Tim’s dreams (date’s recorded on the morning after the dream)

2000-09-01
I’m in a real life swat team, but I’ve lost my team, or I’m on my own personal mission. Any way I keep shooting people but they never seem to be effected by my bullets. My gun was being really jubbie and generally it didn’t work at all: it wouldn’t fire. Also I had great trouble changing guns from my automatic to my revolver, and visa versa. The first time I was killed in the dream was by the deputy headmistress at my primary school! (!?!?) Who simply shoots me once through the forehead with a very powerful gun. She shoots me whilst barely looking up and just walks on as if nothing happened afterwards. A lot of it seems to be revolving around this building. The second time I got killed was when I was hiding in a bush, three people got out of this car, preparing to enter a building. I stood up and shot them all but they seemed unaffected and they all at shot me through my chest. Probable Inspiration: SWAT 3 (computer game): where i was first killed was an actual scene in the game Possible causes/meanings: lots of frustration could be linked to my problems with A-level choices. The dying could be linked to going back to school or the severe consequences of making the wrong A-level choice.

2000-09-02
For no apparent reason I’m being held captive in this house with incredibly stupid strict rules. I escape a couple of times for a reason that was allowed: I was going to see (fight) the monsters- they were massive hideous things. These were big monsters like there are in well-animated sci-fi cartoons. The monsters never hurt me, and never look like they really will do. I tried to hide sometimes. Once I tried to hide in a room that turned out to belong to Evil Jared Haselhoff from the Bloodhound gang (!?!?). He was also breaking the rules because he had a guitar amp in his room but he never got punished. They don’t believe my reasons for leaving the house and they punished me very severely, I don’t know how, but I know it was very painful. Possible causes/meanings: (no prizes here) the house is probably my house, the strict rules are the restraints I have. The monsters might be the things that ‘the rules’ are protecting me from. However she doesn’t understand what happens when I leave the house and so she over-does-it, which causes the injustice.

2000-09-04
Right sorry to be so cryptic but this is dangerous stuff: I cant actually remember the dream but I remember what I think the meaning was. It was that because of something naughty I did. consequently something has now been damaged and so the future now looks bad. The inspiration was the ‘naughty thing’ I did.

2000-09-09
This was very blurry but I remember there being some type of (guerrilla) war and Zack De La Roche was fighting on my team, but, for some reason, I had to kill him. For some reason we were fighting in what seemed to be a multi-stacker car park (!) and I him pushed off a ledge. Then I remember having a sword coming down on my face over my right eye, which hurt a lot. I also lost the sight in that eye. Then I must have been in some type of room because my dad was calling at the door asking me what was wrong. Probable Inspiration: watching Apocalypse Now, listening to Rage Against The Machine (hence Zack) and reading about Che Guevara. Possible Meaning: Just a bad reaction to thinking about Che and the horrors of guerrilla warfare.

2000-09-10
A building where when the inhabitants go to sleep they get limbs and appendages cut off in a guillotine style from the bunk above. However it was unavoidable somehow, they had to go to bed in those bunks even though they knew they would wake up with an injury: usually the loss of a limb. There was no blood however. They woke up with limbs missing as if they had been like that all their life. I.e. now broken skin or anything of that sort. Also they were not unhappy and the mood in the whole place was cheerful. Probable inspiration: seeing some footage (‘Superhuman’) from inside a hospital in Laos where nearly everyone (including the doctors) had prosthetic limbs due to unexploded bombs and mines from the ‘Vietnam’ war. Possible meaning: I struggeled with this one. The nemesis (infliction of unavoidable or deserved pain) bit may come from school and the knowledge that the exams will come and there isn’t really anything I can do about it. It could be respect for people in war torn countries who just get on with their lives.