Felicity,
This is my first story in my Dear Journal Series, so if you would be so kind
as to do the whole thing where you put the title of the series and then the
stories in order, it would mean a lot. Thanks bunches,
Melissa

Bumby Ride
By Anne

Disclaimer: I do not own Buffy & company, they belong to the snide and cruel man named Joss Whedon(how dare he take Angel off the show, but I worship the ground he walks on anyway*g*). I WILL return them back to him once I am done playing, I am not making money off of them, so don't sue.
Authors notes: This is my first in my Dear Journal series, its just were the characters take time to look back on the things that have happened and write them down. If you don't like povs, don't read on. e-mail me at mel_anne99@hotmail.com with feedback PLEASE!!! Enjoy the story.
Setting: 2nd season Surprise/Innocence

Dear Journal,

The other night may have been the best and last night of my life.It was the night Angel and I finalized our relationship.We proved our love for one another in a moment of sheer passion.It was wonderful, I can't imagine a better place to be on my 17th birthday. But it was all gone in an instant. As I write this now, I wonder how I ever made it through the day. Sobbing and shaking uncontrollably, my stomach churns when I remember how long I spent in the bathroom, throwing up what little food I had ate. Oh god, I can't believe everthing that's happened. Even as I write this, my tears soak the pages.

We had just escaped Spike and Dru's lair and came up though a manhole into the outside world. By the time we reached Angels apartment we were drenched. Angel handed me some clothes, told me to change into them and get under the covers, just to get warm. Thats my Angel, always the gentleman.I sat on his bed and began to undo my shirt. His back was turned until I drew in a deep breath. He began to turn, but stopped himself. He asked me what was wrong and I said nothing, just a cut. Then he said,

"Can I...Let me see."

I clumsily said ok and covered up my tank with my cardigan. He sat behind me, pulled my strap down and told me I was fine, that the cut was already closed. I leaned back against him as tears began to stream down my face. We began to talk about the days events, silently telling each other how much we needed the other. Then he told me something that I will never forget.He told me he loved me, tried not to but he couldn't stop. I said,

"Me to, I-I can't either."

Then we began to kiss, he pulled away and said,

"Buffy, maybe we shouldn't."

I hushed him with my finger on his lips,

"Shh, just kiss me."

I remember every detail of what followed, I'll never forget. It was the happiest moment of my life. When it was all over and we lay in his bed, drifting off to sleep, he kept telling me over, and over that he loved me. I soon fell asleep, wrapped safely in his arms, at peace.

The next thing I knew I was lying awake, in Angel's bed, all alone. I was kind of in a daze the whole day at school, I didn't even tell Willow what happened. Afterwards, I went to see him and I knew there was something different about him. His eyes that once held love, compassion and sorrow were replaced by mocking and hatred.

I soon found out that Angel's curse had a clause, and one hell of one at that. If he has one moment of true happiness, he would loose his soul. That's right, you guessed it, Angelus is back. You win: torture and an eternal life in hell. I know that I will not be able to kill the demon that wheres my Angel's face. How could I? If the world is coming to an end, there won't be a damn thing I can do about it. Buckle your seats folks, its going to be a bumby ride!

Buffy

The End