
But other Watchers have faithfully chronicled that every three
months there
is one day where vampires cannot taint blood without performing
a ceremony
first. That day is called the Blood Token and it's today. Angel
will most
likely try to hide until tomorrow night, when the transformation
can be
done without the ritual."
"Not good enough Giles. Xander's life is in danger even if Angel
doesn't convert him." Willow again made a motion to put her
feet on the
floor.
"Willow, you have to stay here. The rest of us are going to find
them
and stop Angel, but you're in no shape to come along. And your
parents…"
Giles trailed off as he saw the tears form in her eyes.
"Xander needs me," she pleaded softly. "My head doesn't hurt
that
much, and saving Xander is so much more important than a stupid
bump on
my
head. Giles, please. I have to go."
"No," he said firmly. "The hospital won't allow it. I can't allow
it. Willow, Buffy is a wreck. I'm not certain she could handle
being
worried about both you and Xander at once right now. And in
your
condition, she would be worried about you every step of the
way. The best
way for us to save Xander is without you." She lay back in the
bed,
resignation settling in as she began to cry. She HAD to find
a way.
"Well, then you have to promise to call me and tell me what's
happened
to him as soon as you find out," she looked at both Oz and Giles,
making
her point with her eyes that they would be very sorry if they
didn't
promise. Of course, I might find him first, she added silently
in her
pounding head. She had to try. Her life and Xander's had been
so
intertwined for so long that she couldn't even begin to conceive
what life
without him would be like. She loved him so much. Oh, not like
she used
to love him, although a little of those feelings were still
there. She
supposed somewhere in her heart she would always love him that
way. But
she loved Oz now. When she closed her eyes at night, it was
Oz kissing
her, not Xander. Yet even she and Oz didn't have the special
bond that she
had with Xander. She KNEW him. She could read his expression
instantly,
could translate all his emotions as they crossed his face. She
loved
Xander from somewhere deep in her soul as one of the few people
in her life
who would always accept and love her in return. No conditions.
She knew
how precious that was. And she knew that Xander felt it too.
They'd
always been there for each other, protecting each other first
from bullies
and then from the creatures of the night. He wouldn't just lie
in a
hospital bed if I was in danger, she thought. I swear Xander,
I'll find a
way to save you.
"I promise Willow, you'll be the first person we talk to." Oz
assured
her. "You just stay here and get better. It's only until morning
you
know, then you can join us." Oz kissed her cheek softly. She
heard them
close the door.
"I know. I'm just afraid by morning it'll be too late," she whispered
to herself. She began to formulate her own rescue plan.