Torn and Confused

We aren't allowed to be together.
Why the hell's the world against us?
I only wish for one thing,
Why cannot my dream come true?
I haven't yet lost my sense of hope,
But in the meantime,
I'm losing my sense of mind.
Wanting nothing more but you
Cursed by hell for otherwise
I wanted anything but this
Does it really have to end?
Baby, I love you
And baby, I miss you

My words are full of hunger
Never a day passed
Where you didn't flood my thoughts
Why are they preventing a good thing from flourishing?
Wondering why I'm so stuck on you
Isn't it obvious?
They hope it's a phase that I'll manage through
But I refuse to let them win
If I must suffer
So must they
Jumping into the arms of your love
Is worth all the pain
I don't know why but I can't deny
I don't want to be without you
I've always been so independent
Now, without you I'm left torn and confused.
But what if one day,
There's only one choice?
Where everything then depends on that one itself?
I'm not going to be able to get over you,
I'm now forced to do what I just did.
I'm sorry this had to happen
I wish it didn't need to.
All that I wanted was to be in love
Why was I denied?
I wish that we could forever be
So that I ma one day be Mrs. Frey.
Maybe I went overboard
My thoughts were out of line?
I can't describe the hate in me,
Being forced to draw the line
Is there a point in going forth?
Into this world of shit?
Will something always interfere with my love
Or ravage through my heart?
I wish that we still were
I'm sorry that we can't be.

Why aren't you good for me?
I don't understand!
If they could only see what I saw
Only if they heard what I hear,
Only if they could love what I loved,
Would they understand.

I really love you
I don't want to let go.
But it seems now that we have no choice
We are forced to their wishes
I'm so sorry that I couldn't hold up.
I wish that I obtained greater strength.

Maybe someday, we'll get together
And we'll remember
All the things that we had
Were still there treasured.
Maybe we were meant to be
God please let us see.
If not now, then please soon,
for what may become of us.
I am willing to hold on to what we had
For an eternity to come.
For you have left me torn and confused,
And I need more.

Written by: Stephanie J.

3-25-00

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