Choose Me

I sit and wonder
thinking up reasons 
reasons you didn't choose me

what did I do wrong
and if it really is nothing 
why didn't you choose me
as the smoke lifts
the picture becomes clear
then fades away again
I caught a glimpse
glimpse of the truth
a truth I can't bear to tell myself

I sit and wonder
thinking up reasons 
reasons you didn't choose me

where did lose it
and where did it go
why didn't you choose me
the flames burned out
and the haze lifted again
covering my eyes
blinding my view
view of the truth
that I didn't want to believe anyway

I sit and wonder
thinking up reasons 
reasons you didn't choose me

how did I get here
and where am I
why didn't you choose me
the night came in
clear with a brisk night air
leaving me alone
alone to think more
about the why's where's and how's
of you and I