The Pagan Heart
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January 2005 Issue
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The Spiral Path
By Rebecca SerVoss
It's interesting the things one thinks about when faced with the impending New Year. My body, my job, my family, my life in general. And in between the resolutions to lose weight, exercise more, and call my mother, I wonder when I became disconnected from myself. I wonder when I stopped pausing to listen to the wind rush through the trees, when I stopped noticing the sun going down in a glory of pink and orange and gold. Over the last six months, or better, I've been trying to work out where I fit within the Pagan community at large. Am I Wiccan? A Shaman? Celtic, Native American, Grecian, Egyptian, or some amalgamation thereof? I know what I think, sort of. More and more, I know what I don't know. And that's the problem. I don't know myself, and except for the long time claim of being a Pagan, I'm not sure what 'Pagan'? means to me. So, while I want to lose some forty pounds, exercise more, and call my mother more often, I think my real resolution for the year is to concentrate on my spirit. I want connection, and I want to be a better healer. I want to reclaim that sense of wonder I used to feel watching hawks float on thermals. I want to answer my own question, 'what does Pagan mean to me?' Which brings me to the reason for this article. This journey that I'm about to undertake is for me, but at the same time, is one that so many in the Pagan community have done before. Or are doing right along side me. You, the readers, are my support, motivation, and inspiration; because every book I've ever read from the self-help section of the book store says real change is only achievable when you have the support of those around you. Thank you, in advance. Over the next year, I will be studying and working to achieve the understanding I want, and I'm going to document it here. This will become something like a journal, with my experiences from the month, or some new lesson learned. I hope it inspires someone to study something new, or reflect on a long held idea, but mostly I hope it resonates with the people who read it. A Blessed New Year to all. See you next month. Beca |
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