A response to Miss Kitty's songfic challenge (ended up as a vidfic, tho).
As always C&C is very welcome! ^____^

Disclaimer: None of the Gundam Wing characters belong to me. I am simply
borrowing them for entertainment purposes only. The song "She" belongs to
Green Day. So don't sue. Besides, it's not worth it when the one being
sued has nothing other than their own temporary sanity to offer. (Trust me
when I say that it isn't much. ^^;;)

Warnings: a bit of angst
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"She"
by V-chan
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She screams in silence,
A sullen riot penetrating through her mind.

[Relena cries out silently in her sleep, her dream bordering on the edge
of a nightmare.]

Waiting for a sign to smash the
silence with the brick of self control

[She stands on top of a hill, alone, gazing towards the night sky. An
obvious plea for help etched across her upturned face. A shooting star
falls across the darkness.]

Are you locked up in a world
That's been planned out for you

[In her office, she stands next to a window, the frame of which looks
somewhat like prison bars. Behind her, her secretary is telling her of the
various meetings and interviews that have been scheduled for her today.
Relena continues to look out the window not really paying any attention to
the other.]

Are you feeling like a
Social Tool without a use?

[Relena standing behind a podium making a speech advocating Absolute
Pacifisim. She can see the slight pity behind the gazes of the people
listening, each one hoping but not believing. Finished, she walks
off-stage and looks at her hands, shaking with doubt.]

Scream at me until my ears bleed
I'm taking heed just for you

[Colony representatives are clamoring for Relena's attention. Each one
believing that their problems are worse than the others. Despite her
headache, Relena pays each one equal attention and promises to do her
best.]

She's figured out all her doubts
Were someone else's point of view

[She looks around her and sees a number of nameless politicians all
crowding her and telling her that the things she is doing are wrong, that
they won't help, and for a moment its obvious that she begins to believe
them. Then suddenly she shakes her head, as though clearing her mind of a
smothering fog, and pushes her way through the people surrounding her
until she can see clearly.]

Waking up this time to smash the
silence with the brick of self control

[Relena sits up abruptly in bed, the remnants of her dream still creeping
through her mind. She stands and walks to her mirror. The look on her face
is one of tired resignation. She tilts her head downwards until her face
is not visible. A few long seconds later she lifts her head and fiery
determination is seen in her eyes.]

**OWARI**

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