Have you ever wanted to kill it?
Just to rip the fuck out of it?
Giving it no chance
So it doesn't even expect it?
Through its lustrous eyes
It cannot see
All the evil unfolding before it's callous senses
Pain is brought forth,
The hate returned.
Meticulously it pokes, prods, and provokes.
Knowing only one way of defense
Trying to rationalize its deliberate deeds against myself.
Never as one
Never in harmony
Always in constant war
Maliciously desiring each other's end
Fucked
It's all fucked
There never was and never will be any hope
Fucked from the beginning
Trusting nothing
Caring isn't even a factor after
Years of despair
It all comes down to one second
It's fine one psychotic the next
Some blame my past
Others force it to be the present
The pain inside is so great
Needing some form of relief
Out of my business
In it's face
I need to liberate my madness
Untangle my life
Destroy everything.
I don't need this
How didn't it see this?
It's heinous actions
Have lacerated my bit of sanity
This is no kind of life
Is it desideratum that keeps it here?
The devil corrupted me
Nothing but a sycophant
It drove me mad
Continuous malign
Maltreatment got it nowhere but hell
As it's decomposed malodorous remains laid.
I knelt beside it
With no other action I paused
A final smirk remained brimming,
With a never before felt contempt.
I stared once again into its melancholy eyes.
Vague memories of happiness
Slaughtered by the uncontrollable flames
Of hatred
And fueled by the Netherworlds.
Written by: Stephanie J.
2-9-00
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