Not

I have come to the end of my rope
I stand here looking back on it all
seeing all my mistakes
the places where I fucked it all up
All that could have been
and all that never will be
all thanks to me
I took it all in my hands

I give up, I walk away
I wash my hands of all of this
of my own life
what's left for me to do
Dreams have come and all faded away
I have become nothing
nothing to no one 
just clouds of haze in my head

I stare into my own life
wondering and seeking
I have found nothing
and I lost more than i can take
One more drink for me
another day lost in the fog
myself gone 
at least for now so I can go on

*chorus*
I am not special
I am not unique
I am nothing I wanted to be
just another face in the crowd
another blurry face in the crowd