Tim’s dreams (date’s recorded on the morning after the dream)

 ?/10/00
The incident that I dreamt about on 2000-09-04 haunted me again. I dreamt I did what I did but during it I realised it wasn't the person I originally thought it was.
Probable inspiration guilt.
Possible meaning the crime wasn't the act, it was who.

Date?/10/00
There was a big ugly man standing on a wall aggressively threatening a female. I pull out a pen knife to try and scare him off. However he then pulls out a knife the size of his arm. I am begrudgingly forced back. I remember really passionately hating the man and after being unbearably frustrated that I couldn't help. I was also scared.
Poss inspiration and meaning: (this one is not easy). I feel some of the girls that have joined our sixth form are hanging around and pairing up with boys who pretend to be or are hard men, unfeeling, 'down to earth' blokes but are pretending to be or are sensitive nice gentlemen. But it is impossible to be both. One of the characteristics is false. So they are both lying to themselves and trying to fool themselves or they are trying to manipulate

?/10/00
There is a very scary place where there was a good chance of getting killed. I could retreat but had to keep going back in again. It was like an area which was a fight zone or something like that but where I could retreat to was connected to it, and that place was totally safe.
Poss inspiration and meaning The scenario in respect to inspiration makes me think of Swat3 again, but this may not be the case because I had not played it for quite a long time when I had this dream. The whole reeks of a nemesis again. The hide out place could be my house. Any offers on an explanation?

?/11/00
I chased Blur all around this backstage area of a gig they had, or were about to play. I kept hassling them for their autographs. I had a quick chat with Damon about how I hate asking people for their autographs (clichés etc.).
Probable inspiration reading about what Thom Yorke sometimes says [bluntly] to autograph requests ('f*** off'). A dream to be taken at face value, I think.

?/11/00
On some obscure school trip I am dressed in pyjamas and I think my dick was hanging out. Alex P. then tells me I have a small willy.
Probable inspiration as a consequence of going to an all boy's school I am constantly bombarded with jokes from boys which involves them having a large penis. I don not find these funny and I am amazed that these jokes continue because no one actually laughs at them. It seems to me that that male insecurity could be a reason for this (think angles and foreshortening...). These jokes are really start to annoy me after a very short amount of time. The jokes are a small part of what I hate about the sort of boy that Tommies seems to encourage the existence of. I hate Andrew Westlake so much.

?/11/00
I showed some of the songs I have written on the guitar to Noel G. Liam was there too. They both looked very old.
Possible inspiration I always here about those two from somewhere
Possible meaning them being old could represent how out date their ideas of music are, or how there time is simply over. Or it could me nothing and it simply quite a funny dream, especially I consider them to be dicks. Blur rule forever.

?/11/00
Paul Daniels. That's it: that's all I remember.

?/11/00
We still had the old VW Golf. To close the door, which totally detached when you opened it (!), you had to try and push it into the car. I missed to hole in the side and scratched the car. Mum went mental. At some other point, totally out of the blue and in a real rage, she shouted: "You can't wear those jeans tomorrow!".
?/11/00 I was in lab. 3 at tummies doing a biology experiment and things started going wrong. All of a sudden things like test tubes started flying across the room.

?/11/00
I was in assembly and instead of having my hymn book I had my art book. Mr. Pac saw it and said it was very good. Hmmm.

14/12/00
Pete got a portable CD holder off Ed Fitzgerald, but Pete wanted me to pay for it. We had an argument. He was not very convincing in his quest to make me pay for it.