Title: Frustration
Author: Miaka Maxwell-Yuy(deathangel862000@yahoo.com)
Archive: Yes, my archive
Rating: Not sure tell me what you think -_-;;;;
Categories: ANGST, Songfic, Vidfic, AU, OOC ( the other pilots ), Duo’s POV.
Pairings: none
Disclaimer: I don’t own Gundam wing. I have no money. Not making money off of this. Don’t sue. Please.
Warnings: Major ANGST!!!!! Don’t read if you don’t like. There are also spoiler in this.
Spoilers: Yes, Duo’s Episode Zero.
Notes: Duo is in a mental hospital.
:: yadda yadda :: = What the camera is filming
~ yadda yadda ~ = flashback
stuff in Italics are song lyrics
Feedback: Yes please! Mail to: deathangel862000@yahoo.com

Frustration

By: Miaka Maxwell-Yuy

:: Camera pans to a big white building. ::

There’s no windows in this place

:: Camera then pans to a room with white padded walls. ::

for me to show my weary face.

:: Camera pans to the only figure in the room. It is Duo with his hair down. He has a straight-jacket on. His usually cheerful face holds a blank expression. ::

Rage I hold within my soul

:: Duo suddenly looks very angry ::

at times I cannot control.

:: He stands up and throws himself against the walls, screaming and cursing loudly ::

What’s the point of me being here?

:: He stops throwing himself at the walls but continues screaming and cursing very loudly ::

When being me is what I fear.

:: He struggles with his straight-jacket. He stops swearing but continues to scream at the top of his lungs. ::

Everyday it’s all the same

:: His screaming is heard down the hall. The camera pans to two men dressed in white coming down the hall. ::

trapped again in my own pain.

:: The two men enter the room Duo’s room and gives him a tranquilizer. The boy stops screaming and lays down. ::

I cry myself to sleep.

:: Duo cries himself to sleep ::

so many secrets I must keep.

:: In his sleep Duo has flashbacks ::

No one to reach to me…nobody cares.

~:: Duo when he was a Gundam pilot remembering that one uneventful day. He tries to tell the other pilots about it in hopes it will lessen his pain, but, unfortunately the others tell him to shut up and ignore him. ::~

Trapped in the middle of a distant stare.

~:: Duo after the war ended. He checks himself into a mental institution. ::~

I’ve prayed that I was free ~

:: Duo still as a pilot praying in front of thirty candles ::~

of this grief that’s filling me.

~:: Tears stream down his pale heartshaped face while he is praying ::~

Everywhere I turn

~:: Duo gets up and sits on a pew and thinks about the day he became Shinigami. ::~

Every bridge must burn. 1.

~:: Images of a burned down church. Duo, around the age of seven, holding Sister Helen as she says her last words. Sister Helen dies in his arms and Duo screams with agony into the night. ::~

There’s no windows in this place

:: Duo wakes up from the tranquilizer and sits in a corner of the padded room. ::

for me to show my weary face.

:: The camera pans to Duo. He has a blank expression on his face. The camera then pans to the outside of the building ::

-Owari-

1. Bridge, Church difference? Yes. I didn’t want to change the lyrics. Besides the point is that they both talk about something being burned.
2. This was written as Duo going crazy because of the Maxwell Church massacre and because of the war.

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