| ~*Here are some of my poems I have wrote*~ |
| Today I found out what a broken heart really is. I'll love him forever, my heart will always be his. In our lives people and and go. But there is only a few you will really get to know. I thought I knew him. I thought he cared. Now I know why I was so scared. Becouse he is the type of person that comes and goes. For him it was only a show. I was a prize to idolize...So I thought. When in reality I was just a name to add to your game. Now that its over, now that I know you never really cared, I'm not so scared. Someday I'll move on and my heart will mend. But my soul with never forgive you becouse you committed the ultimate SIN!!!! December, 2002 |
| It's True Here I lay in my lonely bed thinking of all that you said. You claimed my love wasn't true. But I really do love you. You left me alone with nothing but pain and sorrow and afraid to face tommorrow. This world was once so pretty, but now it's just cold and dark as this pain ingulf's my heart. All I ever do is think of you. You where my reason to live. But all I've ever had was my love to give. So take my heart and make it yours. No matter whats you may say or do my love will always be just for you. I love you today and I will tommorrow, but just remember all my pain and sorrow. August, 2000 |
| Today Today I didn't see him, Today I realized I care. Today I fell in love with some one that is never even there. It's this dull ache inside my heart. This is a very painful start. It doesn't matter if I love him, or even care becouse He won't ever be there. Today I'll make a new start with my cold torn heart. Someday I may see you again, but stay low, out of sight, so my heart doesn't have to fight. No more pain, since there's nothing left to gain. You've won so go away, just let it lay. I'll always think of you, but I bet you can't say the same. December 2001 |
| There is a guy I like. Maybe even love. God sent him to me from up above. He is my angel in disquise. I can see love in his eyes. When I am with him I feel my inner peace. My love for him is beyond this world to say the least. To feel his arms around me brings me wonderful joy. He is the worlds perfect boy. Our love is like a rare rose blooming in a bed of sand that god has touched with his wonderful hand. Many say our love wont last. That it will be over very fast. But as we travel through our lifes we will be hand in hand keeping our love alive any way that we can. Through the years we will be sweet and happy for everyone to see. June, 2001 |
| Things come and things go. So now I put on a show. A big smile and a hug, for the one's I'm supposed to love. But nothing's there, but a dull ache. The Pain. The Pain. I'm going Insane. Life and love was once so bright. Now there is nothing left in sight. So as I take this into my own hands. I just hope everyone else understands. This isn't about him, or her. It is about me...and everything I was supposed to be. He took the one thing I had. That I thought no one could. I never even thought he would. My wildest dream is about to come true...and soon enough you will know all about it to. My arms are empty.. so is my womb. Becouse he changed his mind and thought it was too soon. When he got mad..he took it out on me.. and everyone always acted like they never saw a thing. Now I am laying here in my cold lonely bed, remembering everything he said. The pain will always be here and it hurt the dearest of them all. Just a little child that was, sweet, innocent, and small. Jan. 2003 |
| I met this really sweet guy the other day. He takes all my troubles away. He brings laughter to my heart and a smile to my face, that nothing can erase. Sometimes I wonder if I'm wasting my time, or if a guy like him could really be mine. The more I learn, the more I see, just how happy he makes me. Friends and lover's are two different things. One is forever, the other is just a fling. Who knows how it will turn out or how it will end. No matter what, no one wins. The past is gone and the future is here. Just let it all take care of it's self my dear. I know some things come easy, but most come hard. But don't worry there won't be any harm. not much confusion, just worry and doubt, about how it will all turn out. Just let it all be and I'll be me. We will always be friends, no matter what. So lets make a wager. To just go with the flow, and not prejudge. Don't worry about pain, neither of us has nothing to gain. Submerge past feelings and any conflick and doubt. Lets just have fun. Because that's what friendship is all about. January 18, 2003 |
| Jesus There once was a perfect man, who spread gods word throughout the land. He cured the sick, and helped the poor. He was the son of the lord. And how did we repay him for his devotion? In our actions we showed no emotion. We nailed him to a cross, never thinking about our own loss. Steaks where beaten through his hands, the very hands that bestow comfort, love and peace, to say the least. More were driven through his feet. O the pain Jesus,....the pain you must have felt. How bittersweet. You gave your life for your love. Jesus, your the greatest that gods sent from up above. You are my savior and someday I will be with you. With not a worry nor a need, becouse you and your father are everything. I cry for what my people have done. I wish I could have got to meet gods only son. But until that day, in my heart you will stay. As I travel through my life, remember Jesus, you and your father are my light. January 18, 2003 |
| There will be another page of poems soon! ~*Ashley*~ |