March 2003

28, March 2003
Before I start anything, I'd just like to point out that this will be the last entry for March as I am leaving for Tijuana tomorrow morning so after this, check the April entries. Thanks

We had a clinician today in band. He was so cool. I'm going to find out what college he teaches at and go there. It's either the UW or SPU so either way...But yeah. It was cool. I had a solo in the music that we were sightreading and he said that I played beautifully. Good times.

Amy's coming to Tijuana. This makes me happy.
Mood: Anxios, scared, nervous, content.
Song of the moment: Short Skirt, Long Jacket, Cake
27, March 2003
Wah. I cry. Amy might not come to Tijuana. She's sick. I pray for her well being and so that she could come to Tijuana.

26, March 2003
Stupid band officers...

25, March 2003
Stupid people doing stuff...Can't have a stupid band officer's meeting for 10 sinking minutes after school because everyone's doing stuff. Oh, I know! Do it before school. NOT. Amy, Lydia, Jacob, Jason, and Nicole have 0 periods. Great. Just great. Bah. Maybe we just shouldn't get band boxers.
Mood: Frustrated
Song of the moment: Place for My Head, Linkin Park

24, March 2003
Gah. Too many tests this week. Tomrrow I have a math test, in class essay in history and bio test on thursday, and Japanese test on friday. Gah. And then on Saturday morning, nice and early on the 7:05 ferry, I leave for Tijuana. It still really hasn't sunk in that I'm going. Bah.
Mood: Crazy

23, March 2003

You are "The Hardest Things". You and
your significant other realize that you love
each other, but something is telling you that
you need to be apart. You don't want to hurt
them, but sometimes you have to do what you
really don't want to, in order to be happy in
the end.

Which Juliana Theory song suits you best?
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dog!!! your very loyal,a good campanion and you
love atention

What Type of Pet are you?
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Your a chess piece!

What Toy are you
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23, March 2003
Meh...not really much to say...good times and all...but really just not that much to say...meh. You can ask me questions and I'll answer them, but I just don't know what to say here.

22, March 2003
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! I'M GOING TO DIE! CAN'T BREATHE! TOO NERVOUS! GAH!

21, March 2003
Gah. Tolo tomorrow...can't write...too stressed out...

21, March 2003
We can pretend that I'm writing an essay right now, right? Sure. Let's pretend. It'll be more fun that way.

Today's friday...goodness...gah. I'm scared...I'm absolutely terrified. Gah. I'm going to die.

Mood: Gah
Song of the moment: Superman, Five For Fighting

20, March 2003
  Contest today...great fun that was...some parts of it were okay, but it was mostly very stressful. People doing very rude things and such. When a band comes on stage, particularly your own school's band, you applaude. No more. You do not hoot and hollar. You do not cheer. It is not a rock concert. It is a band contest. The most you can do is applaude. Also, keep your feet on the ground. It is not that hard. You do not have the need to put your feet on the chairs in front of you. I don't care how long your legs are. Put your feet and the ground and sit still.
  Another thing, how hard is it to get on to a bus? Seriously. You put your uniforms in the uniform seat, find an empty seat, and put your ass in it. I don't care who's sitting in the other seat. You get in a seat and stay there until everyone's on the bus and then if you wish to trade seats with someone, then you may proceed.
  Gah...still stressed out. I don't think that anything has sunk in yet, like how soon Saturday is, or how soon I'm going to be in Tijuana...gah.
Mood: Blah
Song of the moment: Scream Infidelities, Dashboard Confessional
19, March 2003
Ahhhh...contest tomorrow...I hope they have the stage set up correctly. In the 3 years that I've gone to contest, not once has the stage been set up right. The first year, when I was playing trombone, I ended up sitting behind the flutes. The second year, still playing trombone, I sat next to a trumpet. Not right. Last year, on trumpet, I was sitting next to Joe. Odd. I know. Gah. I'm going to fail...Bah. My mom needs to leave me alone. Or at least she needs to leave my homework/social life alone.
17, March 2003
Yay for birthdays. That's all for now

16, March 2003
GAH! I'M WAY TO STRESSED OUT TO DO ANYTHING ANYMORE. I HAVE TOO MUCH HOMEWORK. I HAVE TOO MUCH BAND STUFF. I HAVE TOO MUCH HOUSE WORK. I HAVE TOO MUCH TO DO!

16, March 2003
My brain is very scattered today so my entry will be, too.

I have nothing to wear to Tolo nor the time to buy something to wear to Tolo. I am so unprepared. I'm scared.

In 2 weeks, I'm going to be gone. Do you realize this? The reality hasn't really quite sunk in yet. I'm going to be in Tijuana building houses in two weeks. Gah. Again with the unprepared and scaredness.

Today I realized how much I like Thin Mints. I mean, chocolate and mint. What a genius idea.

I found some ramune candy. Ramune is the soda in the glass bottle with the marble inside of it. Maybe that description didn't help at all...oh well. I got blueberry and strawberry (two different things, not blueberry/strawberry...which wouldn't be bad anyway...but no) gum at Uwajimaya. So good...and yet...I'm not supposed to chew gum...I'm done now.

Mood: Freaking out
Song of the moment: Cajun Folk Songs
15, March 2003
(The good day thing is starting up again, I'm scared) Sorry I missed an entry yesterday, I haven't been home since 8:15 yesterday morning so yeah. Here's a recap of the things that happened up until today at 13:30:
So, after waking up, going to school, starting and finishing a project that was due in english that day that I forgot to do, you know, the usual. Woodward came up to me after school and asked if I had thought about going to Tolo at all (YES YOU IDIOT, BUT NOT WITH YOU. AND ANYWAY, WHY HE ASK ME?), I said I had already asked someone. I had to break the news to him some time...Oh well. I'm over it. Wait, I was already over it. SO ANYWAY...went to Seattle with Prig, Rick, Psycho, Lyra, Marma, and Bobby. Soooo many people cancelled on me. Not cool. But it was okay...sorta. It would have been so much more fun if you could have come, Little Hippo-san! *sigh* Oh well. What's done is done.

After dinner, we came back and Lyra and I went to the Compassion Overnight (Tijuana thing). We found out our house groups and my group is pretty damn cool. There's four people I really don't know and one person that really kinda bugs me, but the other three people are actually three of my closest friends. Fish, Spazz, and Yetti and the three people that I think are super cool. I haven't come up with names for the other people yet so I'll leave them out of this for now. I couldn't get to sleep until somewhere around 4 this morning because people were talking instead of sleeping or letting others sleep, and not only that, I woke up at 6:30 because someone farted. Great way to start your day.

Anyway, I had a great time last night, hanging out with Prig, Rick, Psycho, Lyra, Marma, and Bobby in Seattle and then going to the Compassion Overnight which was a blast. Most of the time I hung out with Fish and Yetti and that was totally cool because they're cool people and I'm going to get to spend a week with them. Hurrah. Now, I'm going to go take a shower because I'm all icky from not taking a shower since thursay night. (BY THE BY, MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 2 DAYS!!!)

Mood: Excited, anxious, impatient, scared...lots of things. Like usual only better.
Song of the moment: Melodies of Life, Shiratori Emiko
13, March 2003

You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.

What Kind of Smile are You?
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Red/Green/Blue: To you, the world is logical. Everything happens
for a reason, life is scientific. You like to
find solutions. I doubt you needed to take this
quiz in order to realize this.

What color do you see the world in?
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12, March 2003
Today sucked...no...school was okay. Home sucked. But let's think about it. Is there ever any time that home is good? No. Never. That's right. Never. I hate it.

Mood: Blah. Same as usual.
Song of the moment: One Step Closer, Linkin Park
11, March 2003
I knew my good day streak would end...

10, March 2003
Another thing, now that I've asked him...I'm really scared...

10, March 2003
Ahhhh, such a good day today.
I got up, got ready for school, and went to school. After I got to school, I put my bag down in Haley-sensei no room and I paced the math hallway, contemplating asking him. The 5 minute bell rang and Lydia and Amy came out and got me "hyped" about asking. At the same time as being "hyped" I was absolutely terrified. So anyway, went to math, didn't really pay attention to taking notes, went to Divelbess, tried to read but I just couldn't. (Wonderful sentence fragments I'm using here, eh?) So then, break came. I wasn't exactly sure what I was going to do, but I knew I had to do it at break otherwise I wouldn't see him...so! I went to put my bag down in Holloway-sensei no room. As I passed the stairs, there he was! I ran and put my bag down and then ran down the hall and stopped him and asked him! It was great. I couldn't not help not smiling. I've been grinning like an idiot since break this morning.
AND THEN!
I went into band and he was standing outside the band room and he was like, "Can I talk to you for a second?" And he said that he didn't really want to go to the dance and he just wanted to hang out! YES! Totally what I wanted to do. You know, with my hate of school dances and such. Ahhh...today was an excellent day. I've just been having such great days recently...something bad has to happen...it's not right...
Mood: Excited, anxious, happy, scared, determined...so many things...
Song of the moment: A World of Piano, kLuTz

9, March 2003
Yeah, I wrote that entry yesterday very early in the morning because I just woke up angry. Not a good way to start your day. But the day ended up quite good, actually. After I finished my speil yesterday (as in yesterday's entry), I had breakfast and did a little work on my history project. After which, I went to the church to "help" with the Silent Auction. I did actualy work for about 15 minutes until Amy and Lydia showed up and we went to buy food for the auction which took way longer than it should have. The "work" that I did yesterday was really just hanging out with Lydia and Amy. Good times, though. Came home. Watched What I Like About You (by the by, there's an updated movie list, 3 or 4 new movies there). And then you called! Hurrah. One of the better conversations I've had on the phone recently, this could be due to the fact that the only other person I talk to on the phone is Kevin...But yeah...such a nice way to end the day. All in all, the day was pretty good.

Mood: Still pretty happy from yesterday, but it's starting to wear off.
Song of the moment: Adlehyde Castle Flow OC Remix, PO

8, March 2003
I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. Whatever it is, I need to get it out of my system now becase I'm tired of always feeling like crap. No one seems to take notice of it, anyway. I'm just the same peachy Angela to them. Everyone at school expects me to be a certain way and I'm just tired of being that way because that's just not me. Everyone expects me to be nice and funny and smart and loud and happy. That just doesn't work. Sometimes I do get a little bitchy and most of the time I keep those bitchy thoughts in my head. When they come out, people either get extremely pissed at me or extremely frightened. I TOO HAVE A TEMPER PEOPLE! No one ever sees me really pissed off because I keep everything in my head. Of all the 2 times that I have really gotten angry at school, no one noticed! They thought I was being loud and annoying like always. Just me yelling. But think nothing of it because I'm always like that. GAAAAAAH...I'm just tired of everything.

Song of the moment: Variations on Korean Folk Song, Chance
Mood: I don't know...a combination of a few things...anger, depression, exhaustion, loneliness...other things too, I just can't think of the words...

4, March 2003
Waaaaaaaah. I cry, Little hippo-san. Wah.

3, March 2003


avoidant

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Hey Dude! Start your horse and come along, you're
one happenin' dude. Don't get lost out on the
range.

What's Your 90's Nickelodeon Show?
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You are Jack the Ripper. Yours were some of the
most brutal murders recorded in history--yet
your case is still to this day unsolved. You
came from out of the fog, killed violently and
quickly and disappeared without a trace. Then
for no apparent reason, you satisfy your blood
lust with ever-increasing ferocity, culminating
in the near destruction of your final victim,
and then you vanish from the scene forever. The
perfect ingredients for the perennial thriller. You are quite the mysteriously demented?

Which Imfamous criminal are you?
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you're blue. cool. fun. naive.

What's Your Inner Color?
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Your color is White! You believe in all things holy
and feel that the strength of men can overcome
all. Protection is where this magic really
shines. There may or not be a God, but whatever
it is it's giving you their power. Be sure to
use the strength well, because a pissed off God
is something nobody wants to deal with. Show
off your color by using the image as your new
AIM buddy icon!

What is your primary Magic: The Gathering color?
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You happen to be a Flame converse. Yay for you.
You're probably outgoing and.. I dunno. You're
just you.

What Color All Star Converses Are You?
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1, March 2003

Bah! Stupid assholes...I can't even think straight enough to write this stupid entry now anyway
Mood: Frustrated
Song of the moment: Hallelujah, Rufus Wainwright