Why do you hate me?
Was what I did so bad?
I don't understand.
How could you hate something
That is a part of you?
How could you hate me?
This is just like you...
Everything I do is wrong
As well as everything I say
I'm sorry I'm such a drag
I'm sorry you don't love me
I'm sorry that I was a mistake.
But When will my pain end?
Would it make you any happier,
If I just wasn't here?
If I just disappeared?
I wish I didn't fail you so
I'm sorry I wasn't your dream come true
Can you find it in your could heart,
to forgive your own?
Why does this have to be me?
Why can't I just be free?
You say that between love and hate,
exists a very thin line.
I crossed the wrong end,
When I became aware.
And I'm sorry
Please forgive my non-existent ways
Please love me for who I am
Instead of despising everything I stand for.
What they say is true
If I wanted to die so bad,
I would find a knife and do so.
But the only reason that I threaten,
Is because I lack attention
I love you,
so much that it rips me to shreds inside.
My heart and mind,
Are so entwined with terrible thoughts,
I am provoked to do bad things
Why can't you just love me like I love you?
Our lives would be so much easier.

Sometimes I want to hurt myself
Because everything else is hurting me
I wish you were here
To make the hurt go away
I wish you loved me
I wish upon every star in the sky
I wish you loved me

Written by: Stephanie J.

5-25-00

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