Poems by Terri Lyn Stansfield
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Ask Me
I see in your eyes the need for answers
But I can't give them to you if you don't ask the
questions
What holds you back from saying the words?
Are you afraid of what you might hear?
What I might say?
I can't guarantee the answers will be the ones you
desire
But I promise you the truth
Ask me, I want to ease your mind
Terri Lyn Stanfield
2/24/2001
A Baby Is Coming
A baby is coming
And what should be a joy
Instead is a heartache
It's that same old story
Your daughter knew the facts
And all the risks entailed
But all your good teaching
Has miserably failed
Your daughter's not much more
Than a baby herself
Now all her hopes and dreams
Must be put on a shelf
She'll soon be a mommy
At far too young an age
And she's just not prepared
To be one at this stage
But it is too late now
All the tears have been cried
And what's been done, is done
All she can do, is try
The baby will be loved
By one, and all, involved
The news was unwanted
But that feeling's resolved
Though in a perfect world
This would wait a few years
We're all only human
And that has brought us here
A baby is coming
We wait with mixed feelings
We're happy and saddened
But, yes, we are dealing
Terri Lyn Stanfield
5/26/2001
Because Of You
My day has been horrible
My emotions are in turmoil
I've been beaten down almost beyond undurance
But as I walk through the door
And I see you there
All of my troubles disappear
Just the sight of you rights my world
Your love heals all of my wounds
Your smile lights up my soul
And your belief in me gives me the strength to carry on
Terri Lyn Stanfield
1/22/2001
Beyond Measure
In today's fickle world
Where honor is scoffed at
And forever is a relative term
Where integrity is rare
And relationships merely the means to an end
A heart such as yours that is brave and true
Is a gem of untold worth
The value of your love is beyond estimation
And your friendship is a priceless jewel
And I am wealthy beyond measure
Because you've entrusted that treasure to me
Terri Lyn Stanfield
1/19/2001
Bored Meeting
I've listend to you
Drone on and on
My attention's lost
My patience gone
You must really like
To hear your voice
Guess what, I do not
But I've no choice
This meeting's lasted
For far too long
But you're up there, and
Still going strong
My mind has wandered
Just everywhere
If you can name it
I have been there
I've made a long list
Of things to do
Planned my calendar
The whole month through
I've written my mom
Read my e-mail
Was sorely tempted
To do my nails
And, now, at this point
I'm thinking of
Committing murder
Just one good shove
And you'd be over
That balcony
And insanity
Would be my plea
Terri Lyn Stanfield
4/8/2001
The Bottom Line
You've reached the point
Of no return
Left too many
Old bridges burned
You turned your back
On your old friends
Concerned only
With dividends
And tending your
Portfolio
Your only care
How far you'd go
I always thought
That you'd regret
What you'd done....but
You haven't yet
You've reached the top
At such great cost
But you don't know
What you have lost
Or is it just
That you don't care
For all it took
To get you there
You're not the same
As you once were
You're cold and hard
And act the cur
You may have won
The money game
But you have lost
Yourself the same
That human part
That made you real
That gave you hope
That made you feel
You've become an
Automoton
No emtion
Just focused on
The bottom line
And getting there
No matter if
It's foul or fair
The sad thing is
You've no idea
The tragic cost
Of your career
Terri Lyn Stanfield
4/14/2001
Champion
I have always wanted to be the best
To stand, head and shoulders, above the rest
And now, at least, I've finally made it
I'd give anything if I could trade it
But that's not the way it's going to be
To world's most broken heart belongs to me
There's no competition, no one comes close
My nearest challenger is quite remote
My heart is shattered into countless shards
My hopes and my dreams are now discards
There's no hope of mending this heart of mine
It won't improve with the passing of time
It's been decimated by an expert
Doomed to a life of continual hurt
Yes, I am the champion of the world
Oh yes indeed, I'm a lucky girl
Terri Lyn Stanfield
7/31/2001
Charmer
I listen to your story
And I know that it's a lie
Although you sound quite sincere
I can bust your alibi
And this isn't the first time
That you've tried to pull this stuff
But you're still here because you're
A diamond in the rough
You're bright, and show potential
But you're treading on thin ice
I'm long past the point where I'm
At all inclined to be nice
Consider this a warning
No matter how good you are
If this happens one more time
You will be a falling star
I'm giving you this last chance
Because I can see your worth
But you are irresponsible
Your ethics at a dearth
And though you're quite the charmer
There will always come a time
When you have to be able
To back up that clever line
And you do have the know how
The ability is there
But your attitude is just
Too much, the devil may care
If you want to keep this job
You'd better start to changing
Otherwise my personnel
Will get some rearranging
Terri Lyn Stanfield
4/7/2001
Cliches
Thundering hoof beats
Soft violins
Dazzling fireworks
Whispering winds
Walking on air
My heart on my sleeve
I'm in seventh heaven
You made me believe
Cliches, once corny
And laughable, too
Describe to a tee
My life with you
Terri Lyn Stanfield
1/19/2001
Cliches II
You rock my world
You light my fire
You're the object of my affection
You're my only desire
You make me feel like a kid again
You give meaning to my life
You put a bounce into my step
You deliver me from strife
You float my boat
You put wind in my sails
You soothe my ruffled feathers
You cure what ails
In case you haven't guessed by now
What I'm trying to say
To you who makes my world go round
Is that you make my day
Terri Lyn Stanfield
1/22/2001
Dangerous Addiction
It happened again
When you said it wouldn't
And I trusted you
Though I knew I shouldn't
I covered for you
But that's the last time
You've just gone too far
I won't cross that line
People depend on
Your being able
To pull your load here
But you're unstable
You don't belong here
The shape you are in
Someone could get hurt
What will you do then?
Sooner or later
It will come to that
And when it does, there'll
Be no turning back
Why don't you stop now?
Before disaster
You need to get help
And now, not after
The only victim
At this stage, is you
But that's gonna change
If you continue
This dangerous game
Someone else will pay
For your addiction
And on that sad day
It will not matter
How sorry you are
How much you regret
Or even how far
You're willing to go
To see things made right
For you will be seen
In a dif'rent light
You'll be the bad guy
And not the hero
Your level of respect
Gone down to zero
So please, stop this now
Before it's too late
You've still got the chance
Just please, do not wait
Terri Lyn Stanfield
4/5/2001
Down In Da Bayou
Down in da bayou
Where da skeeter's swarm
Where da gators live
You can come to harm
Things what happen dere
You do not believe
An if ya go in
Maybe you don leave
Dey don take kindly
When folks come snoopin
Dem bayou dwellers
Don like ya troopin
Down tru dem swaps, shah
You know what I mean
You might get lost dere
And never be seen
So, don you be go
Down in da bayou
You keep yo'self safe
And just pass on tru
Terri Lyn Stanfield
1/16/2001
Fated
I was there with him
You were there with her
But at sight of you
My heart began to stir
The things that I felt
Could not be explained
Whatever it was
Would not be contained
Then you looked at me
And that's when I knew
Without any doubt
That you felt it too
We both left our dates
Drawn as moths to flame
By this sensaation
Whatever its name
We stopped at arm's length
And just simply stared
Not sure what to make
Of this lure that we shared
You reached for my hand
I gave it gladly
And at that first touch
Our hearts beat madly
And for the first time
In all of my life
I felt completed
Emotions were rife
In that one instant
Our fates were sealed tight
Our souls became one
True love at first sight
Terri Lyn Stanfield
5/26/2001
The Final Frontier
They call it the
Final frontier
Don't look at me
I'm staying here
Who wants to go
Boldy, or not
Into deep space
No telling what
Is waiting there
For us to surf
Without invite
Onto their turf
Technology
They'd have in spades
While we're still in
The shuttle age
One laser blast
And we'd be dust
And then they'd take
The earth from us
Why aggravate
The atmosphere
If they're out there
They know we're here
Think about it
For oh so long
They've studied us
I may be wrong
But don't you think
That if that's true
They've got us pegged
So what's the use
Trying to get
The upper hand
By exploring
That brave new land
If they have now
And have had the
Knowledge needed
To sail the sea
Of outerspace
For quite some time
Don't you think we're
Sp far behind
That we'll never
Meet or surpass
Their vast knowledge
So no, I'll pass
If they come here
I'll stand my ground
Defend my home
And won't back down
But if you think
I'm going to
Look for trouble
Here's news for you
If they're out there
They're welcome to
The galaxy
And if I knew
Without a dobt
That they were real
It wouldn't change
The way I feel
Outerspace is
Just not for me
I'll stay right here
Because, you see
The very thought
Of trav'ling space
Just drains the blood
Right from my face
No starfleet ship
Will ever be
Even close to
Convincing me
Of a true need
To map the stars
Or settle on
The planet Mars
The aliens
If they exist
Don't bother us
So why insist
On invading
Their neighborhood
It couldn't come
To any good
So let's just leave
Things as they are
We keep the earth
They get the stars
Terri Lyn Stanfield
4/1/2001
The Flirt
You say you can be trusted
But your actions disagree
Your eyes wander everywhere
And your hands move busily
I can't let you out of sight
Without you flirting wildly
But when I ask about it
You answer me quite mildly
It's all in fun, you tell me
Doesn't mean a single thing
Your heart is mine alone, you say
After all, you wear my ring
Flirting's just a game to you
And I suppose I knew it
But still it's hard to watch you
When you are so into it
I don't want to cramp your style
I can see you're having fun
But you better reassure
Me that I'm the only one
Terri Lyn Stanfield
3/31/2001
Followed By The Past
I wanted you to see my best
And spare you seeing all the rest
I never wanted to expose
You to the ugliness I chose
I tried to leave it far behind
But it would always seem to find
My hiding place, no matter where
I tried to go, it would be there
Though I no longer play that game
It follows me round just the same
I'm sorry that you had to see
That nefarious part of me
It's who I was, not who I am
Can you forgive, or am I damned
My love for you is real, I swear
Please tell me you believe I care
I never lied, I just withheld
I'm sorry, but I couldn't tell
You of the things that I had done
I've tried so hard to overcome
I've changed my life, I walked away
Please tell me that you're gonna stay
Youre all the matters to me now
I promise you, some way, some how
I'll make everything up to you
If you just give me a chance to
If you say no, I'll understand
And you will not see me again
The decision is yours to make
And though it is my heart at stake
I will not pressure you at all
If it's goodbye, I'll take the fall
But I'm wishing with all my heart
That you will not force us to part
It's up to you, please let me know
Do you want me to stay, or go
I'm waiting with my fingers crossed
Please tell me, am I safe or lost
Terri Lyn Stanfield
4/3/2001
Forever
You told me not to fall in love
That you couldn't promise me forever
And then you proceeded to steal my heart
Everything you did was so romantic
You brought me flowers, and wrote me poems
Took me for moonlit walks on the beach
And for picnics in the park
How could I help but fall in love?
How could you?
Was it all just a game for you?
Could you really have remained untouched?
How could I feel so much?
If you weren't feeling it too?
I don't think I could have
So tell me the truth
Are all of my dreams about to come true?
Or are you going to break my heart?
Can I have this forever?
Or are you going to take it all away?
Please tell me that's forever I see in your eyes
Tell me that's forever I feel in your arms
Tell me, I need to know
I need you
Forever
Terri Lyn Stanfield
2/25/2001
Freedom
This feeling is like no other
It's almost as if I'm flying
The wind blowing through my hair
The fresh breeze hitting me in the face
All the power of this awesome machine
Harnessed, and in my control
Hugging the curves
And letting her run full our on the straightaways
The road belongs to me
And there is no greater feeling than this
Nothing else can give me this freedom
This feeling of euphoria, of ecstasy
Here, I reign supreme
Here I am liberated from all the restraints of society
And I fly unhindered
Right up into the heavens
Terri Lyn Stanfield
4/7/2001
Friends Or Lovers
I work by your side every day
And there's something I so want to say
I want to tell you what's in my heart
But I don't have the courage to start
Would I gain a love, or lose a friend?
And dare I risk it, your heart to win?
No risk, no gain is what I have heard
Do I take a chance, and speak the words?
If I remain silent, life goes on
But my chance for happiness is gone
If I speak and you don't feel the same
Then I'll beat myself at my own game
So here I sit in my quandary
Not knowing what the answer will be
Continue on as the best of friends
Or go for it, and see where it ends?
As I sit here in contemplation
You are approaching our work station
Hey, you're looking really nervous, too
And I'm wondering what's up with you
You fumble a bit, and then you say
"I want to tell you something today."
"I have argued with myself all night,"
"And I'm still not sure who won the fight."
"But I decided I have to know,"
"So, for better or worse, here I go."
"My feelings for you have changed and grown."
"And I want you for my very own."
"I know this must come as a surprise."
Then he noticed the tears in my eyes
Quickly I silenced him with a kiss
Though I hadn't planned it quite like this
Here at work, for anyone to see
Still, there won't be a complaint from me
"Does that answer your question?" I asked
And we both just smiled, in love at last
Terri Lyn Stanfield
1/20/2001
Good Girl
I made up my mind
To do as I should
I gotta tell ya
It's hard to be good
The perfect set up
Falls right in my lap
And I have to pass
I feel like a sap
Somebody smarts off
And I can't come back
So I bite my tongue
Instead of attack
Then today as I'm
Driving in to work
Someone cuts me off
Another dumb jerk
Of course I can't say
What I'm dying to
I'm gonna be good
I will follow through
On my intention
To be a good girl
Though it might kill me
In this cruel world
I do good in this
Ongoing drama
Then someone goes and
Disses my mama
Well, let me tell you
That's going too far
Asking for trouble
They're gonna see stars
All of my pent up
Frustration is here
Just begging release
Don't tell me that's fear
I see in your face
Don't tell me you thought
You could diss my mom
And it come to nought
Cause that's the one thing
I couldn't let pass
You should have known that
Ain't you got no class?
Mamas are sacred
And you crossed the line
Now you're gonna pay
The pleasure is mine
It's such a relief
To be my old self
So just bring it on
You may need some help
Cause this here tiger
Has just been released
I'm itching to fight
And yes, I am pleased
Cause, like I have said
Though I know I should
It's not any fun
To try to be good
Terri Lyn Stanfield
4/3/2001
Greedy Lover
I give you my best
You only want more
Sometimes I wonder
What I bother for
Nothing is ever
Good enough for oyu
I don't know what else
There is I can do
I buy whatever
Your heart desires
Refuse you nothing
And I always try
To put your needs first
But you are never
Satisfied at all
Will you be, ever?
I am at a loss
For what else to do
I don't think you care
How much I love you
As much as it huts
I've got to admit
That you just use me
For what you can get
It's true, for a while
I just didn't care
If that's what it took
To keep you right there
So close by my side
Held tight in my arms
I was totally
Bewitched by your charms
But that time has passed
And I've faced the truth
And I'm just too tired
Of trying to soothe
Your avarice, love
To try to go on
And you don't love me
You won't know I'm gone
You'll just replace me
With some other dunce
Who'll fall at your feet
And I'll be fine once
My heart has had time
To heal and recoup
I learned a lesson
I will never stoop
To playing your game
Of greed and deceit
It's my fervent hope
That someday I'll meet
The one meant for me
The mate of my soul
And then, at long last
I will be made whole
Terri Lyn Stanfield
4/6/2001
Harmless Fun
You seem to be mature
I thought you had good sense
But you have lost your mind
If you go through with this
You're asking for trouble
And you're playing with fire
The consequences
Are going to be dire
You think it's no big deal
It's just harmless fun
But I think that you will find
That you've nowhere to run
You're opening a door
That isn't gonna close
It won't be that easy
It's foolishness, you know
I have done my duty
As your true, caring friend
And told you straight out this
Can come to no good end
Feelings will be damaged
And trust will be shattered
But it's your call to make
You decide what matters
Terri Lyn Stanfield
5/25/2001
Heart Of Stone
A child waits in anticipation
Eagerly awaiting a promised outing
But the minutes turn into hours
And the waiting continues
And as darkness falls
The child finally accepts the truth
Another promise broken
Just one more to add to an already overlarge tally
And another piece of the child's heart breaks
And heals itself with a hardened patch
Too many hard patches already hold the small heart
together
Before long, the whole heart will be hardened
And in the place of the child
Will stand a hardened teen
With a heart of stone
Terri Lyn Stanfield
3/31/2001
Housewife's Rebellion
You come home each day complaining
You work so hard, always straining
You say that I have got it made
Just doing nothing every day
Just staying home, and kicking back
Not out there slaving with the pack
You must think the house cleans itself
Vacuums its floors and dusts its shelves
Washes your dishes, cooks your food
Well, excuse me for being rude!
But I work just as hard as you
And it is time you knew it, too
I'm not your slave, I'm not your maid
And I am sorely underpaid
You want clean laundry, do your part
Use the clothes hamper for a start
You leave them laying in the floor
That's where they'll stay forevermore
You want hot meals on the table
Glad to do it when I'm able
But for that, I need clean dishes
And no genie grants my wishes
So bring them from the living room
If you don't, they're going to bloom
Just make your own penicillin
Sell it for cheap, make a killing
But if you want a home cooked meal
You do your part, or there's no deal
I know you work hard at your job
And don't think I'm heartless, cause I'm not
But I deserve some respect too
It's an endless job that I do
From the time I get up each day
With no time to rest or to play
Til bed time very late at night
With never a day off in sight
I keep this house, and raise our kids
But I'm not taking more of this
You never help, or say thank you
And it's past time I got my due
You can complain all that you like
But this here housewife is on strike!
Terri Lyn Stanfield
2/24/2001
How Ironic
I call your name
And it echoes back to me
The house is empty
As is my heart
How could you leave?
And without saying anything
Just writing a note
You felt neglected
And unloved, you said
How ironic
Everything I did was for you
Maybe I worked too many hours
Came home too tired
But it was all for you
And maybe you were neglected
But you were never unloved
Now that you're gone
I never leave the house
I just stay here at home
In the dark
Wishing you were here
How ironic
Terri Lyn Stanfield
4/1/2001
I Love
I love the feeling of the gentle night breeze blowing in
off of the lake
I love to watch fuzzy little puppies waddle across the
floor
I love the merriment in my grandad's eyes when he's
teasing me
I love the smell of honeysuckle in the spring
I love to see a baby smile, or feel its tiny fingers
curl around my own
I love the thrill of riding a roller coaster, the
wilder, the better
I love the feeling I get when I've hit the perfect drive
I love the majesty of the starry nught sky
But more than any of these things, I love you
And I love having you to share all my favorite things
with
Terri Lyn Stanfield
3/30/2001
I'm Not Lonely
The day has been long
I've been tested sore
And just when I think
I can take no more
The whistle blows, and
It's time to go home
No one awaits me
I'll be all alone
But I will have peace
And quiet to spare
And relaxation
With no one else there
I love solitude
I don't get lonely
And I depend on
Me, and me only
When the time is right
True love will be mine
But until that day
This suits me just fine
I truly enjoy
My own company
I seldom get bored
I like being me
I have lots of friends
And when we go out
We have lots of fun
This isn't about
Being reclusive
Or introverted
It's just not like that
I haven't deserted
The old human race
I'm not a hermit
I'm content to wait
Til it's my turn at
Promising I will
Because once I do
It's written in stone
I'll always be true
So til that happens
I'm biding my time
And being alone
Can be just sublime
Terri Lyn Stanfield
4/4/2001
I Will
If you have to walk through the hot coals that life
sometimes places in our path
I'll walk with you
If you have to climb the steepest mountain of life's
difficulties
I'll climb with you
If you cry a river of tears over heartache
I'll cry with you
If you have to fight a dozen dragons lest they devour
your spirit
I'll fight with you
Whatever comes your way throughout this life
I'll be right there by your side
Sharing the hearteaches and the joys
And I will never leave
I will be here for you...always
Terri Lyn Stanfield
2/26/2001
In The Nick Of Time
My emotions are ragged
My nerves at their very limit
The stresses of my day have drained me completely
Then, just when I feel as if I can't go on
I feel a warmth envelope me
And my failing strength is restored
And I know that you are sending your love my way
Just when I need it most
I will never know how you can tell just when my need has
reached its apex
But I am ever thankful that you do
Terri Lyn Stanfield
4/4/2001
Jealous Lover
You're oh so jealous
Of a ghost from the past
Nothing I say seems to get through
I've always been faithful
I always will be
In heart, mind and body
I've never cheated
I've never wanted to
I could have had him if I'd wanted
All I had to do was say yes
But I didn't want him
Not then and not now
I wanted you
I still do
But if you don't overcome this jealousy
You're going to destroy us
I can't live like this
I won't
And it has nothing to do with him
Though I'm sure you won't believe that
But you must decide now
What's more important
This insane jealousy
Or you and me
Because you can no longer have both
Terri Lyn Stanfield
4/8/2001
The Joke's On You
Why did you do this
Are you satisfied
You had it all planned
You were very sly
You arranged it all
The time and the place
Did you want to see
The pain on my face
When I arrived here
I saw you at once
Kissing another
I felt like a dunce
And as you kissed her
Your eyes locked with mine
Yours full of gloating
And mine opened wide
If what you wanted
Was to say goodbye
You could have told me
But you didn't try
And in a strange way
I suppose I'm glad
How can I mourn for
Someone who's a cad
You've made it easy
For me to move on
And after tonight
I'm glad you'll be gone
How could I have been
Infatuated
With such a jerk, when
I've always hated
Users and takers
But you managed to
Somehow ensnare me
And I fell for you
Or maybe I tripped
Cause if I fell hard
It would hurt much more
And would leave me scarred
And all that I feel
To my surprise
Is gratitude
That you opened my eyes
The joke is on you
Now I'm leaving here
My heart still in tact
M emotions clear
And for the first time
Since you came along
I'm feeling grounded
My heart filled with song
I feel a freedom
And a confidence
Belief in myself
I haven't had since
You entered my life
My subconscience knew
From the beginning
I didn't love you
You were just something
I needed to do
As a life lesson
Good riddance to you
Terri Lyn Stanfield
4/15/2001
Just To See You Smile
If there's anything you want from me
You have but to ask, and it's yours
There is nothing I wouldn't do for you
No task too difficult, no cost too great
No limits to how far I would go
And the only payment I require is the smile on your face
And the love in your heart
Terri Lyn Stanfield
4/17/2001