Letter to an Angel
By Autumn

Disclaimer: The song “My All” is sung by Mariah Carey and is on her CD, “Butterfly”. The characters Buffy and Angel don’t belong to me, <sniffle, sniffle> but they do belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy (Grrr, Argh), and The W.B.

Feedback would be really cool. This is my first fan fiction story. PLEASE be gentle, but not too gentle. Constructive criticism would be great. Please send your thoughts to vira@bellatlantic.net.

Rating PG. Good Family fun for all ages.

"I’m thinking of you,
In my sleepless solitude tonight.
f it’s wrong to love you,
Then my heart just won’t let me be right
‘Cause I’m drowned in you
And I won’t pull through without you by my side”

Dear Angel,
I guess I understand your reasoning. In real life our relationship would never work out, but in real life, or what most people consider it to be, vampires don’t exist. Neither do demons or monsters or vampire slayers. To the world we are just a normal couple. Why can’t we be that normal couple?

“I’d give my life to have
Just one more night with you
I’d risk my life to feel
You’re body next to mine
‘Cause I can’t go on
Living in the memory of your song
I’d give my all for you love tonight.”

I know why. We can’t be what I want, what I need, because vampires can’t walk in the daylight, because we could never make love, because you can’t give me children because… NONE OF THIS MATTERS! Don’t you love me Angel? Wouldn’t love make up for all of this?

“Baby can you feel me?
Imagining I’m looking in your eyes.
I can see you clearly,
Vividly emblazon in my mind
And yet you’re so far, Like a distant star
I’m wishing on tonight.”

Sometimes it still shocks me. You broke up with me. You moved away. Where are you Angel? Why did you go away? Oh Angel…Why?

“I’d give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I’d risk my life
To feel your body next to mine
‘Cause I can’t go on
Living in the memory of our song
I’d give my all, for you love,
Tonight.”

You are not coming back. I have to accept that. I guess I will…Someday. But tonight, tonight, I’m just gonna go to bed and pretend you are where you should be, beside me.

Love,
Buffy

Just as Buffy put down her pen, there was a knock on the door. On the other side stood her Angel.

The End