"THIS TIME AROUND"
By: gb
Chapter 13
Gillian crouched down to Ryan, tears of her own now running down her face as she saw him lying helpless on the floor.
"Ryan, Baby, I'm here! It's Gillian and I'm right here! Can you hear me?!"
She sat down with her legs tucked under her and gently reached over and took hold of Ryan. Scooping him to her, she moved his head to her lap and cradled him lovingly. He was much bigger than her own lithe form and his head was all she could move, though that was no easy task either, but she wanted a soft place for him to rest until she could get him help.
Gillian instantly decided to take charge and get control of the situation.
"Myrtle please call 911 and have an ambulance over here so we can take Ryan to hospital."
Mrs. Fargate rushed over to the phone while Gillian turned to the apartment manager and said,
"Sir, please get me some wet towels for Ryan's face and some to clean up his hand and then could you go wait for the ambulance downstairs and tell them, he's very hot and I think he has fever."
Everyone moved to do as she asked and Gillian once more turned to Ryan.
"Hang on, Baby," she soothed to him. "Help is on the way. We'll take care of you, Ryan. You just hang on. I won't let anything happen to you."
She felt his forehead and knew that a fever had definitely set in. I hope we're not too late, She thought to herself worriedly. Ryan moaned as he his head turned from side to side. He thought he was hearing Gillian's voice...her sweet voice calling to him. But, no it wasn't Gillian...she left him. She was gone now- with Jake. She came to say goodbye...
"Gilli...Princess..." he murmured out weakly."Gilli, where are you?..."
"I'm here, Ryan." Gillian said to him gently. "I'm here and I'm going to take care of you, love. I don't want you to move. I want to take care of your hand. I think you have a fever, Baby and I want you to stay calm...I'm here now and I'm not leaving!"
"Gilli, stay with me...I can't make it without you...my angel, don't go away...not Jake...pick me...I love you...please pick me..."
"Of course I'll stay with you," Gilli said frantically as the manager returned with the towels and then went downstairs while Myrtle came over to Gillian and began to help her with
Ryan's hand.
"Myrtle, what is he talking about?" she asked, in a panicked voice.
"He's delirious, Darling," Myrtle responded. "It's the fever, talking. He doesn't even know if now is reality or not. We need to get him to the hospital as soon as possible. The ambulance is on it's way. Don't worry, Ryan will be alright as soon as the doctors can look at him."
"But this cut's been infected now- I can see that. He's really sick!"
Myrtle hugged Gillian and praised her for her quick response. Ryan's hand was cleaned and covered up as best as they could get it. They would have to let the professionals take it from here, but they still could try and keep him calm.
"Gilli..." Ryan called out again. "Don't say goodbye... not now... I need you more than Jake...don't say goodbye...my heart needs you and I want you...spend it with me...I never forgot....jail is so lonely here..."
"Ryan, you're not in jail, Baby," Gillian looked down and stroked his face with a warm, wet towel. "You're here in your apartment and I'm here and Myrtle's here...we're all here together...we love you, Ryan...stay calm, mein Leibling."
"So lonely...I didn't hurt Kit...not Hayley...just you...always only only you.... still the same for me, Princess.... my wife...vows to cherish...I want to cherish now and forever...not goodbye for me...never for me...please...come and love with me....all my soul is yours...our wedding...we have to plan our wedding...it should be in the evening, don't your think?...where are you now, Gillian? I can't see you... I'm lost...please find me..."
"You're not lost,Ryan," she wiped his face as her other hand laced fingers with his free hand and she bent to kiss his lips. "I'm here for you, my darling husband. Ma Cherie...J'aime Ryan...Meine pyar kaya, Ryan...I always will, my prince...you are my dreams and I won't let anything happen to you."
Her mixture of French , German and Hindi, an indian dialect that she was familliar with along with the english she knew he would understand helped to calm her down as her tears spilled onto her cheek. She lifted her head and looked helplessly at Myrtle.
"Why isn't the ambulance here yet?" she cried out. "He's getting worse. He thinks he's back in jail again!"
"I know it's hard, Honey, but try to stay calm. He can feel your tenseness and it might make him worse. The ambulance will be here any minute."
"Ryan, my darling, it's me..." Gillian said to him again. "I'm right next to you. I'll never leave you, my love..."
Ryan's grip on Gillian's hand tightened despite his obvious weakened state and he turned his head to move his mouth towards it in an obvious attempt to kiss it. She helped him by moving her hand towards his mouth and he brushed his lips across it in desperation!
"My love...Gillian...don't let them hurt me...not like mom and dad...hide me, Gilli...they'll hurt me...not you...you don't hurt me...they'll hurt me..."
"No one's going to hurt you, Baby..." Gillian spoke softly to him as she kissed his forehead again. "I won't let anyone hurt you."
Just then, the apartment manager returned with paramedics who came immediately over to where Ryan and Gillian sat and went to work. Within minutes, Ryan was on the stretcher and everyone went downstairs and outside to the waiting ambulance. Gillian was given the choice to ride along and Myrtle promised to follow in her car.
"Gilllian..." Ryan called out when he could no longer feel her hand in his."
Gillian reassured him as they rode into towards Pine Valley Hospital.
Once there, Ryan was rushed to the ER and into one of the rooms as Gillian was forced to wait outside for the results.
"But he needs me!" she cried out as Myrtle put her arms around her. "He knows when I'm not next to him! Please let me stay!"
"You'll have to wait here, Mrs. Lavery. We'll do everything we can and we'll let you know when you can see him, but right now, we have to do our job. Please let us." the attending physician said as he disappeared into the room.
"Darling, he's right." Myrtle said soothingly as Gillian looked through the glass window of the door he had gone through, her hands clenched to her chest. "Ryan is in good hands. You did good. You got him help and helped get him here- it's their turn now. I'll wait with you."
Tears spilled down her face as she cried silently. "What will I do if anything happens to him, Myrtle? He's my whole life. I can never not have in it! He's the one!"
Myrtle looked at Gillian and hugged her. She knew the connection between Ryan and Gillian was strong, but maybe there was more than even she realized. Maybe soulmates didn't even beging to explain this bond. There was something more here and she knew it was a long time since she had seen anything simillar- maybe they really were born for each other in a way. Maybe they were here to save each other...
Myrtle tried not to speculate as she came back to the present. In Gillian's present state, she was uneasy about leaving the girl alone. Ryan was such an ACTUAL PART of her, that she felt that Gillian would just dissolve and melt without him and she was now afraid of what Gillian would do if anything were to happen to Ryan!
The minutes turned into over an hour and finally, Gillian heard that she could see Ryan. He was unconscious and had tubes all over him and lying still with his arms to his sides as she came silently into the room and sat down next to him. His hand, she saw, was properly covered up and there was an oxygen mask on his face and his breathing was steady and softly filling the room with sound as Gillian wiped the tears away from her eyes with a tissue.
Her face felt tight and heavy with all the dried up tears she had released and she couldn't hold Ryan's hand because they had him in a plastic booth like thing which was there to keep infections out and away from him.
"Ryan, can you hear me, Baby?" she asked softly. "It's me...Gillian. I've come to bother you and waste your time again...but I'm here to say that I'm not leaving you now... Can I stay and irritate you some, me Corizon?"...
His still body scared her as she got no response from her ex-husband who was still her only love in this life....
end of part 13
(To be continued...)