Chapter Two



Brenda hoped that this was all just a bad dream and that she'd wake up any minute and would not really have embarrassed herself by fainting in front of everyone - but no such luck. Before she knew it, Faith was sliding an arm around her waist and asking anxiously, "Are you all right Brenda? You had me scared there for a minute. What happened?"

"I'm fine. I haven't been eating well over the last few days," Brenda croaked, lying through her teeth and trying to work up the courage to risk another glance at the new owner of the hotel, who looked remarkably like Jax. But it couldn't be him. It was JJ's question this morning that had brought Jax to mind, and she was merely hallucinating, she decided, as she straightened her shoulders and forced herself to once again face the new owner of Miner's Point Hotel and her new boss.

But, heaven help her, that man was still Jasper Jacks. At first she thought she had seen concern in his eyes, and then a little flame seemed to leap in the blue depths of his eyes, as if he were experiencing the same intense shock as she was. But when he spoke, it was coolly, without a trace of concern in his voice.

"It's Miss Monroe, I believe, isn't it? Miss Veronica Monroe?"

"This is Brenda Barrett," her boss, Mr. Grover, corrected. "Brenda's been with us since the hotel reopened four years ago. She's one of our best employees." He cleared his throat and then went on, "Brenda, this is the new owner of the hotel, Mr. ..."

"She knows my name," Jax said smoothly, his eyes never once leaving hers. "At one time I thought we were quite well-acquainted… or so I thought."

Brenda wanted to respond, but she was at a loss as to what to say. Fortunately, Mr. Grover executed a swift about-face and ushered Jax into his office, leaving her flustered, speechless, and terrified as to what to do next.

This was the worst possible thing that could happen! After that fateful cruise, she had put both Jasper Jacks and Veronica Monroe behind her and had never expected to hear either name again. She'd worked so hard to put Jax out of her mind, and she thought she'd succeeded. But now he was back in her life again, and just one look from those crystal blue eyes of his had brought everything that had happened between them back in a flash…

She'd fallen in love with him on that short cruise, and for a while she had dared to hope that he had felt the same. He'd pressed a telephone number into her hand when they'd parted in Puerto Rico, but fate had been against her. She had taken ill on the flight back to New York, and before she'd even stepped off the plane, she'd been shaking with chills. She'd ended up in the hospital for ten, miserable days, then her brother, Jared, had taken her to his New York home to recover for a couple of weeks after that.

She hadn't been able to call Jax from Jared's house because her brother was hot-tempered, and if he'd found out about her shipboard affair with Jax, there was no telling what he might have done to Jax. So she'd played it safe, waiting until she returned to her home in Port Charles to call Jax -only to discover that she'd misplaced his number.

In a panic, she'd taken apart everything that she'd taken on the cruise with her. She finally found the number in the lining of a jacket, where it had apparently worked its way through a small hole in the seam. By then six weeks had passed, and when she called his number, instead of reaching Jax, an answering machine picked up every time she called. It took nearly three weeks of persistent calling before she reached a real, live person, and when she did, what they told her broke her heart. And before she'd even recovered from that blow, she'd received yet another

- she'd discovered that she was pregnant…

All of those memories came flooding back to her, overwhelming her sensibilities for the moment. Her head was swimming, and she needed time to think about what was happening and what this all meant to her life now…

But her fellow employees at Miner's Point clustered around her, their questions flying fast and furious: "You know the new boss? Why didn't you tell us, Brenda? What's he like? How did you meet him? What's he *really* like?"

Question after question came sailing at her, but she couldn't answer any of them. And she wouldn't have answered any of them, even if she could…

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Port Charles - now Jasper Jacks knew why the name of this little, historic town had struck such a responsive chord in him the first time his father had mentioned it.

Sitting behind the antique desk in his new office, which sat just off the hotel lobby, he picked up a paperweight and numbly turned it over and over in his hands. The paperweight was a nugget of Port Charles gold encased in crystal, the hotel manager, Clarence Grover, had explained. The nugget had been found during renovations of the Miner's Point Hotel.

Gritting his teeth, Jax replaced the paperweight on the shiny desktop. She was out there, just beyond that wall with the old photograph of an old miner and his donkey. After all these years...

He'd met Veronica Monroe -- correction, Brenda Barrett - six years before on a cruise from Acapulco to the Caribbean, by way of the Panama Canal. He was twenty-five-years- old at the time, and at a personal crossroads. He'd been looking for anonymity and space to decide what he wanted out of life: marriage to the girl-next-door and the comfortable -if somewhat limiting - life as a hotel magnate's son and heir; or a clean break, in search of adventure and high romance - romance, in the sense of heroic and adventurous deeds, not a passionate tryst.

He felt as if time was running out back then. His marriage to Miranda Jamieson, a childhood friend, was merely weeks away. The San Francisco church was booked and the reception planned. His parents were delighted, and her parents were ecstatic. The bride-to-be was sailing serenely through the plans and the parties, while the bridegroom-to-be was slipping closer and closer to the point of outright rebellion.

Ironically, it had been Miranda's idea for him to get away… "Anywhere," she said, patting his hand with perfectly manicured nails. "A spa, a dude ranch, a beach - whatever appeals to you, darling. I'm afraid if you don't get out of this three-ring circus soon, you won't be fit to marry." She kissed him lightly on the cheek, before turning back to her list and samples. "I'd like to talk more, but the wedding consultant is waiting," she'd said as she'd disappeared out the door.

At first the idea seemed ridiculous - just walk away with so much left to be done? But then his best man wrapped his Porsche around a tree and ended up in the hospital, unable to take advantage of a reservation for a luxury cruise on The Immortal. When Jax visited him in the hospital, the pitiful man was so encased in bandages that he looked more like an Egyptian mummy than a man, and when he'd entrusted Jax with his ticket for the cruise, Jax couldn't turn him down.

Perhaps this was fate at work, he'd decided. Solitude, ocean breezes, and the music of steel bands might be just what he needed at this point. He knew Miranda would hate his going; after all, he might have fun on the cruise, and she'd go to any length to prevent that.

Only she hadn't. In fact, with her usual absent enthusiasm, she'd suggested that this might be just the thing he needed to get him out of his funk. She felt that he should go and have a good time, and that nonchalant attitude seemed to rub him the wrong way. So he'd decided that if this was all she had to say on the subject, he was out of there.

He was in a foul mood when he boarded the cruise ship, and he made a point of distancing himself from the usual crowd of pleasure-seekers, purposely making his way to the bayside of the cruise ship, a decidedly non-glamorous deck area that was lined with lifeboats. He had only been aboard for ten minutes when he spotted the most beautiful girl he'd ever seen, standing alone along the railing, near the lifeboats.

She was dark and exotic looking, with the most glorious head of hair. He usually didn't notice a woman's hair, but hers was beautiful: long, straight, and shiny, and as black as night. From his angle, slightly behind and to one side of her, he couldn't see her face, but he was instantly aware of everything else about her, as a light breeze stirred that glorious mass of shiny, black hair, and she wrapped an arm around her head to brush the errant strands back. It was then that he began to notice even more about her: her graceful arms; the gentle rise of her breast; the slenderness of her waist and her curvaceous hips; the sleekness of her tanned legs, with their firm thighs and toned calves, that curved down into slim, well-formed ankles.

At that point, he'd found himself hopelessly drawn to her, and he'd said something inane - he didn't remember exactly what. She'd turned toward him, a questioning look on her face, and her incredible beauty almost took his breath away. Her eyes were hazel brown and slightly almond-shaped, set in a face distinguished by sculpted cheekbones and a mouth as full and luscious as ripe, summer strawberries.

Later, as he looked back on that moment, he realized that he'd fallen in love with her before she'd even spoken a word. At the time, he'd called it infatuation and rationalized that a simple, harmless flirtation was all they could ever have. But from the moment he saw her, he knew fate had brought them together - she was his destiny.



The first time ever I saw your face
I thought the sun rose in your eyes
And the moon and the stars were the gifts you gave
To the dark and empty skies, my love

The first time ever I kissed your mouth
I felt the earth turn in my hand
Like the trembling heart of a captive bird
That was there at my command, my love

The first time ever I lay with you
And felt your heartbeat so close to mine
I thought our joy would fill the earth
And last till the end of time, my love


She'd introduced herself as Veronica Monroe, and she'd fascinated him from the start. He'd barely been able to drag himself away from her to allow them both time to unpack. They met again on deck at sunset for drinks - lemonade for her, which he found curiously endearing. Standing side-by-side on deck again, she told him a story about the ghosts of unrequited lovers, wandering the corridors of an old, tumbledown hotel in Port Charles. At the time, he had never heard of Port Charles before. When she told him it was little town in New York, he asked if that was where she came from.

"I'm a citizen of the world," she answered lightly, playing with a thick strand of that incredible hair of hers. "Someone told me the story," she continued, smiling beguilingly at him. "Sometimes I live in Monterey, which has its own ghosts..."

"California? Small world. I'm from San Francisco," he countered, hoping she would divulge her hometown to him.

"Or San Antonio, Texas," she said quickly. "The Alamo is full of ghosts. Of course, Boston is a favorite of mine-"

He knew she wasn't lying about where she came from, but he also knew she wasn't really telling the truth either. Her evasiveness was apparent, but, coming from her, it seemed charming. Somehow that seemed all right in these surreal surroundings, where nothing really mattered, but food, drink, and, most of all, fun. She was certainly fun, and she intrigued him more than any woman he'd ever met. At the time, he supposed that was just part of the mystique of the setting. Certainly he wouldn't let things go too far between them…

Dinner that first night was agony. Jax hadn't had time to arrange for them to share the same table yet, and so she'd been assigned a seat next to some idiot in nautical whites, who monopolized her throughout the meal. But every meal thereafter, Jax made certain that she was his and his alone.

After dinner that first night, they took in a lounge show, drifted through the casino without so much as putting a quarter in a slot machine, and ended up at the midnight buffet, beside the pool on the top deck. Warm, tropical breezes gently stirred her hair, and he couldn't resist reaching out to smooth the midnight-dark strands away from her face. She didn't pull away. She simply gave him a look so quizzical that he quickly surrendered to temptation without even token resistance.

At that moment, he couldn't speak, so he chose action instead. He slowly drew her into his arms, giving her ample time to pull away. But she offered no resistance; instead she melted against him, her lips parting as if she anticipated his kiss. Instead of pushing to escape, her hands rested on his shoulders and urged him closer. He knew that this was moving too fast, and if he knew it, so must she - yet she simply slid her arms around his neck and let her mouth go soft and yearning beneath the pressure of his own.

When at last he broke the kiss, she stepped away with a breathless, little laugh that tore at his restraint. With her lips parted and wet from his kisses, she was the most amazing woman he'd ever seen. Later, while they feasted on lobster and strawberries, she told him another whimsically romantic story, and then another and another - each more outrageous than her tale of ghosts and unrequited love.

He didn't care what they talked about - if they talked at all. He was rapidly falling under her spell, and he barely knew her. He had no idea how old she was, or if she had a family - or even if she was married. He knew he should ask - he wanted to ask - but if he did, then she might pose the same questions, and he wasn't ready to provide the answers.

By the fourth day, they were lovers, and all else was mere detail. At first, he'd had a difficult moment, believing that she was a virgin. She'd assured him that that was not the case. It had simply been a long time for her, and it was nothing that he should be concerned about. And then she'd wrapped her arms around him and kissed him senseless, and he wasn't concerned - not anymore.

She was traveling with a friend, who had her own agenda, leaving Brenda on her own, and that meant that Brenda could give Jax all her time and attention. They did everything together, from exercise classes first thing in the morning to midnight buffets. They wandered hand-in-hand to Jax's suite, which was much larger and more luxurious than her own shared room. There they made love, often watching the sunset, while they lay in each other's arms on the balcony of his suite that overlooked the sea.





By the eighth day, Jax knew he wanted to spend the rest of his life with her. He tried getting in touch with Miranda, but she was always unreachable. Actually, that was for the best, since what he needed to tell her, he needed to say in person.

On the tenth day, the cruise ship reached Puerto Rico, and their dreamlike existence began to slowly rip apart at the seams. They were momentarily lost to one another in the crush of the crowd as they disembarked, but he fought to find her, and she to find him. When she was finally in his arms, he slipped a diamond ring on her finger - a ring he'd bought following a quick telephone call to a jeweler he knew in St. Thomas.

She was completely surprised by his unexpected gift. "What's this?" she asked, looking up at him with such innocence and vulnerability that it made his heart ache.

"I want to call it an engagement ring, but I can't quite yet," he answered honestly. "Let's call it a friendship ring for now. There are some things I have to take care of first, and then…"

She nodded and smiled softly, moving the ring around and around her finger and staring down at the enormous, glittering stone as if she couldn't believe it was really there. "I understand," she whispered. She looked up at him again, licking her lips. "I... I never expected this to happen."

"You mean you and me? Neither did I." He gave her a long, tender kiss on the lips. "I know you've got to catch one of the early buses to the airport, so I can't keep you any longer - as much as I want to." He thrust a slip of paper at her. "Call me here," he commanded. "It's my family home, where you can always reach me. Where can I reach you?"

"You can't," she said quickly. "I'll contact you one week from today - I promise."

He hesitated, believing in her and their love with all his heart, but unwilling to let her go this way. If he had secrets - things that needed to be taken care of before they could be together - then perhaps she did, too. So he had reluctantly let her go, trusting that she would call him in a week's time. But he never saw or heard from her again - until just a few moments ago, in the lobby of his new hotel.

In the intervening years, he'd come to the conclusion that she had never intended to keep her promises to him. She'd simply taken his expensive ring and disappeared without a trace, forgetting completely about him and their magical time on The Immortal. But Jax had never forgotten her -- nor had he forgiven her. Through the years, he'd promised himself that if he ever found Veronica Monroe again, she'd have a lot to answer for - a hell of a lot.

Sitting here in his office in the Miner's Point Hotel, he remembered his initial conversation with his father about this very hotel. "Why are you telling me about some rundown, little hotel in Port Charles, New York?" he'd asked innocently, momentarily forgetting where he'd previously heard about the town and the hotel.

His father had explained that he'd decided to acquire the property for J&J Heritage Hotels, his family's enterprise that specialized in renovating and running old hotels all over the world. "The potential is there," John Jacks had mused. "I know you're looking for a project of your own - a chance to show what you can do. This might be just the ticket." He'd tossed a fat, manila folder onto the conference table. "I'm not trying to force you into anything, son, but if you're interested..."

Jax was more than interested, in fact, he'd felt almost drawn to the project.

And now he knew why…


To be continued.....Credits:"The first time ever I saw your face" by Ewan MacColl, sung by Roberta Flack.



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