Today I realized even more fully that really nothing is in our hands, or the hands of the doctors - it is all in God's hands, and whatever is His will, will be. I cannot help getting my hopes up, and being excited, but I think that is a positive thing. My mom and I, all along, have not seen eye-to-eye about the whole reversal subject, but after a long talk late last week, I think we may have succeeded in breaking down some of the walls and barriers between us. I hope so, at least. We are still hoping to have the surgery done in March, but that solely depends on the financing. If we are not approved for the financing, then they still have the 24 month prepayment plan, where they will freeze the price of the surgery and we can take up to 2 years to pay for it. I would rather have it sooner, but it all goes back to God's will. I know in my heart that whatever is meant to be, will be. I know I am jumping the gun, and being impatient, but I printed out a list of baby names today, and I hope Jon and I can look them over together. He wants a boy, and I can't decide what I really want. I will be happy either way, I just want a healthy baby. Boy or girl, I will love it either way.
Jacob was The Visitor, Ari was Lump, and Alexa was just Alexa, and now we refer to the future child as The Other. Kind of funny, but what can I say? I guess most parents do that. For a long time into the pregnancy, it is hard to view the growing child as a solid thing, maybe that is why.
20 February 2001
Well, a lot has happened in 3 1/2 months! We were turned down for the financing, so January 15th of this year we began Dr. Levin's 24 month prepayment plan. That takes the current price of the surgery and freezes it for 2 years, thereby giving you 2 years to pay it off. Well, it has only been a little over a month since we began the prepayment plan, and as of right now we have paid $3,000! That is $250 short of halfway! I am excited, but being the impatient person that I am, it is not nearly enough. Our goal is to have it paid in full by mid-June. I had been considering getting a part time job in one of the KFC stores to help pay off the surgery faster. I talked to Jerry about it and he said it was fine with him, but to talk to Curtis to make sure it would be all right. I approached Curtis about a month ago, and during our meeting that day, he let slip that he is planning on letting Tonya go and have me take over her responsibilities in addition to my own, which includes a salary increase of $6,000-8,000. That would allow us to pay off the surgery very quickly! On that day, he said to give him 30 day in order to make this happen. It has now been nearly 30 days, and nothing has been said or done about making the change. He did say that he was already planning on giving me a raise on my anniversary date before that all came up anyway. That is March 13, just a few weeks away. So, I am left with an uncomfortable situation. I want the salary increase, of course, but I am reluctant to appear as though I am asking for it. I have decided to wait until the 13th of March, and then if things have not changed, I will approach him again about possibly working part time in one of the stores. I guess it all goes back to my inherent impatience. Regardless of the raise or not, and barring any unforeseen circumstances (and with God's will), we should still be able to pay it off by mid-June. It has to be paid in full in order to actually schedule the surgery date. While it may be a fantasy, I am hoping for a surgery date of July 16. I say it may be a fantasy since Dr. Levin may be booked from now till the end of forever, who knows?!
We are planning on driving the Jeep to Louisville when we go. That will allow us to fold the back seat down so I can lie down on the way home after the surgery. I am trying to busy myself with the little details of what to pack, getting maps, etc. in order to feel like I am doing something to further the process. |
