Jan 1999
A discussion of me and slash *wibble*
Okay, to start with I don't like all pairings of slash. I will read other stories involving slash pairings and have in the past, never let it be said I won't try anything once!! But my own prefernce is for Tom and Chakotay. I've read P/K (Paris /Kim) stories and they just don't sit right for me. I have nothing against those who write them, its just my preference is for C/P.
Now, one argument - or reason, depending on how you look at it - came to me the other night, is that if one of them had been a female then given the past history and tension that was established (and sorely forgotten along the way *grouch*) at the beginning we would have by now had a relationship between these two characters. Perfect animosity that would have been explained away as sexual tension like *that* //funny clicking of fingers noise// But because they are both male we don't, instead we have a P/T (Paris/Torres) relationship which although, yes is OK, I think is lacking the necessary chemistry (IMO).
Now why do I like these two?
Well some people may not understand why a female *yes I am a girl* would like the thought of two guys together. Well, I do. And there's plenty of others out there who think the same way. For me, the idea of them in a relationship is just *so* romantic. Its the romance of them that takes my breath away //big sigh//.
I mean *yeah* I do like the sex part //blushes deep red// and that is a major factor if I'm being honest here, but its not the only factor. Its the whole idea of these two strong individual men, both with troubled and *very* intersting pasts, unexpectingly finding love with each other. //huge sigh// Its not the whole *two men* thing that gets me going //veroom veroom - sorry!!// its the thought of these two characters, who just happen to be men, getting together.
The whole gay thing *is* part of it in a way, obviously. I'm not biased, or like to think of myself as not biased, towards anyone regarding sexual preference or anything else (within moral and legal limits of course). But for me its not the *main* issue. //I hope I'm making sense here *worried look*//
Its like - ok - you know that feeling that starts in your chest when you're *really* happy about something, something that makes you feel absolutely wonderful. Like a song or a idea. Its like a rush or something. But it starts in your chest and its like your whole heart is lifted.
That how I feel when I think of Tom and Chakotay together.......simple really :O)
Feb 15th 1999
Right, this is not really about slash, but I felt that it needed to be let out. Sort of rant about Voyager full stop.
Not everybody likes Voyager, or Star Trek in general, some people do. Its everybody's own opinion (those three little capitals letters that can be used in speech just as easily 'IMO' - 'In My Opinion'). Everyone has their likes and dislikes, but I don't agree with pushing those opinions in people's faces, even when you might only think you are teasing or putting your view across (which you're entitled to do), if you've done it previously then its a good bet that it doesn't need to be said again *grin* Particularly when you know they night hold a different view to you.
I don't force anybody to come to this site, most of the people that come here, come because they like the topic of C/P and want to read stuff on that. If they end up here by accident then I have enough warnings up to make sure they realise whats here before they go too far.
Most of my friends would tell you that I am quite obsessed with Voyager, *really* obsessed. Its my hobby, my interest, the thing my brain thinks about when it wants to do something it *wants* to think about (rather than work *ick*). I try not to force it upon others, as much as I would like to rant on about it day and night and day.......but others don't share the same viewpoint so its not fair.
Other people might not see the interest, see *why* I like it, they might not share the same view about the show. But I don't begrudge them that view, I just don't want to hear about it, more than once that is.
I don't like defending *why* I like something, its not what I should have to do. At least not all that often anyway. *I* like it and thats it really.
I mean, it all comes down to personal taste. Defending or feeling like I have to defend why I like something leaves a bad taste in my mouth. It makes me focus on things about the show that I might know and acknowledge but just not want to think about. Every fan of *anything* will tell you there are certain things about their show that they know or think aren't as good or fulfilling the potential that they could. There's always a lapse in something, nothing's perfect.
And every fan will acknowledge that if you ask them (politely enough of course!!). But what they don't want to do is be reminded of that all the time. Yes, they acknowledge it but they like the show for their *own* reasons. There's something about the show they like and that's - well - what they like.
Evrybody's opinion is their own and they have a right to it but what they don't have a right to do is parade it infront of others, a number of times, particularly when they know that the other shares a different view. Yes its good to debate, but only with those who *want* to debate. Personally I don't like defending or explaining or trying to rationalise *why* I like something when others don't. It doesn't really matter to me. You like what I do all well and good - come talk to me anytime. You don't - well you'll entitled to tell me -- and this is where tact and diplomacy come in -- once, maybe twice, but after that I think I get the message :)
Well thats it for a bit
Boredom
Okay, I haven't really got much to say, other than I'm sat here doing about 3 assignments at once and my head is about to explode :o).
Well lately I've had about a thousand story ideas gambolling around my head all pushing for an exit. Memories is still hovering and the third and fourth parts of Full of Grace are paitently waiting to be written, when I get the time to research.
Maybe more later.............