bottled up

no matter how many times
i pick those wild flowers
and left them secretly for you
those sad sad bouques of flowers
would never have been enough for you

so i'm throwing this into the ocean

so i'll sit alone, cry alone
i'll live alone, and die alone
this hope has crashed
you killed it dead
you move your lips, silence
i convinced myself
that i needed you
but you proved me wrong
with the words you wouldn't say

so i'm emptying my heart
into this bottled message
these broken ruins are all 
thats left to tell of
i'm writing this note of scibbled thoughts
that i wish i had the courage to say to your face

this never came easy for me
i never know the words to speak
i'm praying this bottled message 
will someday wash upon your shores
and love never came easy for me
and i don't want you to see me
and i don't want to have to look at you
aren't you in my mind enough?

so strike a match
and burn my notes
you'll burn your bridges
turn the lights out tonight
leave me alone
unplug my phone
this scar is the reminder
that the staircase goes down forever