where is the fairness .. one asks as she struggles to find the answers
who will teach me .. who will take my hand and guide me
who will keep me safe .. i sob.

because one is sub .. does that mean giving up all rights?
does one become a doormat .. to be ignored, pushed aside?
only spoken too when the "One" allows it?

i kneel on the floor .. my cheek pressing against the cold, hard tiles
my hands reaching out .. grasping at anything that would give one an idea
how do i deal with all of this?

please don't turn Your back to me .. i'm trying to understand
because You are "One" .. does that mean my feelings are unimportant?
does it mean that You are better than me?

i cringe at Your anger .. You hand out punishment because i question
but do You take the time to talk to me .. to explain and to teach me
or simply say .. "because You are "One"

i kneel on the floor .. my cheek pressing against the cold, hard tiles.
my hands reaching out .. grasping at anything that feels solid
searching through my fear to find one's place

i don't understand .. how can one understand something they don't know
if i were but a small child learning to grow .. would You slap my mouth for asking
or would You hold me safe to You .. and tell me all

was i not told once .. that the job of "One" was to make sure all was well
is it not true .. that a happy sub strives to please the "One"
and that a unhappy one runs

please take Your knowledge .. and Your wisdom i beg of "One" and teach me
be proud of me and who i've become .. show me Your attention so i know,
don't make me feel that i am unimportant because i am sub.

i kneel on the floor .. my check pressing against the cold, hard tiles
my hands reaching out .. for love and understanding .. for a chance to grow and learn
now i lay me down to sleep .. i pray let me .. my soul to keep.

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