The war has finally ended and by none other than Mr. Perfect Soldier himself Heero Yuy. How coincidental that the hero of the war is Heero; it's almost as if Dr. J knew Heero would put an end to this miserable war. Okay, now I'm getting carried away. I know I should be happy rather than bitter that the war is over, but it's not the end of the war that is bothering me; it's Heero. See, I've liked him for quite awhile now; however, it's doubtful that he would ever return the feelings and I seriously doubt he has a clue. Besides, if he knew he wouldn't give a damn because he's got Relena. The perfect princess for the perfect soldier. It makes me sick to watch her hang all over him and at times I wonder if he even gives a damn about her. He always seems reluctant to be around anyone. I look back at the perfect couple and decide to leave. There's no point in torturing myself anymore.
I reach my hotel room that I rented for the night. It's pretty empty considering everyone is out celebrating the end of the war. I walk into the bathroom and look at myself. I look like shit. I snicker when I think that; I just got done fighting and haven't had a chance to clean up. I start the shower water, strip off my clothes, and I step inside. Memories of the war and Heero go through my head the whole time; I still look like shit when I get done.
I want an end to all of this. I'm miserable and will stay this way unless I get Heero, which will never happen. I decide on a solution to my problem.
* * *
I've ended the war and I survived. I climb out of Wing Zero and Relena runs up to me.
"Heero! I'm so happy you're all right!"
I just look at her; before I know what's happening, she's latched herself onto my right arm and is talking to the press. I vaguely hear her say something about us being together because I'm looking for one person in particular. Said person is staring directly at Relena and me before he turns and leaves. I roughly pull away from Relena's grip and run after him. I need to talk to him, I have for a long time, but I didn't want to risk starting anything in the middle of a war. Something could've happened to either one of us and would greatly impact the other's performance and his life. I run up to the hotel and follow him to his room. I stand outside, not knowing exactly what to do. I'm scared. Yes, someone who has self-destructed and fought against OZ is scared. He might reject me, but I'm going to have to take that chance. I start pounding on the door, but no one answers.
* * *
I heard someone knocking on the door as I artfully slashed my left wrist. Blood trickled down my arm and onto the shower tiles. I hope the person at the door goes away; I don't think I could make it that far anyway. I slash my right wrist and drop the razor when I hear someone break the door down. Someone's calling my; it sounds a lot like Heero, but he's at the celebrations with Relena. The bathroom door bursts open and I look into Prussian blue eyes that are filled with shock.
* * *
I had broke into Duo's room when no one answered.
"Duo!" I shouted, fear tugging at my heart. I heard running water and ran to the bathroom. When I burst in, I was shocked at the sight I saw. Duo had slashed both of his wrists and there was blood everywhere.
"Hey Heero," he said weakly. I had to stop the bleeding; he had lost too much as it was. I grabbed some towels and began applying pressure to both wrists.
"Duo, I'm going to take you to the hospital. You've lost a lot of blood and you're going to need some transfusions to live and it looks like you might need stitches."
"No Heero, I'll be all right. It doesn't matter if I die anyway. I have no purpose left in this world and no one will give a damn if I die."
"That's not true Duo!"
"Yes it is. Trowa and Quatre have each other, Wufei is with Sally, and you have Relena."
"What?!? I don't want Relena! I never have and never will be with her. I left her to be with you!"
"You did?"
"Yes."
Silence filled the air. I thought he was repulsed by me until he spoke.
"I never thought that you would actually like me. I've liked you since we met, but never told you."
"I didn't tell you sooner Duo because we could have easily endangered our lives without realizing it. Then Relena ran right up to me after I landed and you assumed that we were together."
"I'm so sorry Heero, I had no idea."
"Duo, it's all right; I understand. Let's just worry about getting you back to normal, okay?"
"That sounds good to me."
I was happy; I had found Duo in time, told him everything, and now we can live together without all the fighting, without all the missions. We can focus on us for once.
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