So what exactly is a Transsexual? Well it is defined as "A person with the external genitalia and secondary sexual characteristics of one sex, but whose personal identification and psychosocial configuration is that of the opposite sex."* But as often the definition falls far short of the reality.
To me being a Transsexual, or tranny for short means that while yes I was born with boyparts, but in my heart of hearts I knew that was wrong. I remember feeling "right" when my mom let me put on her dress and a wig, I was approx 7 or 8. And carried that with me for years, never knowing why I felt wrong playing football, or wearing pants. During puberty, not only did I have to deal with normal stuff; facial hair, voice cracking, growing pains (Ouch!!!) but also I had the added bonus of having my hips turn out I told my doctor who didn't believe me, but a nurse asked where the pain was and a few more question, then gave me a pity-ing look.
All through High School I couldn't understand why I wanted to dance ballet than play football, or go out drinking. I eventually did start heavy drinking and drug use to cover up the pain. I quit drinking, smoking and other stuff when I found religion.
Skip ahead to to 1997...
An acquaintance of mine handed me a book by Kate Bornstein, about her journey to become the woman she is. This stuck in my head for several years. When my wife and I divorced in 2003, I moved from NY state to Austin Texas, determined to be the woman *I'm* suppose to be. I met my Soul mate, Riel, at a warehouse temp job, over the weeks of talking I knew, okay HOPED beyond HOPE that should would understand, when I told her, her internal reaction was "D'uh!" From that day on I knew that someone could love me for me. I have good days and bad days, but I am going to have a blog so I can keep a journal of whats going on in my life.
Some web links that might help you understand beyond the porn laden google searches:
Transsexuality a good primmer if you will
Google The good search of the word Transexual
For transsexuals who want a higher voice without having their vocal cords worked on try this
GRS Montreal this is where I'm planning on having the bulk of my surgery
Girltalk magazine, yes the transsexuals have are own 'zine, and its 10 bucks a pop!!!
* taken from Dictionary.com