I have come to the conclusion that the people who give us negative feedback about the reversal and having another child are probably a little jealous. I mean, here we are having the courage to pursue our dreams, when most people would never dream of putting themselves out on this limb for fear of it breaking. It may in fact be a long hard road to achieve our hopes and dreams, but we will make it. I have faith that it is God's will for us to have another child, and that the reversal WILL be a success. I know in my heart of hearts that we are doing the right thing. It still amazes me that "my turn" is coming up in a little over 3 weeks. I thank God for all that He has blessed us with, and that He has put us here in this day and age where this sort of surgery IS successful. Even if this had been only 10 years ago, our chances at a successful reversal would have been only around 20%! I couldn't ask for better chances now.
I am starting to really miss the kids already and we haven't even left. I am hoping Dr. Levin releases us that Thursday morning. If he does, surely we can make it home by late Friday night or early Saturday morning. I know I will have to just go home and sit or lie in bed, but as long as I have all of the kids around, that is OK. I know Jon will take good care of me, and probably yell at me if I try to do anything anyway. That's all right with me, since I know the first week back to work will be a trial. I can't drive for 3 weeks, I do know that. So Jon will have to take me and pick me up, which means there will be no coming in early or staying late that week. Good in some ways, bad in others. I will have to process payroll as soon as I get back, so that will be stressful, plus I know that even when I am here my Inbox can get piled up at least 8 inches! I can't imagine what it will look like when I get back! They will just have to be patient with me, but most importantly I will have to be patient with myself. That will be the hardest part. When Curtis was in here talking to me today, I gently reminded him of my being away. He said just leave the checkbooks with him and that he would be here that week. Whew, I had a secret fear that he would say something to the effect of "Oh, no I forgot to tell you we can't do without you that week." One more thing I can check off of my lists!
On a positive note, Jackie's sister's sister-in-law had her tubal reversal in February by Dr. Donovitz in Arlington, and just last week she learned that she is expecting!
10 June 2001
OK, we are home and here is the (mostly) complete version of our reversal experience...
It seems to have been a long hard road to actually get to where I am now, and when I wake up each morning, I still have to remind myself that I am whole once again. Kind of like when you first learn that you are pregnant and it takes a while to sink in. We left for Louisville on Saturday morning, the 2nd of June and drove straight through. We got there about 10pm. Want to hear something silly? When I actually saw Jewish Hospital for the first time, I cried! Yep, Jon thought I was insane! But, it was like finally seeing it made everything real. We went to get something to eat once we got there, since we hadn't eaten since lunch, and stayed up till 2am. Wound up getting lost in Louisville trying to find someplace to eat, but we ended up with Denny's take-out.
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