Hey everyone, believe it or not but by now I am pretty much comfortable with my life. Funny how things work... I am telling yall. So let's see, where shall I start?! First... my past is trying to get a hold of me, and I have to admit, it is doing a really great job on that. Not only that I got in contact again with a lot of ppl from my past,no, but they actually either apologized for their shitty behaviour, or they just showed interest again. If either one of what they show is real... I'll have to find out. But it is nice to see that they at least spent some thoughts on me. I mean, to be honest, I don't really have a lot of things I should or better could complain about. Hell, I was broken up with on Dec. 25th, and maybe it is better this way... but if you know why HE HAS A REASON TO BE A DICK... please tell me. I am kinda trying to understand that... but..uuhhmm... I guess I gave up on the idea to understand guys. I don't get anywhere with that anyway... So... next thing. My former best friend Annika still doesn't understand why I really dislike her.. hhmm.. makes you wonder where the thinking went, or if there is any at all. That is another thing that I gave up on... understanding her. Shall she be happy..or not... but I am outta this. I am much better off without her. My family, friends and I can actually see that I am in a much better mental condition, now that this "friendship" is over. And though I thought I would envy her... I know by now, that I don't. My ex is a soon to be husband again, and the way he did it... is something I definatley dislike. As a friend of mine said:"The bitter Truth - tastes sweet compared to the rotten taste of Secrecy. A coward is - who tries to hide the Truth since Only secrecy could be worse than a lie." I think this is the best thing I have heard in the longest time. I haven't seen anyone putting it in a better describtion. So afterall I am still bitter, but you guys know what? I am not ashamed of it. I think this allows me to see some things clearer than others can, mayber ever will. So why should I deny that? No reason at all. I just decided one thing though. All those that have hurt, abused, used and thrown me away... will never hear a word from me again. I am done with them, completly and I am very proud of myself that I have dared to make this step. I am pretty sure they all know if I am talking to them or not. Well people... I hope you have a great time, and if you have questions or wanna get in contact... lemme know..