After my encounter
I was left to think
About things that meant the most to me
And thoughts that were the darkest
When we embraced, my interest arose
A glint of curiosity had sparked my memory
Throughout the year I've had dreams like those of where we reunited
For the first time again.
The feeling was such a different experience
That I was left looking forward to the next time we would meet.

Why can't I draw myself back?
I know this isn't good for me
Yet my curiosity flourishes.
Time has found a way to make everything acceptable
Maybe even reliveable.

It's not that I feel a heart-rush of love
But that my mind is now full of questions
Questions meaning that you won't leave my mind
How do I conduct myself?
Now what am I to do?

The best things for me to think about
Is merely how to stay in control
Because with that lost, I'll be taken under again
If there is a god, please let him have mercy,
Maybe just this once

Written by: Stephanie J.

Dedicated to: Jason F. on 5-30-01

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