The Pagan Heart
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March 2005 Issue
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Working with Energy: Anger through Increased Awareness
By Catherine M.
As you work upon your Chakras and Mudras, perfecting the exercises and moving through different stages of meditation, you will pass through cycles of heightened emotion. This is normal, and in the process you will probably experience some or all of the following:
Occasional physical discomfit - such as headaches, neck and shoulder tension, and cramping. Any region around the Major Chakras may also develop physical discomfit. This is due to the regular work you are doing with your Chakras, thus strengthening your conscious relationship with them, combined with the increased levels of awareness. You may also experience sleep issues, increased or decreased hunger and thirst, physical restlessness and strange, disturbing dreams. Performing the Mudra of Acceptance for five minutes or longer and/or the Dancing Fingers Mudra will help alleviate it. So too will physical exercise, increased water and fresh juice consumption and a healthy diet. For sleep issues, try and create a bedtime routine that includes meditation and Dancing Fingers Mudra work, and if you awake and are unable to return to sleep, get up and repeat your bedtime routine. Emotional withdrawal as you try and deal with your increased empathy and awareness of others. Again this is natural and it will pass, although it is likely you will move into a higher state of relationship based more upon unconditional love and less upon the needs, wants, fears, desires, etc. This is very healthy for two reasons. Firstly, many if not all of your relationships are probably still based in some way upon conditions. There are expectations of a give and take in the relationship because otherwise you feel unloved, unappreciated, un-something. This is not to say that there shouldn't be conditions - it is unhealthy for anyone to be in a relationship where one side only gives and the other only takes. But this shouldn't be an emotional decision. It is an adult observation. The energy work you are doing will help you change to truly releasing those emotional conditioners. Secondly, by moving to emotionally unconditional relationships, you free yourself from past errors. We often return to work through unresolved issues. Unconditional love resolves and releases you. Desire to change not just the world, but your own life - job, relationships, etc. This is a natural result of developing awareness. Part of it will pass as you become more comfortable in your skin. Part will not - signifying the need to enact some change - a natural part of life. It may be that the change would have occurred without this new path, or not - either way, you are now more consciously aware of what needs to change and why. Note: do not act immediately upon any "big" changes that pop into your mind. Some are valid, some are fleeting. Emotional disturbance - especially sadness and anger. You are becoming more consciously aware of the problems within our world, more empathic, and more tuned in. These things create emotional feedback as you move from a state of living with the status quo to a state of fully realising what that means - and usually rejecting it. This stage will not pass, but it will become more comfortable as you develop inner resources to cope with and to channel the energy into change. You will probably find yourself becoming more proactive in areas of your life affected by your increased knowledge and skills. Your internal dialogue will probably increase - along with the "need" to talk other people's ears off about what you're going through. Again very normal and you should let it happen. Channel rather than try and stop it. Your brain is increasing its activity and literally "realising" new things, subconsciously (thus the internal conversations) as well as consciously (thus the need to talk it out). Trying to block this is counterproductive to your new path. Over time, the dialogues will become more coherent, less "hyped" and very very useful. For now, if it needs controlling because it interfers with something, run the Dancing Fingers Mudra one-handed. The hardest thing may be a feeling of alienation from community and family, and an overwhelming sense of homesickness. These will never fully depart. Firstly, unless your community is like-minded, you are different and probably alone or living in a small familial group. It is crucial you work at locating a community to be involved with - whether online or in real life - and foster the relationship with that community to some level. Secondly, the homesickness is a result of the increased energy work and the increased understanding of your relationship to the Divine. On some level you are remembering where you (as in your spirit) came from. You are recalling the total relationship you had with the Divine and that is something you cannot have while here. However, as you continue to grow and advance, you will reach a stronger communion with the Divine and your inner self, and the homesickness will be bearable and less. Also, the relationship you build with your community - which may change as you move from group to group over your current lifetime - will increase your sense of connection to the Divine. |
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