With towing and everything, it was $295, but we get $80 back for the towing. Thank God we recently got increases on 2 of our credit cards. I was upset at first about having to spend the money on the Jeep right now, but then I realized that God was watching out for us in guaranteeing that it did not happen on our way to Louisville. Just to be safe, we are also going to put new tires on the Jeep before we go.
Right now we are just playing the waiting game. Every day seems to be a week long! I am nervous about the surgery, of course, but more than anything, I am just looking forward to being COMPLETE again! Just the thought of being fertile and being able to conceive a baby again is mind-boggling. I pray that it is God's will for us to have another child, or even two!
9 May 2001
Still playing the waiting game, although I imagine I should be used to that now. It seems like I have been waiting an eon to be complete again, and now it is only 24 days away. In a lot of ways, it is still so hard to believe. I am so afraid of the moment in the recovery room when Dr. Levin will tell me what my tube lengths are after repairing them. I know I need at least 4 centimeters in order to conceive, so anything above and beyond that will truly be a gift from God. I get weak just thinking about the surgery being over and done, being whole again. If I think about how my newborn baby will feel in my arms, I lose it every time. I have to remind myself to stay focused and not try too hard. I know that sometimes trying too hard is counterproductive to conception, so I have to trick myself somehow to not overdo it!
Last night I had the weirdest dream and part of it was that we were in the hotel in Louisville the night before the surgery, and that somehow we slept right through the next morning until noon and missed our appointment for the surgery, and now that has made us both paranoid! Jon decided that even though the hotel will give us a wake-up call, we are taking an alarm clock! I guess it made me paranoid as well, since I don't think taking an alarm clock is necessarily a bad idea! I have tried to think of every possible scenario and every possible item we could need while we are gone, possibly to the point of overkill. Sometimes being so organized is a drawback.
I may have some insight as to why my mom has not been so gung-ho about the reversal. Jon went to the gun show this past weekend with my brother and my dad, and Dad and Jon got to talking about the upcoming surgery. Somewhere along the line, my Dad told Jon that they had to go through fertility treatment in order to have my brother. Also, when my mom had her tubes tied, she only had one week to make the decision. She was scheduled for a laparoscopy and from what my dad said, the doctor said he could tie her tubes while he was in there. The thing is, he told her this only one week before the lap, so they really didn't have much time to make an informed decision. Therefore, she may be having some regrets about having her tubes tied after all. |
