You drive me crazy!
You confuse me so greatly,
I have even lost my sense of direction.
How can you still want me?
After the fact that we could never be?
Why do you even try?
How can you still love me?
When nothing ever goes your way,
How do you remain alive?
How are we supposed to be?
How can you accept me when I'm dead inside?
Why did you choose one as such?
I never can understand.
What makes me so damned special?
All hell has tried to stop us from being together.
When the entire world was against you,
I remained doubtless.
Wise prophets talked shit,
I remained deaf.
Maybe it's just me
So then why can't I see?
My life would be so much easier if it was loved through yours.
Your pattern of thoughts,
So uniform,
So perfect.
With a past of hurt and depression,
How can I be confident?
My thinking is off and I can't explain.
Abused and mistreated was how I was before.
But now that you have come along
Much has changed.
You've appealed to me so greatly, I can't afford to loose you.
If I loose, I will be lost.
I so doubt because I don't want a good thing
To be gone.
You know my thinking is twisted.
Yet, I can tell a good thing when I seen.
I don't want it gone because I already know what I'll be missing.
You already know what you've gotten yourself into.
I've already warned you.
Just keep in mind
You're screwed with me until I decide otherwise.
Written by: Stephanie J.
dedicated to Jason Frey on 2-24-00
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