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Tuesday, May 27, 2003
Didn't sleep well yesterday. I know I'm going thru' e hard times now. Will give myself a few days to get this over as well as plan for the road ahead. Keep telling myself I've done my best and it's ok that e outcome turns out to be so. Have already conjured a rough plan for e June Holidays. 1) cut my hair 2) exercise 3) sleep well 4) maintain high spirits 5) give tuition 6) read newspaper 7) tidy my room 8) borrow science txbooks to read 9) watch tv! =) k, it's a long day ahead, i need to bruce up and face e reality. Sianz nothing to do so log in to blog again. Just thinking: Can glycerol be used as a fuel??? my answer is: yes glycerol is an alcohol so of course it is combustible. teacher's ans: no. Hmm..will search for the answer later.
Finally learnt how to use the PCR (polymerase chain reaction) machine just now. I've always thought it was a very difficult feat to perform PCR but it turns out to be vice versa. Adding bases to the DNA helix is as easy as ABC since the machine does it for you.
Will pester Miss Lui to teach me gell electrophoresis tomorrow. =) Yah and if possible the UV spectrometer too!
Checked my mail just now. Seems like I'm hanging on a thin ray of hope at the moment. Life's so unpredictable. Maybe the outcome will turn out differently tomorrow? Not sure if I'm bluffing myself but I need to constantly remind myself not to give up hope in life so as to avoid sinking deeper into depression.
Motto today: To live each day w a new hope, regardless of the hurdle that awaits me at each stage. Gan Ba Teh! (which means TRY HARDER in Japanese)
Posted by: Juz Me 11.51.38am
Monday, May 26, 2003
Boring, disappointed, tired and sad day. Well, I know this day will come and I had been expecting it. Its just that I've been pinning all my hopes on it and the sudden loss has indeed hit me hard. Nevertheless, I will not continue to despair. I know I've a lot of responsibilities to fufill and I understand that there's ups and downs in life. Ok, shall SHUT OUT all unhappiness now, even if the sky is going to fall on me tml, I know that at least right now I'm safe in my cosy home. =) Wednesday, May 21, 2003
I know I must face this soon but my mind seemed to be urging me to procrastinate thinking about the matter. Just a couple of months more to university and I know I should have already felt the tension and excitement to this new change of environment. Strangely, I seemed to be oblivious to this impending change. Right now, I'm snuggled up nicely at my work bench, enjoying every single moment of peace and tranquility. I like this moment and I'm simply not prepared to leave this comfort to rejoin the stressful, mind blasting, hectic and dreading school days. It has been five months since I've started working as a lab technician at my school's Science and Technology lab. It started out to be fun but after doing the repeated chores day after day, this excitement faded. However, I liked the job as it's non-taxing and it really pays well. Moreover, it gave me ample time to do my own things and reflect on my life. This is important as the hectic old school days in my past 6 years did not allow me to relax and reflect upon myself. Lately, I came across a song sung by a collection of new artiste of Taiwan's Super Idol contest and became addicted to it. Since then, I've been playing the song repeatedly in my discman. It's titled in chinese, Le Yuan. A line of lyric say "Everyone has problems to face, but we must face this bravely since one day, we'll eventually walk out of it " This is exactly the words of console and encouragement I need now. I've been feeling pangs of depression lately. Just wondering, life is a continuously waiting process. Waiting to be born, waiting to grow up, waiting to get employment of a job, waiting to get acceptance to the university, waiting for a life partner to appear, waiting during pregnancy to deliver, waiting for your kids to grow up and then waiting to urm, u know. But I hate this. Waiting sucks. It is simply this waiting that sometimes, I give up hope in the process of waiting. And time after time, when this depression gets more and more serious, I will tell myself that every cloud has a silver lining and there's hope everyday as long as I'm well and living. Yes, I'm gonna remind myself again and again not to give up hope!!! Ok think I'm getting draggy, will pen off now. Posted by: Juz Me 12:19:41 PM Tuesday, May 20, 2003
Wanted to blog earlier but wasn't able to as I was trying to salvage a near fatal mistake that i've made a few hrs ago....=( ok, was given this task of evaporating a solution to crystallise something(identity unconfirmed haha) To speed up e crystallisation, I was told to add ice to cool the container containing the solution. So this is where e tragedy starts...a fault committed just because I was trying to act smart by simply placing the whole container together w e ice in the freezer!!! =Þ®..Needless to say, they frooze to a single entity. So I took this whole lump out of the fridge and decided to leave it overnight to defreeze. To my dismay, a whole lot of mess was created overnight! Yes, all the ice melted into water and yes, e container was being separated fr e ice finally but to my horror, e water created a buoyant force which toppled e container into e basin containing e ice! The rest was just a frustrating and nerve wrecking attempt to evaporate e huge basin of solution into crystals again!!! Yah, and it took me five long hours to do that, Urgh. Monday, May 19, 2003
I've always felt a strange sense of affinity with the sky since I was young. Looking at the clouds and making out their shapes has always been a pleasurable activity to me.That explains the theme I've chosen for my page. To anyone who happens to chance upon this web, this is a personal page that serves as an outlet for me to express my thoughts. So I won't be including any guestbook or comments page. If u wish to contact me, pls mail me at Heavenblue23@hotmail.com Quote of the day: As a well spent day brings happy sleep, a well spent life brings happy death - Leonardo Da Vinci Ammendment: Decided to change the layout. ============================================================
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