~ Maybe it's intuition ~
I had never thought that I would fall this deeply... The moment when I had set my eyes on
you, where you had pointed that gun at me, I had this feeling that we would cross paths
again... But I had never thought it would be this way. Why oh why do I feel this deeply
for you? Why oh why must I feel this way? I... I... love you before I knew I did...
~ But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes ~
The way you move, the way you smile, laugh, and the way your eyes twinkle as you
mischievously irritate me, made me tinkled in the most strangest places. Though I have
given you that look many would trembled in fear, but you didn't once flinched in fear.
Perhaps, you'd knew I would never hurt you, knew that I would treasure you... But how did
you know? Yes... there are things that are unexplained, things that one just doesn't
question... like why your eyes are so large, so beautiful... like the way your beauty
strikes me, a venus rising from the ocean depth.
~ I see my future in an instant
And there it goes ~
Surprisingly enough, you were the one that had managed to beak through the barriers I've
erected in my heart. I saw my future from the very moment you entered into my life, into
my heart, and became an integral part of me...
~ I think I've found my best friend ~
You were the one and only friend I've ever met, the one that I truly cared for, the one
that I wanted to reveal my secrets to, to unmask myself before you... Startlingly enough,
you are the one I want to give my trust to...
~ I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe ~
Though I'd regarded you as a friend, but in actual fact, I wish that you are so much more
that a friend to me...
~ I knew I loved you before I met you ~
I want you to be my love, to be my partner for life, to be the one I give myself to... I
knew I had loved you... From the very moment I set my eyes on you...
~ I think I dreamed you into life ~
But could this be just a dream, that I had envisaged you into life? Is it possible you
were here..for me... in flesh? Not just an illusionary figure... not just an android
created by the Oz to break into my defenses?? Tell me, you are real... show me that you
are real... Love me like you are real... Am I crazy?? Insane??
~ I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life ~
I've never known what I actually wanted... All my life, I was just a tool... I mattered to
nobody, I lived for the sake of being a tool, what is the meaning of my existence?? To
kill?? To ravage?? Or is it just for the purpose of meeting you?? Tell me... Please, I beg
of you... Tell me...
~ There's just no rhyme or reason
Only this sense of completion ~
"I loved you, Heero... Don't you understand that?? Which part of the sentence you
don't comprehend?? BAKA!!"
That conversation we had a few weeks earlier, this sentence kept coming back to me, kept
flashing in my mind the image of you in tears, shouting at me, revealing your hidden
emotions, bottled frustrations out to me. I... I've finally realized that there is no
rhyme or reason, just love... No question about this, it's this sense of completion of
you, here by my side...
~ And in your eyes
I see the missing pieces ~
In that moment, time stood still... Suddenly, from your eyes, I saw the intensity of your
love. For me... I was overwhelmed by the power of it... I was momentarily stunned, unable
to react... Thus, you've mistaken my reaction as rejection. No, my love, I loved you
too... I saw those missing pieces, which my professionalism blinded me previously. I
finally could piece them together - that you love me in return. Please, give me one more
chance, to make amends...
~ I'm searching for
I think I've found my way home ~
I've never knew what I really wanted -- until now. My love, I have been unconsciously
searching for someone to share my life with, to have two separate souls finally joined
together as one... You are the one... I had found my way now...
~ I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe ~
I know this sound rather awkward after what I had treated you - But I truly want you back
in my arms... I want to put my arms around and pull you closer into my heart, rained light
kisses as I make my vows to you... I love you before I even know you.
~ I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life ~
It is raining -- heavily. I was wandering around before finally making my way to your
hideout. At long last, I've found you... You hid well and had outdone me... I'd searched
for you for so long that I beginning to have a mental breakdown.. Will you accept me? Into
your life once again?? I've thought to myself as I raised my hand to knock at the door.
" Who's there?" a bright cheery voice rang out.
I did not know what to response to that. As usual, I let my silence made known. After all,
you have always understand what I was trying to say... You slowly opened the door, this
little unobtrusive action indicated that you knew who was at your door.
" Hee-- why are you here?" You asked curtly, as if you didn't wish for me to be
here... It hurt. Very badly.
"I.. I..." I stammered, not knowing what to say.. Damn me!!
"I've asked... Why are you here?!" You asked again but now in a harsher tone.
I winced, as if you hurt me.
"If you have nothing to say then goodbye." You proceeded to slam the door but I
stuck my foot between as a wedge. I wanted to keep the door open between the two of us.
Should it close, then you are gone from me forever, coz the door ain't opening for me
again... Somehow, I knew that before you've said anything.
"I love you" I blurted out, not knowing what to say.
"Nani?" You asked incredulously. "What did you just said?!"
"I love you" I repeated, in a quieter tone now, feeling foolish what I had just
spurted out mindlessly.
"Hee..." You responded brokenly. I look up to your eyes, desperately trying to
find some sort of indication from you. But I've found nothing. Are you gone from me??
Suddenly, four soft words entered into my ears "I love you too"
~ A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I've found you ~
I laid there, looking up into the sky filled with twinkling little stars and you, sleeping
peacefully in my arms, exhausted after the vigorous love making session we had engaged
earlier. With the vast sky as our blanket and the soft lush grass as our bed, I had never
felt this blissful before. I turned towards your sleeping form and breathed in deeply your
lush unbraided hair that clustered near your face. That angelic face marked with an
exhausted but contented expression melted my heart.
"Duo... Ai shiteru.." I said softly as I planted a light kiss on your forehead
resting upon my bosom. I could not resist that act of tenderness. I just couldn't.
Suddenly, a small smile appeared on your face.
"Love you too" you murmured, it was soft, as if you were speaking in your
dreams. Then you snuggled closer to me, burying your face into the crook of my arm.
"love you too..."
~ I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life ~
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