I'm On My Way
Written by: Stephanie J.
Dedicated to Jason Frey on 12-4-00 Back to my poems page
It has seemed like forever since I have cared
A long time since we were paired
My life has been under my control
And I've been watching my heart like it's out on parole
I'm so ecstatic that I'm over you
I'm happy now, to my heart I'm true
All you have become to me
Has realistically turned into everything I pity
But my pity is a different feeling
I pity you for your absence of healing
You're shot out
Without a doubt
But one day...you got to me
Our eyes met and I could see...
All the reasons I despised you
All my hate resurfaced as you were in my view.
You hurt me so bad before!
And as you passed me by, my emotions went into war.
Feelings of desperation, disappointment, and hatred, began to materialize.
While my aggravation, and struggle, did I visualize
Your façade and manor in which you carried yourself
Was the way in which evil sustains itself.
I couldn't believe what I was daring!
I wasn't able to stop staring!
It was like my body was defying my mind,
And composure, I couldn't find
The dramatic way in which you did hurt me
Your simplicity I could finally see
To hurt without a reason...
And with your every way, lies treason
A great impact you left on me though
All those times you left me in woe.
I hate seeing your face,
I spit on your existence with disgrace,
I can't stand to even hear your name,
Though whoever it is, my received pain's all the same.
I scorn your car
I hate that model, though I know you're far
I dread going to school
Though I have to because it's a rule.
I anathematize the way that you do everything
So why is it that I keep suffering?
For your mere existence reeks havoc on my soul
With that whole year you stole!
Hatred you permanently carved into my heart
And now I can start...
Rebuilding my mind
So my spirit I can once again find.
All because I'm stronger
And to my needs I am fonder
I'm slowly getting over you
And with the player rep.'s...I'm through.
I've got no more patience for my foolish pastime
So I'm moving forward through my life line.
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