July 2003
31 July 2003
I saw Arykah today on the ferry. That was exciting. She just got back from Hawaii last night and this morning she was leaving for Oregon. Silly girl.
30 July 2003
How nice, you're the gentle kirin. Originally from
China, you made your way to japan and brought
your nobility and purity with you. You are very
sentimental and care about other beings, you
are the familiar of the goddess Kannon, also
known as Kwan Yin or Tara. The goddess of
mercy. You represent everything just and pure.
You should be proud! Kirin is the oriental
species of unicorn.
What Japanese Creature are you?
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Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and
your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and
as many say "Your head is in the
clouds."
What type of eyes do you have?
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29 July 2003
Bah.
28 July 2003
I've obtained this new program caled Dead AIM. It has a bunch of neat features, one of them being that you can be signed on with more than one screen name at the same time. On that note, I have discovered that Will has blocked me. I'm not sure how I feel about this yet, but it's not a happy feeling.
26 July 2003
Arg...some people...
26 July 2003
"Pooh, promise you won't forget about me, ever. Not even when I'm a hundred."
Pooh thought for a little.
"How old shall I be then?"
"Ninety-nine."
Pooh nodded. "I promise," he said.
Here is Edward Bear, coming downstairs now, bump, bump, bump, on the back of his head, behind Christopher Robin. It is, as far as he knows, the only way of coming downstairs, but sometimes he feels that there really is another way, if only he could stop bumping for a moment and think of it. And then he feels that perhaps there isn't.
Hand in hand we come
Christopher Robin and I
To lay this book in your lap.
Say your surprised?
Say you like it?
Say it's just what you wanted?
Because it's yours--
Because we love you.
25 July 2003
Another list of things I love, just because.
Above all, I love my friends. Good hugs from good people, not being at home, riding my bike, the crayon song, the feeling of being loved from people that I love, writing songs/poetry, Winnie the Pooh(the classic one, not the Disney one), good songs, playing guitar and singing, singing with Molly, Pegasus Italian sodas, playing at Pegasus, TIJUANA, Tijuana people, singing in Tijuana, Kevin's purple Jetta, Sean's car(whoo-hoo!), and that's all for now.
25 July 2003
Glarg. I can't write anymore. My mind is so full of...things...and yet, nothing comes out when I come here to write. I don't know what to do...
I'm so...tired of my family. I'm tired of the things that I'm supposed to do. Why am I supposed to do good in school? I understand the concept of at least being decent so I can go to college and get a job, but why do I have to get good grades? Why do I have to have a GPA higher than 3.6? I'm not planning on joining NHS. Why do I have to go to the UW? I'm not saying that I don't want to, but why is that the only choice for me? What if I wanted to go to a school that wasn't the UW? What if I wanted to go to New York, or L.A., or...Missouri? What if I didn't even want to go to school? What would happen to me? Why does it matter; so as long as I'm happy?
The thing is, I'm not happy. I'm not happy on the 'focus on high school to get into a good college to get a good job and be rich' track. I just want to be a normal kid. I want to play sports and be in band and go to camp and not have to worry too much about my grades. It's not as if my grades are bad; they're just not great.
My friends are the only people that can make me happy so why can't I spend my time with them? Why is my family my family? Just because of our blood? Just because we're related doesn't mean that we have to like each other. I don't even really like anyone in my family except for maybe my grandmothers and one uncle. I like my grandmothers because they are/were the nicest, sweetest people ever and I like my uncle because he actually understands all of my frustrations that I have with my mom. My uncle sees that my mom is trying to act in my best interest but what she thinks is best for me really isn't.
Why does my life have to be this way? Why can't my life be just that; my life? I don't want to be what my mom wants me to be; I want to be what I want to be.
Mood: fed up, confused, alone, tired. 
Song of the moment: Gria Con Me, Josh Groban
24 July 2003
Yay! I got a clarinet! It's wood and pretty...I don't make pretty soudns on it, though. Haven't played a clarinet in 4 years. Gotta get practicing.
23 July 2003
Ahhhh...playing at Pegasus again. I don't know if I really want to...I need the money...but I don't really want to suck as bad as I did last time.
23 July 2003
I'm all lonelisome. Everyone's gone somewhere. You're at camp, Kevin's...I think he's river rafting, and Lydia's in Europe. I've no one to talk to...
22 July 2003
I want to cry. There's no reason. I just need to cry.
21 July 2003
Bah. I was going to say something but I've forgotten what it was that I wanted to say.
20 July 2003
Arg. I'm so band deprived.
20 July 2003
Going to Sarah's today. This is so weird for me to actually hang out with people, like, not at school/band...I'm such a dork...
It's a better place standing high up on this mountain
I've seen your face full of the light that only this height can show
Blistered hands is what we've given.
You've been given all you'll ever need to know.
So walk down this mountain with your heart held high
Following the footsteps of your maker
With this love that's gone before you and these people at your side
If you offer up your broken cup
You will taste the meaning of this life
It's a common ground
And I see you're all still standing
Just look around and you'll find the very face of God
He's walking down into the distance
He's walking down to where the masses are
So walk down this mountain with your heart held high
Following the footsteps of your maker
With this love that's gone before you and these people at your side
If you offer up your broken cup
You will taste the meaning of this life
You're standing in a place of peace
This is how the world should be
-- Walk Down This Mountain, Bebo Norman
19 July 2003
Every weekend I end up hanging out with the same people...I think I'm actually starting to have, like, a group of friends to do things with...arg...This is so weird...
18 July 2003
Arg. I'm stressed...o_0 *twitch twitch* Once again, we have found myself in the position of needing to talk to someone but there's no one to talk to. Yay. I'm feeling good right now.
17 July 2003
You were a brave knight, fighting for the king and
dualing other knights in great battles. Perhaps
you were a hero in your past life.
Who were you in your past life?
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Suspicous; eh?
What facial expression are you?
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You are sort of punk. You mainly just listen to
punk, and not try and turn it into a lifestyle.
You know the difference between real and fake
punk. That's a very, very, good thing.
Ecspecially today.
Are you Punk?
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You're Skippy!
Which brand of peanut butter are you?
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You are a unicorn! Good and pure you are humble and
loyal to the good side and Dumbledore. You
protect and fight for what's good.
What Harry Potter mystical creature are you? (with pictures)
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Rollercoaster
What type of Theme park ride are you?
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16 July 2003
Arg. I had my first Chemistry test today. I seriously failed it. I couldn't answer like half of the questions and the questions that I did answer, I wasn't sure if they were right or not.
15 July 2003
Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I love you more and more
Listen to my heart can you hear it sings?
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change
Winter to spring
But I love you
Until the end of time
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you
Until my dying day.
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste.
It all revolves around you.
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm coulds may gather
Stars may collide
But I love you
Until the end of time
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you
Until my dying day
Oh, come what may
Come what may
I will love you
--Come What May, Moulin Rouge Soundtrack
14 July 2003
I'm getting a new bike! Hurray!
12 July 2003
Megan's birthday is on thursday. Kevin and I are planning a surprise party for her. I wish...I wish that my friends would do something like that for me just once. Don't get me wrong, my friends are great but...gah. I don't know.
Threat rating: High. The Bush administration is
concerned that it may not get a second term.
Therefore, we are going to change the rules so
that each Democrat vote only counts as 0.2
votes because Democrat is a shorter word than
Republican
What threat to the Bush administration are you?
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You are Beauty.
You are beautiful, whether it be on the inside, the
outside, or both. People are drawn to you as
strongly as you are drawn to the beauty in the
world around you.
What Emotion Are You?
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You are Love. You love life, you love all those around you and the
world that you live in. You are happiest when you are doing something
for someone else or for the common good of mankind.
What Emotion Are You?
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You're destined to be with Will Turner! Ooh,
Loving & sweet kisses!
On Pirates of the Caribbean, is your mate Will or Jack?
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Congratulations! you are Benten!
Goddess of love, the arts, wisdom, poetry, good
fortune and water. Originally a sea deity, she
became the patroness of the rich and the arts.
She is seen as a beautiful woman riding a
dragon. In her eight hands she holds a sword, a
jewel, a bow, an arrow, a wheel and a key. Her
other two arms are folded in prayer.
Which of the seven Shinto-gods of good luck are you?
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You got Ranma Saotome! You're a great fighter, but
you're so embarrased to tell the girl you like
how you feel, that you insult her instead. Drop
your tough guy act, and you'll be more
successful.
Which Ranma character are you?
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I think I see a pair of ruby slippers in your
future! You are Dorothy Gale from "The
Wizard of Oz." For a teeange farm-girl
from Kansas, you sure do encounter a lot on
your magical journey to the land of Oz.
Although you meet some wonderful friends there,
you quickly learn that adventure isn't
everything and that, truly, there is no place
like home. Congratulations!
Which MGM Musical Character Are You?
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11 July 2003
I need a new bike! I just need some way to get away from my family...
10 July 2003
Just had an interesting conversation with T.Ball about Calvin and his need to get a girlfriend. Not a conversation I could have predicted having. Especially with T.Ball...
9 July 2003
Went to see Pirates of the Carribean. It was...amusing. I wouldn't recommend paying money to see it, but if the opprotunity arose to see it for free, I would highly recommend it. This is all I have to say for now as it is quite late and I need sleep.
9 July 2003
Today was pretty uneventful...well, so far. But alas, the day is still young.
8 July 2003
I need to get out of here. I need to get away from my family. Recently, I found the outlet of riding my bike around the island whenever I needed to get away. Oh wait, my bike tire has a hole in it. Great. Now I'm stuck here. I need to get away! Someone get me out of here! Pointless attempt...no one reads this...
8 July 2003
Like just 3% of the population you are a JUDGE (DICT). Your affinity for facts and analytical approach to life help you some complex problems and make tough decisions that others cannot. But don't think you don't act like a bitch a lot of the time. You jump into arguments and hold grudges like crazy. Try jumping into the sack and holding buttocks, instead. You could probably use some love.
While some may see you as a bit overbearing and arrogant, your friends know that you are a trustworthy person with depth and a strong sense of righteousness. Although you are introverted and somewhat reserved, you have a forceful personality that your friends appreciate and your enemies fear. God help them. God help all of us.
7 July 2003
Yay! My digital camera arived today! I've also found a new host that gives me more web space. Don't worry, I'll still post my entries here but everything else that I've wanted to put up here (movies, pictures, etc.) will be put there. I'll put the URL up soon
6 July 2003
You represent... kindness.
You're a very gentle, kind, and caring individual.
You truely care about people and are generally
well-liked. Though sometimes you may be
perceived as weak, you truely have a strong
heart and a good desire to help others.
What feeling do you represent?
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What Finding Nemo Character are You?
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EVERYTHING : You belong in a small percentage of Asian females who are an all-round-little-bit-of-everything group. You don't have an accent, but you can speak your own language a little too. You shop at many stores including Forever 21, Rave, and Abercrombie. You own several pairs of platforms and those cute neon colored thongs. Stop being indecisive.
What Asian Girl Are You?
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you're punk!
How can I label you?
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6 July 2003
Last night was, unsurprisingly, not as good as it should have been. I made countless mistakes on the piano, missed several chords on the guitar, and missed pitches when singing. Oh well. We got a ton of money so it really all evens out. We made like $98 which is more than most regular performers at Pegasus make.
After Pegasus, I left with Steven and went back to his house with a bunch of other people to watch Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade. Great movie. This is all for now, but the day is young. Perhaps there will be another entry later.
Mood: very, very mixed
Song of the moment: Complainte de la Butte, Rufus Wainwright
2 July 2003
I'm so...tired...Not tired like I need to sleep but just...tired of...things. I'm tired of having to act nice towards people that are rude to me. I'm tired of...my family. I'm just tired of having to be this person that everyone wants me to be. I'm tired of having to pretend that I'm always happy. I just want to curl up in a dark, isolated corner and cry. The only problem is when I want to cry, no tears come; when I don't want to cry the tears flow almost endlessly. Sometimes I just want to scream and punch something. GAAAAH!
Mood: Frustrated, angry, alone. 
Song of the moment: Superman, Five For Fighting
