~Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you can never have them.... when the moment you can't feel them under your fingertips you miss them?
I'VE FELT THIS WAY BUT NOT ABOUT THE FACT THAT I COULDN'T EVER HAVE THEM...BECAUSE, TRUTHFULLY, THAT HAS JUST NEVER HAPPENED TO ME...BUT I'VE MISSED SOMEONE THAT WAS PHYSICALLY RIGHT NEXT TO ME BEFORE...IT WAS MORE OF A ~THAT PERSON ISN'T COMMUNICATING TO ME LIKE THEY USED TO~ DEAL. AND THE SECOND SENTANCE IS UNDERSTANDABLE, BUT ONLY WITH GUYS...IF I DONT HAVE COMPLETE CONTROL OF A GUY, I DO FEEL A BIT OFF, BUT IT'S NOT REALLY A FEELING OF MISSING THEM, MORE DISAPPOINTMENT.
~Have you ever wondered which hurts the most; saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
I HAD A HARD TIME TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHICH WAS THE HARDEST FOR ME. BUT I ENDED UP DECIDING THAT WHEN I SAID NOTHING, I ALWAYS WISH I HAD. IT'S BECAUSE USUALLY WHEN I FIRST MEET SOMEONE, I DON'T SAY WHAT'S ON MY MIND, AND I REGRET THAT AFTERWARD. SOMETIMES I NEVER EVEN GET TO MEET THAT PERSON BECAUSE OF MY UNWILLINGNESS TO GO UP AND SAY "HI". BUT THAT HASN'T MUCH BEEN THE CASE, RECENTLY, I'VE BEEN A LOT MORE FORWARD, AND IT'S BEEN A LOT BETTER.
~Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart... but if you don't, you might break theirs.
I DONT BELIEVE IN THAT. IF YOU TELL SOMEONE YOU LOVE THEM, THEN YOU REALLY SHOULD LOVE THEM...IT'S JUST THAT SIMPLE. DONT WORRY ABOUT IF THEY DO SAY IT OR NOT, IT'S NOT IMPORTANT. IF YOU AND THAT PERSON ARE INTIMATE ENOUGH FOR YOU TO HAVE FEELINGS OF LOVE, THAT OTHER PERSON SHOULD KNOW OF THOSE FEELINGS, EVEN IF THEY DONT FEEL THE SAME WAY. BUT ALSO, REMEMBER NOT TO THROW THE WORD ~I LOVE YOU~ AROUND. THAT IS ALWAYS THE BIGGEST MISTAKE.
~Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?
NO. IF I WANT THAT PERSON, I'LL GO FOR HIM...THE FRIENDSHIP THING NEVER GETS IN THE WAY, IT'S USUALLY JUST SOMETHING FOR ME TO USE AS AN EXCUSE FOR ANOTHER REASON. SADLY, I'VE USED THAT EXCUSE A LOT OF TIMES, BUT I DONT REGRET IT. BECAUSE THOSE RELATIONSHIPS HAVE EITHER PROVED THEMSELVES AS ME BEING FRIENDS WITH THEM ANYWAYS, OR THEM BEING SO INSIGNIFICANT IN MY LIFE IN THE LONG RUN, THAT IT WOULDNT HAVE MATTERED ANYWAYS. SO IT ALL WORKS OUT FOR ME.
~Your heart decides who it likes and who it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own.... when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.
WHAT I USUALLY DO IS GET CAUGHT UP IN THE MOMENT, THAT'S WHEN I USUALLY ~THINK~ THAT I AM CLOSE TO LOVING SOMEONE, WHEN REALLY, IT'S NOTHING BUT AROUSED EMOTIONS. LUST HOW I JUST GET CAUGHT UP IN THE SPUR OF THE MOMENT. USUALLY WHEN I HAVE TIME TO SIT AND THINK ABOUT ALL THAT'S GOIN DOWN IN MY LIFE, IS WHEN I THINK OF WHO TO LOVE, AND WHY THEY'D BE GOOD FOR ME, OR NOT. I USED TO THINK THAT I COULD CONTROL MY HEART. BUT I NEVER REALIZED THAT I JUST NEVER LIKED ANYONE AT THE TIME THAT I HAD THOUGHT THAT. I USED TO THINK THAT I WAS A HARDCORE, STRONG, MIND-SET GIRL...BUT IT TURNS OUT THAT MY HEART DOES STILL, ONCE IN A WHILE, TELL ME WHAT TO DO. IT'S A BIT OF A BURN, BUT IT'S REALLY NICE TO LOVE SOMEONE, OR TO BE INFATUATED WITH SOMEONE, UNEXPECTEDLY!
~Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?
NO, BUT I KNOW THAT I'VE GIVEN OFF THAT VIBE BEFORE. USUALLY I'M THE CAUTIOUS ONE.
~Too many of us stay walled because we are too afraid to care too much... for fear that the other person does not care as much, or at all.
I'M NOT AFRAID TO CARE TOO MUCH. IF I CARE FOR SOMEONE, AND THEY CARE FOR ME BACK, THAT'S GREAT, BUT I USUALLY DONT EVEN BOTHER WITH THE PEOPLE THAT DONT CARE FOR ME IN THE FIRST PLACE. IT REALLY IS A GAME FOR ME. AND IF I REALLY WANT THAT PERSON TO CARE, I'LL MAKE MYSELF KNOWN, AND IT'LL HAPPEN. I'VE NEVER BEEN SERIOUSLY REJECTED IF MY HEART WAS SET, AND STILL HAVE HAD CARING THOUGHTS FOR THAT PERSON. NEVER. THE FEELINGS USUALLY ARE ALWAYS MUTUAL, OR I COULD GIVE A CRAP LESS IF THEY DIDNT CARE, BECAUSE I'VE GOT A HIGH SELF ESTEEM LEVEL, AND WHAT GOES AROUND, WILL COME AROUND.
~Have you ever loved someone and they had absolutely no idea whatsoever? Or fell for your best-friend in the entire world, and then sat around and watched him/her fall for someone else?
I HAVE NEVER LOVED SOMEONE, WHO HAD NO CLUE THAT I EXISTED. THAT'S ON THE SIDE OF BEING IN A DREAMWORLD. AND I DON'T DAYDREAM, AT LEAST MY VERSIONS OF DAYDREAMS DONT CONSIST OF THINGS THAT I CANT HAVE...BECAUSE THOSE JUST DONT HAPPEN FOR ME. AND I DONT THINK I'D JUST SIT THERE WHILE I WAS HEAD OVER HEELS FOR MY BEST FRIEND, WHILE HE WAS FALLING FOR SOMEONE ELSE. I THINK I'D SHAKE HIM AND BE LIKE ~HELLO, NO COMPETITION HERE!~
~Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
NO, I DON'T LIE TO MYSELF, AND I GO AFTER WHAT I WANT. IF I'M REJECTED, IT'S MOST LIKELY BECAUSE THEY LIKE BLONDS.
~We tell lies when we are afraid....afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie... the thing we fear grows stronger.
YEAH, BECAUSE THAT FEAR MAKES YOU WEAK...THEN IF IT GET'S BAD ENOUGH, PARANOID TO THE POINT WHERE YOU DON'T TRUST ANYONE TO KNOW THE REAL YOU.
~Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have, or could have had. No one waits forever...
I GO BY THINKING, IT'S MORE IMPORTANT FOR ME TO CONCENTRATE ON MY FUTURE...AND IF A BOY THINKS HE'S IMPORTANT ENOUGH TO INTERRUPT MY GODLINESS, THEN SURE, SHOOT, SEE IF YOU'RE GOOD ENOUGH. BUT I'D RATHER PAY ATTENTION TO THE MORE IMPORTANT THINGS TO ME, AND THE DISTRACTING THINGS LIKE BOYS THREATEN THE IMPORTANT THINGS BECAUSE THEY THREATEN MY ABILITY TO CONTROL MYSELF, AND MY THOUGHT PROCESS USUALLY GETS BLURRED WHEN I'M UNDER THE INFLUENCE OF ONE. SO I'D JUST RATHER PLAY THE GAME BY PLAYING IT SAFE, BECAUSE WHY BOTHER, IF YOU CAN LEARN THE SAME THING BY BEING FRIENDS WITH THAT POSSIBLE BOYFRIEND, DO IT, BECAUSE ALL THEY WANT TO DO ANYWAYS IS GET INTO YOUR PANTS, SO WHY SHOULD I GIVE THEM THE PLEASURE??? NO REASON!!! SO, IF I'M GOING TO GET TO KNOW THEM, ONE WAY OR ANOTHER, WHY NOT DO IT MY WAY?