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ang sakit ng ulo ko

So she said what's the problem baby.
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

7 am akong pumunta ng UP kahit 10 pa ang class ko. pano ba naman kasi naiwanan ko kahapon sa cs audi ang nat sci 2/j101/comm 100 notebook ko. talagang maaga akong umalis sa bahay kasi kung nawala yun o di kaya naman may taong nakakakuha at bigla na lang inangkin ang ang di kanya, malamang gulo lahat ng plano ko.bukod sa notes sa tatlong subject,nandun ung waiver ko for natsci field trip on sunday, subscription form sa i magazine na prize ng best applicant sa org ko, at mga syllabus sa ilang subject.buti naman pagkatapos ng pagmamadaling umubos sa'king hininga at walang humpay na paghahanap sa buong auditorium , naitago pala ng technician ang notebook ko. kaya nga kulang na lang halikan ko ang taong yun sa sobrang pasalamat ko.

How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me
but I don't know nothing 'bout love

pumunta naman ako ng mass comm. balak ko sanang lakarin na lang galing CS pero ewan ko ba, bigla na lang akong sumakay sa Toki. kaya bye-bye limang piso. hindi ko na rin hiningi ang 25 cents na sukli. para saan pa? magagalit lang naman yang mga driver. nakakaguilty naman kasi kung manunukli nga sila pero parang padabog. kaya yun, tulong nalang sa kanila...haaay..

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love

pagbaba ko sa mass comm, diretso ako ng tambayan. sarado, kaya yun, ako pa ang nagbukas.pagkatapos nun nagutom ako.di pa kasi ako nakakaalmusal, kaya diretso ako sa canteen. binili ko: hotdog with rice. pagkuha ko ng lalagyan ng ketchup, walang laman. nang humingi ako sa babaeng naka-hairnet, wala na raw talaga silang ketsup.eh toyo lang ang nandun, kaya...

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

after ng pagkain ng hotdog na sinawsaw sa toyo, tuloy na ko sa tambayan . at nakakaasar, dahil pinapapak ako ng mga malalanding lamok. at di lang sila basta lamok. may white stripes pa sila. sobrang nangati ako. wish ko lang talaga, immune ako sa dengue.

Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love

These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no.

pagsapit ng 10, diretso naman ako sa pinakapaborito kong klase :J101. astig kasi ang prof namin. mahilig siyang magsabi ng anyway. bukod pa dun ang tali-talino nya. di pa siya boring magturo.hehehe..actually may katandaan na siya, sabi nga ng orgmate ko: with age comes wisdom.

hanga talaga ko sa kanya.pinagtanggol nya ko nang minsang may kupal na nagbara sa kin sa klase at nagustuhan nya ang topic ko sa investigative report.kaya eto ako, nagpapakabibo para may makausap naman sya sa klase. topic namin variety leads at karamihan nun, ako ang nagbigay ng categories. kaso lang nang hingan nya ko ng example ng figurative lead, na-mental block ako. 97 ang grade ko sa journalism sa MakSci, pero napakasimpleng halimbawa hindi ko nabigay. tanga. kaya yun. naawa ako sa kanya. pader na naman ang kinakausap nya.

Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love

after nito, balik-tambayan ako. maraming apps ang nagpasa ng autobio. at natuwa ako dahil napakaganda at malaman ang ginawa nila. mem comm head mode ako. lumapit ang isang mem about his buddy's emotional state. nakita ko yung app na feeling na ako yung nag-aapply at sya yung mem comm head. may dalawang mems na nagreklamo regarding sa pagpapapirma ng apps sa mems na hindi pa nila alam ang pangalan. at oo nga pala, nagcheck ako ng sankatutak na autobio.

Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love

pagsapit ng 2:30, nag Fil 25 na ko sa AS. ewan ko ba, ang galing naman ng prof at natutuwa ako sa kanya,pero bigla na lang sumakit ang ulo ko.

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love (x7)

Accidentally

Pagbalik ko ng tambayan, lalo pang dumami ang mga autobio na gregradan ko. tapos wala pa yung isang mem ng mem comm, kaya tatlo lang kaming nakapag-grade. masakit na talaga ulo ko.as in,parang gusto ko nang magbakasyon sa Hawaii kasama ang mga naka-two-piece na babae. may isang girl na humirit naman. sabi nya bakit raw ngayon na gregreydan, e di pa nacocomment ng mems.sabi ko, pwede silang magcomment pero after na naming mag-grade. tapos sabay hirit ang isang agnostic na mem," e di wala nang use ung comment namin." tapos second to the mention ang bf ng girl. tapos ang sec com head.hanggang di ko na nakayanan, ang mga tunog na pumapasok sa tenga ko.

"eh, ewan ko sa'nyo..kayo na lang bahala.."

sabay walkout.shet.ngayon ko lang ata nagawa yun. i needed space for a while kaso nga, dapat maayos ko yun.mem com head pa naman ako.at kailangan kong magbigay.kaya after ng kahahabang talakayan sa logbook, naayos na rin.

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally (X 2)

kasama ng isang kaibigang magtututor sa Makati, sumakay ako ng MRT pauwi.hanggang tumigil muna ako sa isang internet shop para mag-blog. ganito pala kasakit sa ulo ang ma-in love.

Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her

Love ...I'm in love

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MRT*

Sa Taft Avenue, sisimulan ko ang aking paglalakbay patungo kung saan man ako dadalhin ng mga riles. Kikiliti ang kuryenteng babalot sa aking bakal na katawan.Mula usad-pagong, unti-unti akong bibilis sa pagtakbo, muling babagal at bigla rin namang titigil. Maghihintay ng ilang sandali at makikipagkilala sa ilang mga tanyag na gusali. Naisin mang magtagal, pipito na ang gwardiya. Kailangan nang magpaalam.

Sa aking paglalakbay, makikilala ko sila. Si Megamall na mahilig magtinda, si EDSA shrine na mahilig magsimba,ang magaling na manlibang na si GMA at ang madaldal na si NEPA Q-mart. Gustuhin ko mang mag-usisa pa tungkol sa kanila, kinailangan ko nang umalis. Patuloy akong maglalakbay, mula usad-pagong, unti-unti akong bibilis sa pagtakbo, muling babagal at bigla rin namang hihinto.

Hanggang narating ko kung saan ako dinala ng mga riles, North Avenue Station. Sa wakas ay tumigil na rin ako sa pag-usad pagong, unti-unting pagbilis, muling pagbagal at biglaang paghinto. Nakahanap na rin ako ng lugar na matatagalan at ng SM North na makikilala. Subalit mali pala ang iniisip ko. Muling dumaloy ang kuryente sa aking katawan na bakal at bigla akong umusad pabalik. Gustuhin ko mang magtagal, kailangan nang magpaalam. Mula usad-pagong, ako’y unti-unting bibilis, muling babagal at bigla rin namang hihinto.

Sa aking pagbalik, makikita ko sila.Si Megamall na mahilig magtinda, si EDSA Shrine na mahilig magsimba,ang magaling na manlibang na si GMA at ang madaldal na si NEPA Q-mart. Lahat sila natagpuan na kung saan sila lulugar. Samantalang ako ay patuloy na uusad-pagong, unti-unting bibilis, muling babagal at biglang hihinto.

# *malikhaing pagsulat 10 paper

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hahaha

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The Sagacity of the Purpose Driven Life
Type: Research Paper
Course: English 10 (Technical Writing)/AY 2003-2004 [2nd Sem]
Professor: Dr. Carmencita Abayan
Grade: 1.00

Backstory

Everything is falling apart.

Due to a frequent anonymous phonecaller claiming that my father had impregnated a mistress of his, my mother succumbed to nervous breakdown, after months of emotional torture. The pain was so great every time I see her in that condition: staring blankly, not being able to sleep every night, and speaking illogical things. It was tough to be in that situation that I longed for people to talk to about what I was feeling , but to no avail. My father was to busy to whatever he was doing while my brother was still too young to understand what was happening. I felt alone in that struggle, disoriented and confused.

I then sought enlightenment. I asked God why He was giving me problems I did not need. Soon did I find his answers to my question in worship services, text messages and letters from friends. Among the messengers He sent to me was Twinkle, a petite and sweet orgmate of mine.

Twinkle, a girl whom I was not really that close to, told me to meet her on a lazy Monday afternoon in our organization's tambayan. She said that she had a surprise for me. I was really surprised when I got there as she gave me a paperback book -- a Christian book. Written inside it was a short note:

Jerry,
When I faced the most difficult hurdle in my life, I asked myself why do I have to face these problems, why do I have to feel pain, why do I have to cry? Now I know that those problems were all part of God's plan. May you discover God's plan for you.
Twinkle

Thus began my 40-day spiritual journey out of my erratic mentality and towards a firm view of life. The book is entitled the Purpose Driven Life after all. With this book , I started to learn things that I should do in my life. I started to see things clearly, holding on to the true reason why on earth am I here for.

Because of the helpful and compelling insights I have learned on the book, I chose its profundity as my topic for my paper. "The Sagacity of the Purpose Driven Life" will defend its convictions by reporting how it transformed people based on interviews, explaining the concept of purpose in our lives based mostly on the book, and reviewing the book based on my sound judgment.

The Sagacity of the Purpose Driven Life

No contemporary book has ever made me understand the meaning of my existence better than The Purpose Driven Life:

It's not about you.
The purpose of your life is far greater than your personal fulfillment, your peace of mind, or even your happiness. It's far greater than your family, your career, or even your wildest dreams and ambitions. If you want to know why you were placed on this planet, you must begin with God. You were born by His purpose and for His purpose (17).

The magnum opus of writer and Saddleback senior pastor Rick Warren, The Purpose Driven Life (PDL), has gained accolades from Christians and seekers alike in 2002, earning its place as ECPA Gold Medallion Book awardee with its profound evangelical counsel on knowing our purpose in life. Bruce Wilkinson, author of The Prayer of Jabez, called it "timeless, profound, compelling and transforming." " If you read only one book on what life is all about," The Case for Christ author Lee Strobel says, "--make it this one! The book is life-changing!" Travelling Light author Max Lucado has also a similar advice, "Whether you are a seeker, a new believer, or a seasoned saint, let God use these pages to place your feet firmly on the right path.

At its heart, the bestseller (i.e. over seven million copies sold) emphasizes the significance of breaking our self-centered mentality when we search for the purpose in life. In the first chapter entitled " It All Starts with God," Warren claims that the reason why people cannot know their purpose is because "we typically begin at the wrong starting point --- ourselves"(17). Which is true. We always start asking questions like: Why do these things are happening to me? What is wrong about me? What should I do to fulfill my goals? Instead of doing that, we should know what His purpose for us, after all He is the one who created us. Romans 12:2 says," It is God who directs the lives of his creatures; everyone's life is in his power (New Living translation)." With this conviction, Warren claims that his work is not a self-help book:

This is not a self-help book. It is not about finding the right career achieving your dreams, or planning your life. It is not about how to cram more activities into an overloaded schedule. Actually, it will teach you how to do less in life --- by focusing on what matters most. It is about becoming what God created you to be (19).

In Chapter 3, Warren talks about the different forces that drive our lives. Guilt-driven people "spend their entire lives running from regrets, hiding their shame and often unconsciously sabotaging their success"(27). Resentment-driven people hold on to their hurts rather than moving on (28). Fear-driven people often miss great opportunities due to their avoidance of risks (28). People who are driven by materialism spend their whole lives acquiring for more (29). People driven by the need for approval allow others' expectations to control their lives (29). Whether it is a painful memory, a problem or a pressure that we base our decisions upon, one thing holds true: everyone's life is driven by something.

While these forces all lead to "unused potential, unnecessary stress and unfulfilled life" (30), we can still choose to live a purpose-driven life. Even University of the Philippines (UP) Atheist Circle Manila member Albert Kim Ludwig Sumaculub agrees, "People who kill themselves or who have this tendency, have no purpose ...they don't have anything to measure with." But as Christians, we should know that a purpose-driven life is a " life guided , controlled and directed by God's purposes" (30).

In 40 Days of Purpose: Small Group Curriculum, the Saddleback church writers state the three consequences of not knowing your purpose (10):

1. Without knowing your purpose, life will seem tiresome. "The sun still rises and still goes down...the wind blows...round and round and back again. Every river flows into the sea...[then] the water returns to where the rivers began, and starts all over again. Everything leads to weariness..." Ecclesiastes 1:5-8 (Today's English Version).

2. Without knowing your purpose, life will seem unfulfilling. "No matter how much we see, we're never satisfied; no matter how much we hear, we are not content. History merely repeats itself. Nothing is Truly new..." Ecclesiastes 1:8b-9a (Living Bible).

3. Without knowing your purpose, life will seem uncontrollable. "You can't strenghten out what ios crooked; you can't count things that aren't there." Ecclessiastes 1:15 (Today's English Version ).

Moreover, Warren wrote also the benefits of pupose-driven living in his book: Knowing the purpose of your life will give your life meaning (30), will simplify (31), focus (32) and motivate it (33). It will also prepare you for eternity (34). " It makes your schedule saner, " UP Campus Crusade for Christ (CCC) member Twinkle Bautista said when asked on the benefit of knowing our purpose. " It decreases stress. You can do more things because you already have a purpose in mind."

And what are those puposes we should have in mind? We were planned for God's pleasure through worship, formed for God's family through fellowship, created to become Christ through discipleship, shaped for serving God through ministry and made for a mission through evangelism (Warren 314). After each purpose's significance was tackled, Warren then reveals how knowing your purposes could affect how you handle problems in life: Whenever problems occur, remember that God uses them to fulfill five purposes in your life: Problems force you to focus on God, draw you closer to others in fellowsip, build Christlike character, provide you with a ministry, and give you a testimony. Every problem is purpose-driven (309).

With Warren's brillance at explaining our real purpose on earth, no wonder the book is selling very well for it can change a person's life in forty days.

Bautista, whose copy was given by a CCC staff member, agreed with the book one hundred per cent. After reading it, she "became more content and it made decision-making easier" for her. She learned to worship God in her life everyday and control her anger. " I am short-tempered," she says," But now, every time I want to lash out at someone, I manage to control myself." She is also now living by the fifth purpose, evangelism, through joining reach-out missions sponsored by CCC. "Back then, I wasn't keen doing it."

Like Bautista, UP Victory Campus Ministry cell leader Darlene Ramos also have been changed by the book. " It made me see beyond myself and consider how I should live, knowing that my life's purpose is intertwined with other people's and governed by God's will." After reading the book, she began to live "deliberately," to live knowing that she has been created for something significant. Before, she claims to be selfish but now she follows this paradigm: "making God number one, other people number two, and me last." She then adds, "it would be shame if I knew how to seek God's will for my life but didn't tell other people about it, plus, I enjoy helping people know about God and find their purpose in Him."

Liezl Riosa, a sophomore journalism major in UP Diliman who got the book from an aunt, is no different from Bautista and Ramos. " It made me feel my worth as a person of direction. I learned that everything I undertake is not incidental." She claims to have unconsciously chosen the decisions she make according to what is necessitated by her experiences. " I now aspire for long-term goals."

Meanwhile, Hallel John Ines, another sophomore journalism major in UP Diliman, happens to have two PDLs given to him. "Obviously, I need a purpose in my life," he joked. His outlook on life was also affected by the book. "It rearranged my priorities,"he said."It made me focus on things other than myself."

However, Ines stressed out the point that there were no new insights found in PDL, " It offered insights that are often ignored." The strength of the book lies in the way the author handled the topic that most people avoid to read. "It's straightforward and easy to read,"he said." It's not full of religious jargon that can intimidate people..."Ramos agreed that the author's style of writing made the book effective. "He writes in an informal manner, and the language is very simple." Warren, unlike any evangelical author, chose to write in a conversational manner with the obvious use of the second person in the text. (e.g You will be either be a world-class Christian or a wordly Christian; It's not about you). With these and the use of anecdotes and practical concrete advices, he has managed to state profound truths in simple ways.

With the book being divided into forty brief chapters, Warren strongly urge readers to read only one chapter a day, so they will have time to thnk about the implications for their lives and interact with it by writing their own thoughts in the margin (10). The book has also four helpful features:

1. A Point to Ponder.
This is the nugget of truth that summarizes a principle of pupose-driven living that can you can reflect on throughtout your day(10).

2. A Verse to Remember.
This is a Bible verse that teaches a truthe from that chapter. If you really want to improve your life, memorizing Scripture may be the most important habit you can begin (11).

3. A Question to Consider
These questions will help you think about the implications of what you have read and how it applies to you personally (11).

4. Discussion Questions
I strongly urge you to get one or more friends to join you in your reading this book during the next 40 days. A journey is always better when it is shared. With a partner or a small reading group you can discuss what you read and bounce ideas off each other. This will help you grow stronger and deeper spiritually. Real spiritual growthis never an isolated, individualistic pursuit. Maturity is produced through relationships and community (11).

Aside from that, over a thousand different verses from fifteen English translations and paraphrases is being used " to allow the Scripture to speak for itself"(11). Warren explained its significance: "First, no matter how wonderful a translation is, it has limitations...Second, and even more important, is the fact that we often miss the full impact of familliar Bible verses, not because of poor translating but simply because thay have become so familliar (325).

Whether the profundity of the Purpose Driven Life lies in its Christian content or Rick Warren's strategic writing skills, it cannot be denied how powerful the book is, being able to change a person's perspective of life . When asked about what is good about knowing God's purpose for his life rather than making his own, Ines simply replied, " You are following a fool proof plan for your life." Ramos agreed, " It's Biblical and logical."

And that, is its sagacity.

# Works Cited
Bautista, Twinkle. Personal interview. 11 Mar. 2004.
Ines, Hallel John. Personal interview. 12 Mar. 2004.
Living Bible. Colorado Srings:Navpress, 1993.
New Living Translation. Wheaton, Il: Tyndale House Publishers, 1996
Ramos, Darlene. Personal interview.11 Mar. 2004.
Riosa, Liezl. Personal interview. 12 Mar. 2004.
Saddleback Church. 40 Days of Purpose: Smallgroup Curriculum. California:Saddleback Chuch, 2002.
Sumaculub, Albert kim Ludwig. Personal interview. 18 Mar. 2004.
Today's English Version. New York: American Bible Society, 1992.
Warren, Rick. The Purpose Driven Life. 2002. Philippines: Philippine Campus Crusade For Christ, 2003.